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About me
I was born female and never fit the expectations placed on girls, so I thought I had to be a man to be myself. I now see my transition was driven by internalized homophobia and a desperate escape from the misogyny I faced as a butch lesbian. I feel the medical system preyed on my insecurities, offering a permanent solution to a social problem. I found real healing in communities that celebrated radical self-expression and body acceptance without medical intervention. I’ve come to accept that I am a female and a lesbian, and I no longer believe I need to change my body to be valid.
My detransition story
My journey with gender was long and complicated, and looking back, I see it was influenced by so many things I didn't understand at the time. I was born female, and I always felt like I didn't fit in with the expectations placed on girls. I hated the idea that I had to "act like a girl." I liked cars and video games and just wanted to be myself without a label.
A huge part of my struggle was that I'm a lesbian, and I deeply despised the way the world treats butch lesbians. The misogyny and homophobia made it feel impossible to just be a woman who loves women. It felt so much easier, and more accepted in certain circles, to just say I was a trans man. Dating was a big factor; it felt easier to find a partner on a T4T basis on an app like Grindr than to navigate the world as a butch lesbian, even though I now see that most gay men wouldn't be interested in me. It was like wearing a mask to hide what I really wanted, which was to be with other women.
I also have a lot of anger about how society treats gender expression. I hate that we live in a world where a man can't just wear makeup and cute clothes without people assuming he must be a woman "deep down." I don't think you need to be trans to explore different fashions. I wish we could all just love our bodies and play with presentation without immediately jumping to medical intervention. For me, that medical path felt like the only option to be allowed to look and act the way I wanted, and that's a real failure of our culture.
I eventually realized that my desire to transition was wrapped up in internalized homophobia and a desperate need to escape the box I felt trapped in as a female. I was trying to fix a social problem with a medical solution. I see now that doctors and surgeons have a financial incentive to affirm every patient who walks in the door. They make a lot of money from lifelong medications and surgeries, and they're terrified of being called transphobic. The whole system felt like it was preying on my insecurities, just like makeup companies prey on teen girls, selling them a "fix" for their natural selves.
I found a lot of healing outside of that medical model. I benefited immensely from events like Burning Man and regional burner events. The principle of "radical self-expression" was a revelation. At one event, I experienced a camp where people showered together naked in a big, foamy, consensual group. It was incredibly wholesome and showed me what real body acceptance could look like, without anyone trying to sell me anything or tell me I needed to change. It was about community and self-love, not surgery and hormones.
I don't regret my social transition because it was a necessary part of my journey to understanding myself. But I am deeply critical of the medical industry that profits from it and the societal pressures that make it feel like the only path. I regret that I ever felt I had to change my body to be accepted for who I am. My truth is that I am a female, a lesbian, and I'm finally learning to just be me.
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| (Age not specified in comments) | Felt discomfort with societal expectations for my female sex. Hated the idea that I had to "act like a girl." |
| (Age not specified in comments) | Identified as a butch lesbian but felt intense pressure from misogyny and homophobia. |
| (Age not specified in comments) | Socially transitioned to male. Felt it was an easier path for dating and social acceptance than being a butch lesbian. |
| (Age not specified in comments) | Became critical of the medical industry, seeing it as financially motivated and predatory. |
| (Age not specified in comments) | Attended burner events and experienced radical body acceptance and self-expression, which aided my healing. |
| (Age not specified in comments) | Detransitioned. Realized my transition was influenced by internalized homophobia and a desire to escape misogyny. Accepted myself as a female lesbian. |
Top Comments by /u/TreePangolin:
Doctors will encourage and affirm 100% of the time because they are making a lot of money from unnecessary surgeries and medicalizing/medicating patients for life, as tragic as that is. Being labeled transphobic is also a career-ender for them these days, so better to agree than question, ever. On the outside it seems progressive, but at the end of the day, it's only about money.
Same reason makeup and clothing companies make so much money - they prey on the insecurities of teen girls in a misogynist world. It was never about self-acceptance, it's about spending more money to "fix" yourself in order to become socially acceptable.
I'm so sorry that this happened to you. I've had several trans people tell me that the "born in the wrong body" narrative is wrong and transphobic... which is frustrating, because what real narrative do they have, if not that one? If they aren't born in the wrong body, then why would they need hormones and surgery at all? Why can't we have a real movement of body-positivity, self-acceptance, and gender exploration without having to hurt of maim children in the process?
You don't have to "act like a boy" or "act like a girl". Just be yourself. Accept that boys can like pink, girls can like cars and video games, there isn't any special way you need to act based on your sex or gender. Try to get out and meet people based on something like a hobby (bird watching, card games, dancing, a sport? try meetup.com) and if anyone asks about your gender just say you're still figuring it out. It doesn't have to be a big deal.
you despised being a butch lesbian because unfortunately the world is still deeply misogynist. It's often so much easier to date another female if you are both trans and have T4T on your grindr profile. The trans community will embrace this and heavily encourage you (even though 99.9% of gay men won't be interested in dating you at all), meanwhile it's usually just a mask to hide that you want to be with other women. And honestly that's ok! Forgive yourself. Right now it's easier to hide behind transition and play the part than embrace who you really are and what you truly want, which sadly feels like the exact opposite of what the LGBT movement is meant to be about. Doctors are getting rich off of unnecessary surgeries while popular culture says it's a sin to question these sorts of procedures in any way... trapping people like you into lies in the process.
Trust me, I've had friends transition back and forth more than once, they are always worried about what other people think, but in the end, the only person you need to please is you. Others who love you will just want you to be happy and accept whatever you choose. Those who mind don't matter and those who matter won't mind. <3
I hate that we live in a world where men can't easily wear makeup and cute clothes and explore that part of themselves openly. Not everyone who wants to try out different fashions has to be trans. If we really want gender equality, why does a man need to "actually" be a woman deep down in order to wear makeup? It just feels small-minded to me.
I'm not saying makeup alone would necessarily solve a trans person's dysphoria, just that it upsets me to see that when cis men or women play with their gender expression, the assumption is automatically that they must be genderqueer, NB or trans. Being trans is a big deal, medical transition especially is a lot of time and money and work and it's definitely not something that is right for everybody. And yet it gets pushed on people who feel like they can't explore certain looks or fashions otherwise. I wish we could learn to love our bodies and ourselves and freely explore with any sort of presentation before ever coming to the step where we need to intervene with things like doctors and hormones. Sadly the world we live in is kind of all-or-nothing when it comes to that.
Burning man or regional burner events are also really great for stuff like this. It's usually not full-on nudity everywhere, but they enforce no rules whatsoever around dress code and encourage "radical self expression" so you see plenty of topless or naked people and the vibe is extremely open and inclusive and accepting. One of the principles is "radical inclusion" so everyone is welcome to participate and do whatever they want really. One of the camps that goes to a lot of events is called the "foamy homies" - they have a huge box that can hold about 20-30 people and they spray everyone down with foam and water and you get to shower together naked in a big group while a live band plays music - they are strict about consent so it doesn't get creepy in there, it's actually very wholesome and disarming being around that many naked people all having a great time and sharing the experience. Just putting that out there in case you might not be ready to go to a full-blown nudist event. The burner culture isn't perfect but I really love a lot of things about it, body acceptance and nothing for sale (strictly gift economy only) are two of the big ones for me. There's more than likely one near you if you're curious to check it out!