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Reddit user /u/c-andle-s's Detransition Story

Transitioned: 21 -> Detransitioned: 22
female
low self-esteem
internalised homophobia
depression
influenced online
influenced by friends
body dysmorphia
puberty discomfort
started as non-binary
anxiety
doesn't regret transitioning
only transitioned socially
benefited from non-affirming therapy
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User Authenticity Assessment: Not Suspicious

Based on the provided comments, this account appears authentic. There are no serious red flags suggesting it is a bot or an inauthentic detransitioner/desister.

The user demonstrates:

  • Personal, consistent narrative: They share a specific history of identifying as gender-fluid, binding, and being in trans circles before desisting.
  • Complex, nuanced views: Their arguments are detailed, show internal reflection, and evolve over time, which is atypical for scripted bots.
  • Emotional resonance: The tone contains appropriate anger, passion, and personal investment consistent with someone who has experienced harm from gender ideology.

This is a genuine account of a desister who is critical of modern gender ideology.

About me

I'm a woman who started identifying as gender-fluid in my early twenties because my friend group pressured me to believe my tomboy interests meant I wasn't female. I even tried binding to fit in, but it felt wrong and I saw how the ideology was deeply misogynistic. I lost all my friends for questioning it and realized my voice as a woman was being erased. I never took hormones, and my detransition was just me stopping the act and accepting myself. I'm now a confident woman who knows my personality doesn't change my sex, and I regret ever buying into such a harmful ideology.

My detransition story

My whole journey with this started because I never felt like I fit the "girl" stereotype. I was a tomboy from day one. I played with the boys, loved Legos and trucks, and never had long hair or wore dresses unless I had to. As I got older, I found myself in very progressive, left-leaning circles online and in person. Around 2021, when I was in my early twenties, I started identifying as gender-fluid. It wasn't a deep, innate feeling; it was more that the people I was around had a very specific way of thinking. Three of my male friends came out as trans women almost at the same time, and it felt like to have a voice in the group, I had to also question my gender. I was convinced that because my interests and style weren't exclusively feminine, I couldn't just be a woman. I thought I had to be something else.

I even started chest binding to make the "gender-fluid" identity feel more real. It was uncomfortable and I didn't like it, but I felt pressured to perform this identity. The turning point for me was realizing how misogynistic the whole thing was, even though it was disguised as progress. I remember one of the trans women in my group started calling herself a "bimbo," which is a slur that my father used against my mother. When I voiced that this was offensive and hurtful to women, I was shut down and told I was silencing a trans person. That was a major wake-up call. I realized my voice as a woman was being erased to center males, even if they were identifying as women. I saw cult-like behaviors, where any questioning was met with anger and exile. I lost all my friends from that group when I started asking simple questions like, "Can't I just be a girl who likes masculine things?"

I never took hormones or had any surgeries. My transition was entirely social. My detransition was really just me stopping the act. I realized that "gender" as an identity was a fantasy. I don't "feel" like a woman; I just am one. I am an adult human female. My interests in cars, video games, DnD, or makeup don't change that. I think my discomfort came from puberty and the pressure to conform to feminine stereotypes, not from being in the wrong body. I also saw how this ideology preys on people with other issues like depression, anxiety, OCD, and low self-esteem, promising that transition is a cure-all when it's not.

I benefited from stepping away and thinking for myself. I'm a psychology student, and I see the value in non-affirming therapy, like REBT or CBT, to challenge irrational beliefs, not as conversion therapy, but as a way to find self-acceptance. I don't regret exploring my identity because it led me to a stronger understanding of myself as a woman. But I deeply regret ever buying into an ideology that is so regressive and harmful, especially to young girls who are just tomboys like I was. It erases the reality of being female and replaces it with stereotypes. My political views have also changed drastically; I'm no longer a leftist because I saw the same rigid, unforgiving groupthink that my family fled from in communist Poland.

Here is a timeline of my journey based on what I remember:

Age Event
Childhood I was a tomboy, always playing with boys' toys and preferring pants and shorts.
Early 20s (around 2021) Joined progressive circles online and in person; started identifying as gender-fluid due to social pressure.
Early 20s Began social transition, including chest binding to appear more masculine some days.
Early 20s Witnessed three male friends come out as trans women in a short period; began seriously questioning the ideology after being silenced for expressing concern over misogynistic language.
22 Stopped identifying as gender-fluid and detransitioned socially. Realized I was just a gender-nonconforming woman.
23 (Present) Now fully comfortable as a woman, understanding that my sex is a biological reality and my personality and interests are just expressions of myself.

