I had sex with one trans person after desisting, and during a nofap phase as a single when I was extremely horny- getting sex only on dates makes the desire even worse.

Honestly the individual was very much male in the personality, so easy going and very interested in sex early- but the experience with the "neovagina" was very sad. Stiff, internal hair, bad smell, painful, no pleasure- it was very sad.
Meanwhile Ive only met one woman under 30 that even needed lubrication to have sex, and after that she was all good to go, no pain whatsoever.

You have to be very mean honestly to make people into "pleasure-eunuchs" for someone else, that dont even work sexually, arent even pleasurable, and get passed up on by most people.

It seems like one of the strongest ideological powers right now is queer-ideology together with capitalist incentives.

If you can just convince people trans is the most "cool subverting of the patriarchal white gender norms", find some kids with existing trauma that are easy to recruit, you can make a constant cash-cow for a surgical clinic for years.

I would argue the whole queer ideology is inherently contradictory.
I know many marxist dictatorships, and totalitarian religious regimes and cults, have hold these types of "double-think" that adherents have to accept. Because there is no free thought or expression, so these ideas can survive uncontradicted.

The queer ideology adherent has to simultaneously believe that:
1) Religion is evil and god/souls doesent exist.
2) Gender roles are just social constructs with no biological basis, and should be subverted/disrupted/decolonized.
3) People have a gendered soul and need to be treated with sexual hormones to fit the correct biological sex/gender.

Now buddhists dont cause much harm to other people, but there is a sort of suicidal behaviour in the meditation and ceasing thinking and having desire for life, as well as at least during meditation, accepting very impossible things, all for reaching a perfection of the philosophy/religion- an end of self.
I cant help but think that gender ideology is a similar destruction of the self, sacrificing your whole identity, body, and believing in impossible things- all in the name of reaching some sort of perfection within the framework of the ideology, becoming an automaton that just believes what it is told.
Yuri Bezmenov argued the KGB created the modern US leftist ideologies mostly to subvert and destroy the national culture, but it feels like gender/queer ideology has become something more.

and yes, there are people for whom transition makes them happier

What makes me sceptical about this is that most studies find really poor happiness long term.

This study even found transgenders after treatment have really poor outcomes, tried to motivate that the treatment was still valid, and ended up having to issue a correction: https://news.ki.se/transgender-individuals-at-greater-risk-of-mental-health-problems

One year later some brave souls spoke out about puberty blockers, and they stopped using them at Karolinska institute <3

It really was for a while- but if you think about its a very conservative idea at this point, to be allowed some personal freedom and not having to follow a mold.

Modern leftism does not want color-blindness or equal treatment or equality for a long while. Nowadays its all about equity for certain groups, and they are expected to behave a certain way, and you are not supposed to deviate.
Behaving outside your expected behaviour? Appropriation. Being too feminine as a guy? You are queer, gay or trans.

Its not about you being a musician or lawyer, what you can contribute to society or your loved ones anymore, its surface-level bs, who you fuck, how you fuck, what you look like.

*Now I have a hard time believing transition is good for anyone. I end up consuming a lot of culture war content on the subject, and a part of me wishes I could just live and let live and move on. But another part of me feels a new perspective on this subject needs to be heard.*
*Anyone else feel similarly? Or even different and want to share your perspective?*

Very similarly- Im sure its a combination of leftist ideology of destroying "western white patriarchal culture norms" being supported by a lot of financial muscle in the medical industry, and this ending up with this really contradictory religious ideology where gender role should be destroyed, but are also really important to align with your body.

You need a very totalitarian situation to be able to push those things, but when you can get fired on the spot for speaking out against the ideology in any way, people just comply.

*The last three years of my life have been absolutely horrible. I entered therapy after (another) major trauma and was exploring gender after getting into a marriage I never wanted any part of. Unfortunately my therapist was an affirming one. Despite being comfortable my entire life as a GNC female, I almost ruined my entire life with the idea of trans transition. Sure, my gender and sex don’t match up neatly, but I cannot believe I almost destroyed my entire body over these ideas. Who cares if my sex and gender aren’t perfectly aligned. I care about my body.*

Its easy if you already lean into these ideas due to your political allegiance or worldview so to say, that some life-crisis turns you more religious/ideological, especially if someone is "cheering you on".
In many countries therapists cant even dissuade you legally from not-transitioning, they have to suggest transitioning, otherwise its "conversion therapy".

I would suggest listening to detrans interviews on "calmversation", seems like a lot of detrans with more difficult transitions find different ways to go on.

*I know I will never be a real woman or female. I don’t care. I want to be a transsexual woman. I have been living it everyday for months now. Because from my experience, it’s a hell of a lot happier and more acceptable to be a feminine trans woman, than being a regular fag.*

I would recommend checking out TulipR on youtube and his interviews.

Honestly sounds a lot better to "be a regular fag"- at least there is a hope of a longer relationships, rather than guys just "trying it out", being dissapointed and you ending up with thousands of one-night-stands, with no deeper connections to show for it.

My little sister will be so disappointed if I come out, I asked her what she would think pretending to be joking, and she looked disgusted at me and said “no ew”.
I’ve thought about waiting till I’ve moved out and moved far away before I come out as detrans because I’m really scared. I don’t know if I should wait or not.

Are you living in some sort of leftoid honor-culture, or did your parents pressure you to socially transition?

Unless thats the case I dont think going back to your birthname and trying to change your name back.

My only push back, I don't believe there are "real" trans people. There are people who transition resonates with, but that doesn't make them any more or less "real" than we were. We weren't "fake trans" as many of the detransphobes say.

Ive found it really interesting how some people that believe in real trans get really offended by people saying "attack helicopters" is basically just as much a valid gender, or non-binaries to come with a more politically accepted gender on the left.

Thing is, wanting to escape a shitty situation by creating an alter ego is not an uncommon trauma response- Im sure a lot of the people that use anime-avatars, or have a furry alter, have very similar coping strategies as "normal" trans people do.

Trans are real in the same way furries are- people feel bad about themselves all the time, escaping is appealing, we have just enforced it and made it the accepted state-religion in the west.