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Authenticity Assessment: Not Suspicious
Based on the provided comments, the account "TheLocustPrince" appears to be authentic.
There are no serious red flags suggesting it is a bot or a bad-faith actor. The comments display a consistent, nuanced, and deeply personal narrative of detransition, including:
- A detailed personal history with specific motivations (e.g., social isolation, autism, depression).
- A coherent, evolving philosophy on gender ideology and transition.
- Practical advice to others that reflects lived experience (e.g., discussing weaning off HRT, finding therapists, the role of pornography).
- The tone is passionate and critical, which aligns with the expected perspective of a genuine detransitioner who feels harmed by their experience.
About me
I started transitioning because I was deeply unhappy and autistic, and I thought becoming a woman would fix everything. The initial excitement was just from finding a community, but the hormones soon made me feel awful. I realized I was using transition to escape being an autistic man who was uncomfortable with himself. After a failed second attempt, I stopped for good and worked on my real issues like depression and social anxiety. I'm now learning to live as a feminine man, and I'm finally in a much healthier place.
My detransition story
My whole journey with transition started from a place of deep unhappiness and confusion. I was really struggling socially, felt like I had no friends, and had a lot of self-hatred. I think being autistic played a big part in this; I had a hard time connecting with people and would often get fixated on a single idea as the solution to all my problems.
I first got the idea that I might be trans from reading webcomics online. The stories I read about people transitioning made me feel very emotional, and I started to constantly think about it. The more I thought about it, the more I began to hate my body. I became convinced that transitioning was the only way I could ever be happy and have a future. It felt like an escape route from being myself.
I started taking hormones, and for a little while, things did feel better. But looking back, I realize the happiness wasn't from the transition itself. It was because I finally had friends and a community. The hormones themselves actually made me feel pretty awful after a while. I had this bubbly, excited feeling at first, but it was just a temporary rush from the newness of it all and the relief of finally doing something about my anxiety. That excitement is a red flag, not a sign you're on the right path.
I started to see that the trans community I was in was full of deeply unhappy people. Everyone talked about how happy they were, but their actions showed they were miserable. It felt like we were all just playing characters instead of being ourselves. I also started to realize that a lot of my feelings were related to autogynephilia (AGP) and that my consumption of pornography was probably making those feelings stronger. I had a lot of discomfort with typical male sexuality and libido, which I now see is common among autistic males who transition.
Eventually, the good feelings from transition wore off completely. I crashed hard. I didn't want to wear the clothes or put on makeup anymore; I just wanted to be comfortable. I realized that the only real benefit I got was a social life, and I could have had that without changing my body. I stopped taking the hormones cold turkey.
After I stopped, I actually tried transitioning again for a while because I still hadn't dealt with the root problems: my depression, social anxiety, and discomfort with being an autistic man. I used the idea of transition as a coping mechanism whenever I felt hopeless. That second attempt was a complete disaster and I stopped for good.
It took me a long time to really understand my mistakes. I’ve come to believe that dysphoria is a perceived feeling that doesn’t have a single root cause. For me, it came from a mix of autism, depression, low self-esteem, and internalized issues. I don't believe people have an innate gender identity; that idea seems entirely made up to me. Transition didn’t cure my dysphoria; if anything, it made me more aware of it.
I definitely have regrets about transitioning. I took medical steps that altered my body for what I now see were the wrong reasons. I wish I had tried to work on my underlying issues first—like improving my social skills, avoiding porn, getting treatment for ADHD, and practicing meditation. Meditation has been especially helpful in learning to let go of obsessive thoughts about gender.
I think the idea of transition is comforting because it feels like a second chance at life, a way to fix everything that's wrong. But it doesn’t work like that. For the vast majority of people, if you can avoid medical transition and still live a satisfactory life, you should. That means tackling your mental health issues head-on and learning to accept yourself as a gender non-conforming person. I’m now just trying to live as a feminine man, and I’m finally in a much healthier place.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 19 | First began reading about transition in webcomics and became obsessed with the idea. |
| 20 | Started socially identifying as non-binary and then as a trans woman. |
| 21 | Began taking estrogen hormones. |
| 22 | Stopped taking hormones after realizing the benefits were social, not medical. |
| 23 | Retransitioned briefly due to unresolved mental health issues. |
| 24 | Permanently detransitioned and stopped all hormones for good. |
Top Comments by /u/TheLocustPrince:
"Dysphoria is a permanent feeling that can only be fixed with transition" is a pretty dangerous one.
