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Authenticity Assessment: Not Suspicious
Based on the provided comments, the account appears authentic. There are no serious red flags indicating it is a bot or a bad-faith actor.
The user demonstrates:
- Personal, detailed narratives of medical transition, detransition, and addiction recovery.
- Consistent internal logic and a clear, evolving perspective over time.
- Emotional investment and passion that aligns with the stated harm and stigma experienced by detransitioners.
- Specific knowledge of medications (cyproterone, spiro, HCG, clomiphene) and endocrinology that suggests personal experience or professional background.
The account exhibits the expected passion and strong opinions of a genuine detransitioner.
About me
I'm a male who started exploring transition after years of being addicted to trans-themed pornography, which was the only time I ever felt like I wanted to be a woman. I tried hormones several times but panicked each time physical changes began, realizing I could never truly look female and that my goal was superficial. Taking a specific medication killed my sex drive, which gave me sudden clarity and made the entire desire to transition disappear. I left online trans communities and realized my issue was never a true identity disorder but a porn addiction used for escapism. I stopped everything before any permanent damage and now have a new girlfriend and a completely new, grounded perspective on life.
My detransition story
My journey into and out of transitioning was long and confusing, and it took me a long time to really understand what was happening to me. It all started, I believe, with a deep addiction to pornography, specifically trans and sissy-themed porn. For about 15 years, that was my main focus. The only time I ever felt a desire to be a woman was when I was aroused; it was entirely sexual for me, a fetish. I now see this as autogynephilia (AGP), which I consider an addiction.
I tried to start a medical transition with hormones multiple times, maybe five or six separate attempts. Each time, I would start taking estrogen and an antiandrogen called cyproterone. But every time I started, I would get this overwhelming feeling that I was making a huge mistake, especially once the physical changes began. I’d start losing muscle mass or feeling breast growth and panic. I realized that what I wanted—to actually look like a woman—wasn't attainable. My hands were too big, I was too tall, my shoulders were too broad, my voice was too deep. I had all these plans for future surgeries like FFS, but it started to feel like a ridiculous joke. I had to ask myself what I was really trying to accomplish by uprooting my entire life for something so superficial.
A major turning point for me was the effect of the cyproterone. It completely nuked my libido. With my sex drive gone, I was able to see everything with sudden clarity. The urge to cross-dress or watch porn disappeared. The whole idea of transitioning seemed silly and illogical, and my previous fantasy of what women were supposed to be seemed like a repulsive caricature. This gave me the strength to try "nofap" again, and I was finally successful, going over 90 days without pornography. I stopped looking at anything transgender-related online.
Stepping away from trans communities online was crucial. I had fallen deep into a cult-like mentality, and leaving those spaces allowed me to see how distorted my thinking had been. My dysphoria didn't come back raging like everyone said it would; it actually disappeared completely once I stopped racing against time to transition. I realized my issue was never really about gender identity; it was porn-driven. I was struggling with low self-esteem, anxiety, and used this fantasy as a form of escapism.
I also started to see a lot of common patterns in the trans community that are just ignored. So many people dealing with this have other issues like being on the autism spectrum, having social anxiety, past trauma, or other mental health comorbidities. For me, it was a porn problem. I don't believe I ever had a genuine gender identity disorder.
I don't regret exploring transition because it led me to this understanding, but I am very glad I stopped before I did any permanent damage. I never had surgery. I benefited greatly from stepping away from affirming sources and dealing with the root of my problem. My life is completely different now. I have a new girlfriend, a new perspective on life, and I see the beauty in real women, not as objects but as people. I feel like I’ve joined the real world again, without the backwards pronouns and false ideologies. It keeps me grounded.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| Early Teens (exact age unknown) | Started watching trans/sissy pornography, developing a fetish. |
| Mid-20s (exact age unknown) | First attempt at taking estrogen and antiandrogens. Stopped shortly after due to anxiety. |
| 26-27 (exact ages unknown) | Multiple further attempts at hormonal transition (on and off 5-6 times total). |
| 27 | Started cyproterone again, which eliminated my libido and provided clarity. Began a successful "nofap" journey. |
| 27 | Stopped all hormones and detransitioned for good. Left all online trans communities. |
| 27 | Found a new girlfriend and a new, grounded perspective on life. |
Top Comments by /u/TransCrit:
Nothing you have said makes you trans. You're probably gender nonconforming. people need to stop self diagnosing themselves because it becomes a self fulfilling prophecy. that's pretty much it. thats all. The only reason you think you're trans is because "trans" is now an all encompassing umbrella where anybody can join, while gender identity disorders are a genuine medical condition that requires some kind of medical intervention. You can still be larger, stronger as a woman if you choose your diet and exercise routine carefully.
