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About me
I started as a female teenager who felt uncomfortable with puberty and didn't fit in, so I thought transitioning was the answer to my depression. I took testosterone, but it only masked my deeper mental health issues instead of fixing them. I realized I was using transition to escape my problems with self-image and anxiety. After a painful decision to detransition, I faced rejection from people I thought were my friends. Now, I'm learning to just be myself without any labels, focusing on my mental health instead of my appearance.
My detransition story
My whole journey with gender started when I was a teenager. I was always a bit androgynous looking, and I got a lot of comments about it at school. I didn't fit neatly into a box, and that made me uncomfortable. I think a lot of my initial feelings were just puberty discomfort; I hated the changes happening to my body, especially when my breasts developed. There was this expectation that I was supposed to be happy about it, but I wasn't. I felt a lot of anxiety and had pretty low self-esteem.
I spent a lot of time online, and I was definitely influenced by what I saw there and by friends in certain communities. It felt like transitioning was the answer to all my unhappiness. I started identifying as non-binary first, and that felt like a safer way to explore things. But eventually, I felt pressure to move further and I started taking testosterone. I thought it would fix my depression and the deep-seated feeling that something was wrong with me.
For a while, it felt good. It felt like I was finally taking control. But the happiness didn't last. The initial high wore off, and I was left with the same underlying issues—my depression and anxiety—but now they were mixed with the physical changes from hormones. I started to feel like I had made a huge mistake. I didn't hate my breasts because I was a man; I hated them because of deep-seated body issues and maybe some internalized ideas about what a woman should look like. I realized I had been using transition as a form of escapism from my other mental health problems.
I decided to detransition. It was a really hard and lonely decision. I confided in someone in a trans community I was in, and they made me feel terrible about it, like I was betraying them. That was a really painful experience. For a community that preaches acceptance, some people can be very closed-minded when your path doesn't align with theirs. It made me see that my journey had to be about what was right for me, not anyone else.
I don't regret exploring my gender because I think I needed to go through it to truly understand myself. But I do regret not dealing with my underlying mental health first. I regret not questioning more why I felt the way I did. I think my depression and anxiety twisted my perception of myself. Now, I'm trying to just be me, without any labels. I don't force femininity or masculinity on myself anymore. I'm just a person, trying to be comfortable in my own skin.
I don't think gender is a simple thing at all. For me, it was a distraction from the real work I needed to do on my mental health. I'm in a better place now, focusing on who I am on the inside, not what I look like on the outside.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 14 | Started feeling intense discomfort with puberty and breast development. Felt highly androgynous and struggled with it at school. |
| 19 | Began identifying as non-binary, influenced by online communities and friends. |
| 21 | Started taking testosterone, believing it was the solution to my depression and anxiety. |
| 23 | Realized the hormones weren't addressing my core issues and began to question my transition. |
| 24 | Stopped testosterone and began the process of detransitioning. |
Top Comments by /u/chapmacc:
for a community that's supposed to have members that are welcoming and free-thinking some of them sure aren't those things.
sorry you were made to feel that way, you take care of yourself because no one else is going to, if you need to detransition for whatever reason that is OK
whoever you confided in who made you feel like this needs to take a step back and realise this isn't about them and their identity.
A'keria C Davenport went through transition to detransition and talked about it on All Stars 6
whether people like it or not detransition is a reality for multiple reasons and people don't need to turn on people who decide transition wasn't right for them
I think there's an expectation of happiness around breast development and I imagine not enough people talk about how they truly feel because you are supposed to like having breasts.
So maybe questioning your transition is the response you need but maybe its not technically reverse dysphoria? our psyche's are weird as human beings, would recommend a sports bra though it might help alleviate some anxiety
not trying to diagnose here but do you have a history of depression? not enjoying things you used to enjoy is a big sign.
personally I wouldn't try and force femininity on yourself, there's no one way to be feminine and pushing away transgender thoughts the way you are doing might not be doing you any good, just let the thoughts come and go, don't force yourself to read a book and visit certain resources.
if everybody is new in your class there's probably other anxious people too
you love your voice that's all that matters so continue to put the work you need in to get where you need to be, tomorrow is a first step
try and keep your cool, focus on your own expectations out of class and not others
I'd recommend seeking mental health treatment (if you can) as the lack of personal hygiene because you think it's not even worth it is very unhealthy/dark, alongside the smoking and drinking as a coping mechanism. You are worth an incredible amount and to still be here battling through is amazing.
It's never too late to go back on hormones but you're going to need to be in the right head space so it's probably not something I would rush. You are welcome in this thread, both transitioning and detransitioning are difficult processes, it hard to find happiness in your identity when your internal concept of gender doesn't conform to everyone else. I wish you luck and health going forward.
Surely a ticket collector has to give some level of customer service what a shitty bastard
But yes I was highly androgynous at school, I wonder now with all the awareness whether things got better or worse for GNC kids but there's assholes everywhere so probably things are the same.
what kind of job is it that you work?
I'd be embarrassed if I'd made a co-worker feel this way but honestly sometimes people are just inside their own heads they don't make time for other people, it might not have been personal but they should have made an effort to use your correct pronouns/name.
You may need to focus on who is actually by your side rather than who isn't, don't give these people who don't 'like' you the headspace. It's perfectly natural to want to be liked but don't let it drive you.