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About me
I started identifying as transgender at 12, partly because I grew up without my mom and lacked a female example. I began testosterone at 16, believing it would fix me, but I later realized my desire to be male was a wish, not my reality. I had to stop the hormones on my own when my doctor was unhelpful, which was frightening. Now, at 18, I've detransitioned and am learning to define my own femininity without pressure. I don't regret the journey, as it helped me understand that my feelings stemmed from trauma, and it's okay to just be myself.
My detransition story
My whole journey started when I was around 12 years old. I never really had a female influence growing up because my mom left when I was younger, and I think that played a huge part in it. It was like a coping mechanism for me; being male was what I knew and what felt comfortable because I didn't have that example of how to be a woman.
I wished so badly that I was a man. I wished it so hard that I convinced myself I could actually become one. I think I started to believe that if I wanted it enough, that made it true. I officially came out as trans and started using a new name and pronouns when I was 12. I was really young and I got a lot of my ideas from being online.
I started taking testosterone when I was 16. I was on a dose of about 3.1. For a while, it felt like it was the right path for me, like I was finally fixing something that was wrong. But over time, I started to realize that my feelings were more complicated. I had to separate the feeling of wishing I was a man from actually being one. I realized that just because I would choose to be a man if I were born again, doesn't mean I am one now.
I decided I needed to stop testosterone. It was frustrating because my doctor was being really dodgy and hard to get ahold of, which made the process scary. I wasn't sure how to safely come off of it. I missed a shot and was three days late, and I was worried about what to do. I decided to taper down my dose slowly to be safe, doing half a dose for a while before stopping completely. I had my last doctor's appointment in mid-February to finally end it.
Now, at 18, I've detransitioned. I don't really care if people still use my old trans name or pronouns; I'm just existing as I am. I'm trying to figure out what kind of woman I want to be and exploring femininity on my own terms, which isn't as scary as I thought it would be. I don't have any serious health complications from being on T, and I'm thankful for that.
I don't exactly regret transitioning because I think I needed to go through it to get to where I am now and understand myself better. But I do think my reasons were tied to trauma and a lack of female role models, not an innate male identity. My thoughts on gender now are that we need to be more careful and separate our wishes from reality. It's okay to just be yourself without any big labels.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
Age | Event |
---|---|
12 | Came out as transgender, started using a new name and pronouns. |
16 | Started taking testosterone. |
18 | Decided to detransition, stopped hormone therapy. |
Top Comments by /u/__beepboopbeep__:
For me, I think the issue was I WISHED I was a man. And wished it so bad I thought I could be one. If I were to be born again I would choose to be a man. Although I’m not one now like I thought I was. We need to start to separate some of these feelings
Honestly I’d say go off blockers and maybe try to experiment with femininity or however you would like to express being a girl! I’m on the younger side too and once I gave myself a chance to figure it out and see what kind of girl I wanted to be it wasn’t so scary, if your parents supported your transition I bet they would support you exploring your gender in other ways. If you ever need advice feel free to reach out to me! I’m 18 but I’ve been “trans” since I was 12.
Thank you so much for this response, gonna get personal a bit here, but my mom left when I was younger and I never really had a female influence, I think it was almost like a coping mechanism for me, it was what I knew and was comfortable with. I’m definitely gonna stop hrt asap, I have a doctors appointment mid Feb so I will continue to take my doses until then just for safety, idk how coming off T works. I reallly appreciate you!
How should i taper it down? I think im gonna do half a dose now, and next week. Then after that half of that dose for two weeks then stop. Dunno if that’s too quick etc… also I missed my T shot and am 3 days late, should I just take it now, I’ve never missed a T shot like this 😭 I rlly appreciate your responses
dw that’s literally what I did too lmao, it’s a great starting point or even if you enjoy that a good point to stay, you could literally take years to de trans and it would be chill. For me so many people still use my trans name and pronouns and idrc, I’m just kinda existing and that’s fine! So don’t feel like you need to make a huge decision or be one way or another
Tbh my doctor is being super dodgy rn, I’m trying to email her and no reply, and then I go to call and her telephone number is gone from the website? It’s all so weird and not to mention frustrating, I think I just have to wait until my appointment in Feb. I’m on 3.1 or something like that
I’m pretty sure it is, if not I’m sure she would have emailed or something. I’ll just go on Feb 12th and if they are there than fantastic 😭and I have a family doctor I could probably go to worst case scenario. I’m Canadian so doctors are a bit hard to find otherwise