I was AGP (am if you consider it an addiction like I do). I used cypro as my antiandrogen instead of spiro and it absolutely nuked my libido when i was on it. This helped give me clarity to the whole "transgender ideology" and what exactly I was following along with. My need to crossdress and/or watch porn completely disappeared, the though of transitioning was silly and illogical, and the whole caricature of what I believed women were or were supposed to be was repulsive.
Anyway with my libido now out of the way, I decided to try nofap again and have been successful (day 57). Haven't looked at a single porn site since, I stay away from any and everything transgender related, new girlfriend, new found faith on life. I honestly think my issue was completely porn driven. Any questions just ask
Funny enough, I feel like the complete opposite. I tried transitioning hormonally like 5 or 6 times and it always felt like I was making a huge mistake once I started losing muscle mass or growing breast. Detransitioning feels like I'm joining the real world all over again. No backwards pronouns, no false and nonsensical ideologies, just reality. Keeps me grounded day to day.
The trans community doesn't allow it because imo they understand once alternatives present, it'll dismantle their identity.
I remember a while ago before I started considering detransitioning, there was a huge discussion on the ask sub. The question was: if there was a magic pill that you could take that would align your mental "gender" with your birth sex essentially getting rid of your dysphoria, would you take it or live as you are now and just transition. The people saying they would obviously take the pill and not suffer were all downvoted or argued with, while the people saying they would just live as they are now and still end up transitioning were upvoted and cheered. Why wouldn't you just take the pill and get rid of the suffering? That told me these people have formed an identity and were more intent on protecting that identity than considering alternatives to "transition" that may be possible in the future. They thought that metaphoric pill was unethical but transing children is ok. That was one of my first instances of realizing the crowd I was dealing with....slowly backed away after that.
Consider this: The first step in solving a problem is acknowledging there is a problem. The second step is taking the first step towards fixing it. You at least realize something about all this isn't right aka step 1. Most people with this illness dont even get that far! Its easy to freak out once you realize how insane all this was and that you got wrapped up on it. The most important thing you can start doing right now, is focusing on step 2, not giving up.
Stay away from those subs, trans porn, etc. You will only go back into the delusion and probably fall harder into it each time you go back unless you have the willpower to pull yourself out each time. If you want to dwell in reality, stay on here, r/itssafetish, and some r/GenderCritical.
Good point. There’s definitely correlations and trends which seem to take place: introverted, video games, nerdy, anime, on the spectrum, etc. to just ignore these things is doing a disservice to these individuals. Then there is the whole Blanchard typology which an honest majority do seem to fit into, which is why I think a lot of trans identifying people don’t want that information floating around, contesting their ideology. It got me questioning and led me onto this path. It all just makes so much sense now on the “other side”.
I can relate a bit. As I was on hormones and "transitioning" mtf, it became more clear what I wanted wasn't actually attainable. My hands were too large, my height, shoulder width, ribcage size, feet, muscle/bone mass, deep voice, facial length/structure. I would create these goals I planned to attain eventually like FFS, or tracheal shave, work on making my voice softer, etc.
It just felt like a joke after a while and I had to stop and ask myself wtf I was really trying to accomplish. Was I really going to uproot my entire life for these superficial wants? How am I trans? Is my dysphoria bad enough? How do I know i'm a woman if i've never been a woman to compare it to or isn't really just a fetish i've picked up along the way somewhere? (that last one sent me on a trip of realization faster than anything). The more time I spent away from trans subs, LGBT twitter/instagram all of that faded away. Its pretty scary thinking back on how I fell so deeply into that cult mentality. Nowadays it just seems like a distant past I can't really recognize anymore and i'm thankful for that.
Your negative feedback mechanism is always fighting to restore equilibrium, even during those 5 years. This whole "if you're on longer than 18 months you'll never go back to normal levels" is nonsense and idk where people got it from - healthcare provider
To me personally the bigger problem is the ever growing crowd of gender critical and defintitelynotquestioning trans identifying folks here taking over. The gendercritical crowd is highly aggressive towards MTF detrans or questioning, and the trans crowd comes in with the subtly of trying to get detrans people to transition again. Once again, people who are actually detransitioning have their voices silenced and nowhere to go. Theres already subs for both of those groups. I feel this needs to be kept in check.
. If someone is coming here lost and it seems like there is good reason to suspect based on your experiences that they would benefit from hormones or surgery, it is reasonable to advocate for what has helped you as long as it isn't trying to convince someone of something they have decided against.
This is dangerous. If you are not a medically licensed physician, you shouldn't be recommending anything, especially to a younger impressionable crowd like this subreddit tends to attract.