Also lots of misinformation about murder stats - to the point where people were convinced that their lives were in serious danger on a very liberal campus in the northeast
I'm still on the fence about whether there's such thing as a 'real' trans person but it seems like some people benefit from it enough that I can't be totally against them.
That said the hyper online types are irritating as hell and dangerous and I can't really pretend otherwise. I would just avoid anyone who is super vocally trans. I hope that a lot of them are going to wake up at some point because from what I've seen they're usually on a downward slope
yeah it's unfortunately impossible to talk about this issue honestly without contradicting the narrative
especially on reddit
It seems like the liberal side is asking more questions so hopefully in a few years things will be better. Maybe not in online spaces though.
I think there are a variety of reasons?
It seems like as far as people doubting their identity go the numbers are a lot closer to even. I think the male side just has a more difficult time stopping for good
A lot of MTFs just drop the "woman" label and change to a nonbinary identity like "transfeminine" or something.
Socially I think a lot of MTFs are maybe a bit more reliant on the trans community? The autistic types especially. I mean a lot of us didn't really have much to go back to after detransition.
Also a lot of people detransition after surgeries and MTFs don't always have any? That's often the point where people start to regret
I also knew a lot of males that transitioned who had a problem with having a male libido? That seemed to be the thing they hated the most. Especially true of autistic types
Dysphoria is a perceived feeling and doesn't have a single root cause, that's what makes it so dangerous. Once you start to hate your body you can become fixated on it. Extremely dangerous to be teaching kids about gender ideology - people do not have an innate, internal gender identity. That is an entirely made up idea.
I started to feel I was trans because of webcomics, initially. It sounds dumb but reading trans stories in those comics made me very strangely emotional. After that I was constantly thinking about the idea, and the more I thought about it the more I hated my body the way it was. I convinced myself that I must be transgender. Now I'm starting to understand why the idea resonated with me so much.
Transition for me was sort of an escape route. I hated myself pretty deeply, and felt there wasn't really any hope for me to have a happy future. I was completely socially inept, had no friends for years, thought that I would just continue to be that way for the rest of my life... when I realized I could be a different person I started to see it as the only way out.
When I started involving myself in the trans community, I began to realize what a big lie it all was - this was a group of miserable people, growing more miserable every day. I've met so many people who were deeply broken, bordering on suicidal, still going around telling people that they were the happiest they had ever been. They didn't act like the gender they identified as either, which made me realize how fake the idea of gender is.
My life did get better temporarily though, even if my mental state was not actually improving. I wouldn't say there was joy in it, but I had a kind of bubbly happiness at times. I actually had feelings, when previously I had just been feeling nothing all the time. Maybe that was why I held out for as long as I did.
At a certain point the good feelings wore off, and I started to crash. I didn't want to wear dresses or put on makeup, I just wanted to stay on my computer and wear sweatpants every day. I think that was when I recognized that the only real reason my life felt better was because I had friends.
One day I just stopped taking the pills, and I've been slowly getting better from there.
Not surprised, feel bad for some of the detransitioners over there. I understand that its hard for people who just left the trans community to hear certain viewpoints that they've heard labeled as bigoted for years... but that is kind of the value of this community. Ideally they'd be able to make like their own little group without trans mods but I think any attempts to do so would be quickly stifled.
You could always be a feminine man without needing to continue transitioning
Although it sounds like you have some hangups with the idea of being a man that are motivating your transition
I think that's something you're going to need to confront. I've seen lots of men transition for similar reasons, it doesn't work out when you're doing it to escape things you hated about being male
It's hard to say, I think I sort of convinced myself I was trans because I thought that was a better alternative to being who I was at the time. At a certain point I realized the only happiness I was getting from transition was because I actually had friends for once, and that the hormone aspect was actually making me feel awful.
To some extent I think porn and transition both appeal to very obsessive types of personalities - having thoughts and wanting those thoughts to go away and it feeds into a cycle
That and of course AGP/AAP desires that it can contribute to
For males I think it probably has to do more with masturbation than pornography itself - it does seem like it can cause feelings of hypersensitivity, especially in ASD men. I don't really know how common that is or why it happens but it would explain some of the weirder aspects of MTF spaces...
I have AGP but I don't think I have it to a very intense degree?
I suspect I would've been fine if I quit pornography, I still have some AGP thoughts but it was clear that transition was making life worse for me. Back then I did think living as a man would be impossible but there were other reasons why I thought that.
The main thing I would suggest is just trying to figure out where the feelings you call dysphoria are coming from. If you can figure out then maybe you have other options. I think honestly I just had such a shitty life that any way I could get out of that life was appealing to me.