When I first went to the dr for dysphoria in 2011, it was standard practice to first check chromosomes, hormones and more just to make sure there wasn’t an underlying reason before transitioning (so they could actually treat you and prevent unnecessary harm). Now, low t would just be seen as confirmation that your body really wants to be female and you should transition to the woman you’re destined to become. The patients are running the asylum, no doubt. The medical establishment have ordained themselves to be godlike figures. So disturbing especially given the enormous wave of low t and other hormonal disruptions for both sexes due to all the toxins in the environment that are being blatantly ignored.

Yes. I’ve always believed in reincarnation but the first time I had ego death I experienced it to be true and realized transgenderism is absurd. The female body is challenging to embody and the physiological changes throughout the lifespan as well as constant cycles can be confusing. Most of us have nobody to guide us or teach us about anything beyond “you’re going to bleed once a month”. This is not adequate and if you read up on indigenous tribes and ancient civilizations they have a much more comprehensive understanding and structure around coming of age, to include teaching both boys and girls how to integrate into the adult human experience. Why mutilate something so divinely crafted? Those who transition take the delicate balance and harmony of the organ systems both physically and energetically for granted, health and longevity for granted, relationships as you describe for granted, and overall life for granted. It’s super sad honestly but we are reborn in every moment and if we don’t get it this time around, we can always try again. I’m glad you had this realization.

Nope. But I’m an old timer and took passing extremely seriously to the point I could gaslight medical professionals into thinking they read the chart wrong. The lgbt community and especially trans arm is the last place to unlearn toxic traits such as sexism and treating women in a misogynistic way. It’s also the last place to learn to embrace genuine femininity because generally speaking both ftm and mtf seem to hate women anymore and literally can’t explain what it is to be a woman. Everyone has masculine and feminine within them, the trick is playing up the trait you want to express while tuning out the other. It’s a dynamic art, really, not a fixed psychological state. I found guy friends through therapy groups, school, work, sports, traveling, religion, and more. They aren’t quick to open up of course and if you’re still presenting as a woman I don’t think it’ll work well. Just keep an open mind, do things you genuinely enjoy and stretch your comfort zone as far as joining and integrating into institutions and they’ll find ya.

Gay marriage was legalized. Before that, the lgb didn’t give a sh*t about the t. Almost overnight all those organizations with board members making millions of dollars started having to file for bankruptcy. They saw the t as their new cause. Caitlyn Jenner came out in 2015 and that was a HUGE event. I could write more on it, but there was an activism gap to fill and they filled it. It’s all about $$$

All my “trans” friends in high school either desisted or detransitioned (most of them without parents knowing). Some of them only transitioned for a few months, others for years. I know it might seem embarrassing but try not to see it as if you were wrong. Everyone your age explores their identity and most girls struggle with coming to terms with being female. Hopefully this doesn’t sound dismissive but just want to encourage you that at least in my friend group it was never a big deal and never anything we judged each other about, just a “hey I’m just a girl now/wasn’t actually a boy” or “she/her is fine”. The girlfriend might need a bit more than that of course. At least in the U.S., it’s become political so if they’re all trans and militant about it you might have to get new friends but I can’t imagine Eastern European girls being that way towards you. At least from my own experience a lot of them view transition and lgbt (the political movement) as somewhat of a western import anyway but maybe that’s just the older Balkan folks 😅😆

I thought the first pic was before transition! Why wouldn’t you be great as an actress?? I would think being a “trans man” would limit you honestly. Personally I think having been through this experience will help you tremendously as an actress but learning to embrace your true self at the same time is so important and you seem much more grounded and mature in the first photo 🙌 glad you are coming back to yourself, especially before you’ve done surgery! You were right not to take blockers, too.

Re: your edit: yes, and also self-diagnosis didn’t used to be a thing, let alone creating your own treatment plan before you even walk foot in a doctor’s office. Particularly if a minor (and sadly, especially females) came to their doctor demanding anything the way these kids do it would not happen, period. And the things they’re demanding now would’ve been straight to the psych hospital material.