Top Reddit Comments by /u/c-andle-s:

74 comments • Posting since March 13, 2022
Reddit user c-andle-s (desisted female) explains her decision to close her Ulta account over their partnership with Dylan Mulvaney, criticizing the choice as a parody of womanhood and an insult to both women and transwomen.
303 pointsOct 17, 2022
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I called the customer service number and told them to shut down my account. The could’ve even chosen a transwoman like NikkiTutorials to do the podcast, because Nikki is actually a makeup artist.

I don’t take beauty advice from someone who “became a girl” 200 days ago and parodies the female identity. This is as insulting to normal transwomen as it is to women.

Edit: to the 150 likes: if you have an Ulta account and you feel strongly about this like I do, call customer service. They’ll delete your account for you because you can’t do it yourself. Don’t just stop shopping, have them lose people actively.

Also, it’s not just because it’s a trans person. It’s because it’s Dylan Mulvaney. If you listen to the interview, watch how they fetishize the female experience. Somehow Dylan gets to be a “mother”, but I’m a “birthing person”.

Enough is enough.

Reddit user c-andle-s (desisted female) explains how the push for children to transition based on liking trucks or the color pink reinforces the same regressive gender stereotypes that progressive ideology claims to oppose.
85 pointsJul 19, 2022
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I’ve found a ton of ways to progressively fight this trend - for example, how are we going to say that gender is an “oppressive binary” and in the same breathe, tell a 5 year old girl she must be a boy because she likes trucks, or a boy that he’s a girl because he likes the color pink? I’ve been “GNC” long before there was a mainstream term for it. Girls can be girls outside the gender binary, same with boys. That doesn’t stop them from being male or female.

There is actually a very progressive approach to fighting this idea, considering much of this stuff tends to fall back on regressive stereotypes. If “feeling like a woman” means liking nail polish and perfume, that’s regressive to me.

Reddit user c-andle-s (desisted female) discusses the double standard between condemning plastic surgery for young girls while celebrating similar procedures for transgender individuals, questioning the fetishization of certain body types.
81 pointsOct 21, 2022
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I think people have really started conflating transition with the same as the plastic surgery movement. We condemn little girls for wanting BBLs and Boob Jobs and lipo if they’re girls, but we’re supposed to affirm their desires to want to look like twinks or anime characters.

The same thing goes for a lot of trans women. They want to be sexy anime girls. Many delude themselves into think estrogen is a miracle drug. And then they’re celebrated when they get the BBLs and the boob jobs and the lipo, and the trachea shaves and the FFS and the eye lifts- takes breath and the hair transplants and the- need I go on?

I wonder what it is about teen girls fetishizing (particularly gay) twinks. There has to be something here.

Reddit user c-andle-s (desisted female) explains the feeling of being unable to escape gender ideology, comparing it to the "They Live" glasses in a progressive city.
68 pointsSep 29, 2022
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I feel this way a lot. I wish I could stop seeing it everywhere I go. I live in a super progressive city surrounded by rich college PhD types and Bolshevik Revolution larpers. The gender stuff seems like it’s everywhere. I wish I didn’t care about it so much. I wish it would just go away.

It’s like taking the “they live” glasses on and off. If you take them off, you may no longer “see” the aliens, but you know they’re there. You know when you’re staring gender ideology in the face, even in its most clever disguise.

Reddit user c-andle-s (desisted female) explains why they believe medical transition for minors is dangerous and argues for the importance of challenging beliefs in the detrans community.
66 pointsAug 29, 2022
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But why? People on here have different beliefs and they’re allowed to, because expressing different beliefs is how we converse and challenge one another.

Many detrans people, or desisters, express that their views were never properly challenged which has led to harm. That’s why here we can have a discussion. And yes, sometimes that means reading harsher takes.

My personal opinion is that children can be gender nonconforming without the need of medical transition. Transition for minors is dangerous. Beta blockers prevent the production of hormones, which does not “pause puberty”, but it prevents adequate development of the whole body and the whole brain without pausing the aging process. So the whole body is developmentally behind. Perhaps it isn’t advisable that a twelve-year-old girl decide to remove her breasts far before they’ve developed. Perhaps children, who live in an age of online photoshopped models, need to heal and express their bodily discomforts in a way that doesn’t lead to their entire life being signed off to the pharmaceutical industry.

