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About me
I was born female and started identifying as trans as a teenager because I had low self-esteem and hated my body. I was on testosterone for a few months at 16 and had top surgery at 17, which I regretted the moment I saw myself. I’m now 18 and detransitioning, which was terrifying to tell everyone. I am currently fighting to get breast reconstruction to feel like myself again. I live with deep regret over my surgery, but I am trying to move forward and accept myself as the woman I am.
My detransition story
My whole journey with transition and detransition has been the hardest experience of my life. I was born female and I started identifying as trans when I was a teenager. I think a lot of it was about not feeling good enough as I was. I had really low self-esteem and I hated my body, especially my breasts. I felt uncomfortable with the changes from puberty and I thought becoming a boy would fix everything.
I was allowed to start testosterone when I was 16, but I was only on it for about four or five months. I’m grateful that the only permanent change I got from it was a slightly lower voice, which I’m still a little insecure about. But the biggest thing I regret is my top surgery. I had it when I was 17, and I knew it was a mistake the second I looked in the mirror after the operation. I remember the morning of the surgery, I almost asked for just a reduction instead, but I was too scared to speak up. I wish so much that someone had stopped me.
I realized I wasn't trans and started detransitioning back to living as a woman. Telling my friends and family was terrifying. I just sent a message to a group chat and turned off my phone. For my parents, I simply said, "I’m not trans and I identify as how I was born again." It was hard, but I just had to do it.
Now, I’m 18 and I’m going through the process of getting breast reconstruction. It feels insane that it was so easy to get my breasts removed but now it's a huge fight to get them rebuilt. I have a therapist who is helping me navigate it all and get a referral so insurance will cover it, which is a big help. I’m scheduled to get implants, and even though I wish I could have my natural breasts back, I’m hopeful this will help me feel more like myself again. I wear silicone breast forms sometimes, and it helps a little, but taking them off at night is a painful reminder of what I lost.
I don’t really have strong feelings about gender anymore. The whole experience has made me think more critically about everything and listen to different points of view. I don’t believe testosterone made me infertile, which is a relief, but I will always have to live with a changed voice and a chest that isn’t my own.
I absolutely have regrets. I regret ever starting testosterone and I deeply, deeply regret my top surgery. I’m jealous of every woman I see who has her natural body. I feel a constant state of grief over what I did to myself. But I’m trying to move forward, accept what happened, and rebuild my life as the woman I am.
| My Age | Date (if known) | Event |
|---|---|---|
| 16 | Started testosterone. | |
| 17 | April | Had top surgery. Regretted it immediately. |
| 18 | November 6th (consult) | Had a consultation for breast reconstruction. |
| 18 | March | Scheduled to get breast reconstruction with implants. |
Top Comments by /u/burner357517510:
I was 17 when I had my top surgery and it was free. I regret it 100%. I agree, the focus should be on non medical transition options like using a new name, different pronouns, voice training, etc. I wish so much I had been stopped before getting surgery.
Dude omg, I’m also going through the process of breast reconstruction and the fact that top surgery was super accessible and easy to get while breast reconstruction is being made nearly impossible is insane. As a “trans boy” who was literally in treatment for psychosis at the same time and from the same organization, it was easy peazy to get top surgery. Now as a CIS woman, which is how I’ve identified for 17 out of 18 years, they are making it hell to try and get reconstruction.
Also your voice is really pretty I would have never guessed you were on T!
My bf is very attracted to me and my flat chest and he even knew me when I still had boobs. The right man will love every inch of you. But having no man is better having a man you settled for, so learn to love every inch of yourself first. You’re beautiful <3
Oh my god this is insane. I’ve spent over 7 minutes thinking about ways I could crash my car should I go do that too? I was allowed to start T at 16 and regret it so much even though I was only on it for 5 months. And guess what came next. Now I’m 18 with no boobs and the only permanent effect from T is a slightly lower voice but I’m still insecure about that daily. These are permanent changes that I was not mentally developed enough to make a decision on. I’ll never have my natural boobs. I’ll never get my voice back. I have to live with these decisions forever because of people who view it like this.
Grayson is also my trans name so this hits close to home. I’m sorry they’re treating you like that that’s so unacceptable. They preach “everyone should be who they are in the inside” and then verbally assault detrans people…seems a little hypocritical to me. Fuck them and don’t take anything they say to heart. You’re living how you’re meant to live, and that takes guts.
Okay but this is objectively not true either. Both vaginal atrophy and incontinence are both side effects that are documented. I’ve heard from trans men and detrans women about these side effects and they’re usually not discussed in depth at the time of starting T.
I wish someone had stopped me when I was at this stage. Make it clear it’s not about your sexual preference or because you don’t want them to change, but instead because you think this is the wrong decision for them as a person. It will probably be hard to hear but if you genuinely think they are not doing this for the right reasons you should let them know
God I totally get what you mean. I have a “close” friend (whom I really wouldn’t be friends with if she wasn’t in my friend group) who still uses they for me and it makes me want to rip my hair out. She does not do that with anyone else in our circle and clearly thinks I’m still “actually nonbinary” and just repressing it or just doesn’t see me as a woman. Everyone is obsessed with her and tells me to just get over it but it’s so infuriating. Im sorry you have to deal with this too and that it’s such a common theme :/
There is no proof testosterone has any effect on the female reproductive system! I see so many detrans women saying they’re infertile just because of testosterone and that is 100% not the case. You can be infertile and also happen to have taken T, but it’s correlation without causation.
I’m so happy for you that you know you can have a baby now if you want to in the future! I know how horrible it is to have something like that gnawing at the back of your mind. I also hope this process is as easy as possible for you and you have a great support team <3 all the best to you love
You’d have to ask your doctor, but surgery these days can do amazing things, I don’t see why you wouldn’t be able to get reconstructive surgery.
Your story sounds just like mine actually, I had surgery in April and regret it. I’m looking to get reconstructive surgery with the same doctor who did my initial surgery. Good luck to you! I know how hard it is.