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About me
I started taking testosterone because I hated my female body and thought it was the solution to all my problems. The doctors never looked into my eating disorder or self-hatred and just affirmed I was trans. I realized I was running from myself and stopped hormones, which was terrifying at first. With patience and my own voice training, my body healed and I live comfortably as a woman again. I’ve learned to embrace my unique voice and history, but I regret that I was ever given hormones instead of real help for my trauma.
My detransition story
My whole journey started from a place of really hating my body. I had a lifelong history of body image issues and a bad eating disorder, and I absolutely hated my breasts and my curves. I felt completely uncomfortable with the changes that happened during my female puberty. I latched onto trans ideology online because it felt like an escape from that self-hatred. I became convinced that testosterone was the solution to all my problems, that it would fix everything wrong with me.
Therapists and an endocrinologist I saw were completely on board and they even convinced my parents that medical transition was the right path for me. They never really dug into my deep-seated body issues or my history with eating disorders. They just affirmed that I was trans and that was that.
I started taking testosterone. For a while, I thought it was working. But over time, I realized I hadn't solved my problems; I had just traded one set of issues for another, more permanent set. I came to see that I had been running from myself. I didn't want to die for an ideology that felt more and more like a lie. I started to believe that "gender affirming care" was a harmful system that preys on vulnerable people, like me, and causes long-term harm and serious health complications. I felt angry at the doctors who I felt had groomed me and my parents without looking at the whole picture.
I decided to detransition. Coming off testosterone was scary. I was really worried that I'd look like a man forever and that my voice would never sound female again. The first few months were hard. I even had a guy stop talking to me because of how my voice sounded, which was really hurtful, but I realized if a man is going to judge me for the way I sound, I wouldn't want him anyway. The right person never cares.
I was patient and gave my body time to heal. I did a lot of DIY voice training on my own, using techniques I learned from singing. It helped immensely. After about four months off testosterone, I was passing 100% as female again, both in how I looked and how I sounded. Now, my natural voice is a bit androgynous and mannish, and I've actually grown to like that about myself—it makes me feel strong and powerful. I just don't use that voice around people because I don't want to be mistaken for a man. I can't change my voice, so I've learned to embrace its uniqueness.
Looking back, I don't regret transitioning because it led me to where I am now, but I deeply regret that I was ever put on that path in the first place. I needed help for my trauma, my eating disorder, and my low self-esteem, not hormones. My thoughts on gender now are that it's a social concept that caused me a lot of unnecessary pain. I just want to be me, a woman with a unique history and a voice that's all my own.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
Age | Event |
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During female puberty | Developed severe body discomfort, hated my breasts, and struggled with an eating disorder. |
19 | Latched onto trans ideology online, convinced T was the solution. Therapists and an endocrinologist affirmed this and convinced my parents. |
20 | Started taking testosterone. |
22 | Realized I was running from my problems and detransitioned, stopping testosterone. |
22 | Did DIY voice training. After ~4 months, passed 100% as female again. Learned to embrace my unique, androgynous voice. |
Top Comments by /u/Sure_Goal_1574:
I don't know if I'm allowed to post Osipoff publicly but I don't care. These doctors are subhuman filth and destroy vulnerable children and adults lives every day. Fuck 'gender affirming care' and fuck anyone who supports these money hungry groomers. It's all a lie. This movement causes nothing but long-term harm and health complications and I didn't want to die for an ideology.
Thank you so much!! Initially, I was worried i'd look like a man forever, but you just have to be patient and give your body time to heal. It was hard adjusting for the first couple months but after around 4 months off I passed 100% as female again, vocally as well. Did a lot of DIY voice training. Things get better with time!
I have a lifelong history of body image issues and eating disorders. I latched onto trans ideology out of hatred towards my body and was convinced T was the solution. Therapists and the endocrinologist convinced my parents that it was the solution as well.
This was me for a long time after i initially detransitioned. The first guy I talked with stopped talking to me because of my voice. But, if a man is going to judge you for the way you sound, you wouldn't want him anyway. The right person never cares!
I've done voice training by myself from singing and it has helped immensely. I have to make somewhat of an effort to sound 100% female but it's not too much trouble. My natural androgynous/mannish voice is the voice i prefer for myself because i feel it makes me sound strong and powerful. I just don't use it around people because I don't want to be perceived as a man lol. I can't change my voice, so all i can do is embrace its uniqueness and sing as good as i can.