In order to think, you have to risk offending people. Social media has inflated both our sense of the importance of opinions, as well as made us think that our offense is as important.

Lastly, if this take was as harmful as it is, I point you to Gypsy Rose Blanchard, who lived her whole like with a munchausen-by-proxy having mother. I sense than in a decade, we’ll be seeing a lot more Gypsy-like stories (also that is her name, in case anyone takes offense to the word).

Reddit user c-andle-s (desisted female) explains why they feel the non-binary concept is regressive, arguing it reinforces gender stereotypes by creating a "third gender" for those who don't fit masculine or feminine norms.
62 pointsOct 21, 2022
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This is why I feel like non-binary is a dumb and regressive concept. It basically is “a third gender” now. If you don’t fit into “masculine” or “feminine” regressive stereotyping somehow you’re not a man or a woman. You have to be this “third thing” because gender is exactly that - stereotypes. My desist moment happened right when I realized that, no, the signs of my “gender fluidity” were not always present, I had just been a little girl who liked Legos and trucks. And no matter what I liked as an adult, I wasn’t a “boy” one day because I wanted to wear pants and a button up and a “girl” the next day cuz I put on my makeup and wore a skirt.

For being progressive, this shit is so backwards sometimes. I’m sorry you went through that.

Also, typical Starbucks barista behavior. I live in a major city and half of the baristas, literally half, at my local joint are trans or NB. I think it’s because Starbucks insurance covers transition.

Reddit user c-andle-s (desisted female) explains the "leftist gaslighting cycle" of denying medical/social transition of children, then calling critics bigots when presented with evidence.
60 pointsSep 4, 2022
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It’s always this. It’s actually what made me leave the left.

“Nobody is doing double mastectomies on 12 year olds!” “Well here’s a phone call with a clinic stating otherwise..” “You have a problem with that?? You’re a BIGOT!”

“Teachers aren’t having kids change their gender!” “Oh here’s a teacher on TikTok bragging about her whole class slowly changing pronouns.” “So??? They’re just all trans kids!!”

And it goes on and on and on.

There will be hell to pay.

Reddit user c-andle-s (desisted female) explains that an individual's transition attempt does not inherently hurt women, but rather the broader movement that silences women and dismantles their protections is the cause of harm.
53 pointsNov 18, 2024
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I’ll break it down like this: You specifically did not hurt any women by trying to transition unless you went out of your way to hurt or physically assault women. Which I am assuming you didn’t.

The movement that continuously tells women to be quiet in their own subjugation, which is the same movement that is hiding the truth from people like you about the risks and dangers of transition, is hurting women.

I do not believe the average trans woman is hurting women unless the trans woman is in favor of dismantling protections for biological women. The movement that wants to advance the dismantling of those protections hurts women. The people who buy into those talking points hurt women.

So do I think you alone hurt women solely by transitioning? No, again, unless you actually engaged in siding with policies that hurt women, or actually did go and hurt women. Unfortunately the current trajectory of the movement as a whole is what hurts women.

Reddit user c-andle-s (desisted female) explains why puberty blockers are not reversible, arguing they halt physical and brain development, effectively costing users years of crucial growth.
53 pointsApr 15, 2023
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I don’t understand how anyone with a functioning brain doesn’t see that puberty blockers are not reversible. Let’s say they actually did “pause puberty”. So when you’re 16 are you gonna have the body of a 10 year old? The brain stops developing at 25, and puberty blockers don’t change that. You’ve effectively lost 6 years of brain development.

If puberty blockers worked the way the trans doctors want them to, we’d have literally discovered immortality.

Reddit user c-andle-s (desisted female) explains that the high trans suicide rate is often linked to comorbidities like OCD, depression, anxiety, and eating disorders, and warns that medical transition doesn't treat these underlying issues.
50 pointsJul 12, 2022
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I think it’s exaggerated, but usually gender dysphoria is comorbid with other issues. A lot of the times there’s OCD, depression, anxiety, eating disorders, sometimes it turns out to be body dysmorphia instead of gender dysphoria, and so on and so on. Sometimes those illnesses are exacerbated by environment and living conditions.

A lot of issues happen when you’re being sold the idea that a surgery or a hormone will make you happy, when in reality, those may help dysphoria, but not depression, anxiety, and the rest.