It’s wild what people focus on, instead of things that actually really matter, like actual health. A lot of the pharmaceuticals and surgeries trans will subject themselves to, will actually be self-inflicted adverse health repercussions down the line. It’s WILD!

I agree with you to a point. We all need to take responsibility for our choices. But I also have come to understand this as ideology that has been top down, infiltrated and intentionally pushed on children and mainstream culture, and I think it’s disgusting and wrong, because humans are pretty impressionable and children and young adults, more so. So yes, take responsibility, know better, do better, but don’t look past what has been done intentionally to get a whole generation of children and young adults swept up in this ideology.

It is sad. I wish we prioritized a more meaningfully educated population, over medical industry complex profits, because it really seems like we are protecting a right to profit, more than a right to be educated enough, to not make such terrible decisions, like ruining one’s own health.

I could use more clarity, honestly. I’ve read this twice but still having some trouble figuring out what the question is exactly. Something about not liking yourself in photos and videos? I feel like you are writing chaotically, like how you must be feeling.

I will say that I have felt really uncomfortable with myself a lot in my life, as a female. Feeling like I should sound or look or act or think certain ways. I have changed my persona and changed all those things about myself from time to time, tried on new ways of expressing that I thought were more likable. I still feel this sometimes and I’m still working on who I’m becoming, but it lessened a lot after I had a child. The focus was taken away from myself and onto my child. It really helped me with a lot of things actually. I think my point is, your problems are stemming from your own self-consciousness and thoughts over analyzing yourself and over criticizing. Remember to love yourself and that the right ones will love you too. You can of course continue developing how you want to behave and maybe share that with your partner, so they know you are still trying to decide how you sound and act. Which the right ones would respect or even find personally liberating, for they themselves, to not get stuck in an adolescent expression and feel free to grow and change and develop their own selves too. Lastly, I think we are in a world too often influenced by social media fakeness. I have found that whenever I’m feeling bad about myself because I’m not as fit as I used to be or I have to always be getting rid of the hairs that grow from my chin, a visit to Walmart is a nice reality check. Walk around the aisles of Walmart. This is what people look and sound like. It’s not social media. It’s often unattractive and not ideal. It’s a great reminder that I am good enough. I’m like everyone else. And one day I will find my person who loves me and all I have evolved into or failed to evolve into. We are all perfectly imperfect, we are human. I hope I maybe brought some value to you today. I probably didn’t hit the nail on the head of what you needed, but I hope someone does for you. Good luck!