6 months after falling in love with my sweet boyfriend I started to really think about my future, and found I did not want to be called or seen as a husband or dad. I wanted to be a wife and mom. Following that realization the tower crumbled. I feel like there is so much more to it but yeah I think that was the most unshakable thought I had.

It isn’t that you aren’t man enough to be a man it just isn’t what you are. No trans man is a man nor trans woman is a woman. They are people with gender dysphoria and the way they treat it is through living through a fantasy of living as the opposite gender. Some of these people do not have resources to accept themselves for who they are and the best thing they can do is to transition. It is simple, and despite this belief I have immense amount of love for those who struggle. It is not fun and the worst part is we have all been enabled. If you think you can survive as a woman then detransition. You are by default a woman and you have a right to be one. If you do not want to for reasons that outweigh then that is understandable. Stop worrying about how others perceive you and start worrying about the type of person you want to be. Detransitioning is tough but at least it removes the agony of cognitive dissonance. Take it slow, give yourself compassion. Sending you healing and good vibrations 🫶🏻

Even if they hurt you by being unsupportive of your detransition (I think that’s what you implied?), it doesn’t hurt to reach out. See where it goes. Back out if you’re not liking it. Looking from the trans perspective - it is uncomfortable to interact with a detransitioner or hear of their experience because it goes against their beliefs which can be scary. We are all humans with egos. If you do end up connecting then I would hope that you get an apology from this person, as well as some relief in finding someone who can relate with you. Best of luck.

A lot of gay men transition because they have internalized homophobia, and/or because they like feminine qualities - this can easily be stirred into gender confusion and a narrative that they should be a trans woman. It is more so a disconnection from reality and self rather than having to do with attraction to the female body. I think I see where you’re coming from and that may be true to a degree or in some cases.

Top surgery is over glorified, I agree. I don't go on the internet like I used to because of the think-tanks and propaganda I found everywhere and every day. Breast feeding is not the only reason to not remove your boobs. If I decided that I never want kids, I still will never be the same after my surgery. I am a very spiritual person and do not agree with any form of surgery where you are altering your sexual organs. They are sacred. To answer your questions, I regretted it before I detransitioned. I have been experiencing extreme sensitivity and pain on various levels since August 2021. I was 20 when I had my surgery. I felt horrible anxiety regarding my surgery, and It hurt tremendously after the fact. To top that off my surgeon was "holisitic" so when I expressed my anxiety pre-op she prescribed me a hypnotherapy session that was bs, and when I was sobbing in pain post-op she said to keep taking the tylenol (she was against the use of opioids despite putting her patients through extreme cosmetic surgeries) My chest is concaved. I have weird sensitivity on my nipples which makes sexual pleasure scary and I have to be careful with anything I do that might let an object touch my chest. Even my dreads hurt me if I let them naturally fall onto my chest. Shower streams hurt. Seatbelts. I'm sure you get the gist. This was just my case though. If someone is uncomfortable with their chest I would say look at all the options except a double mastectomy. Chest compression sports bras, something comfortable to put on that alleviates sensory issues, somatic therapy, healing traumas in any way that works for the individual really. I do not think this was is completely damaging and maybe I shouldn't mention it. This helped me a ton though- Trans Tape. I has pretty small tits so I would just tape them back and it would not cause back pain or any other damage except the skin if I didn't peel it off correctly but it was rare. Individuals with bigger chests can still use it and I think it is a great option for people with sensory disorders. I am relieved that you refuse to go through with this surgery. I get a sick feeling when I hear people talk about how great it is or their progress.

Pay attention to how you feel during your cycles. It is common to experience period symptoms like cramping, mood swings, and fatigue or nausea. Heavy flow, light flow. These could actually be indicators that there is a hormonal imbalance. The best way to combat any sort of bodily imbalance is to move your body and focus on nutrition. Sunshine, red meat and animal fats, and walking or strength exercises are all things I am focusing on increasing and whenever I have been consistent I feel so much better. You can research certain herbal remedies. Im not a doctor and I don’t go to one, I just do research and try my best to take care of my body by listening. Cycle syncing is also helping me a lot. Lots of good info on youtube from real people out there

If you haven’t I would see if there are some cute pixie/fem short hair style tricks. Or even a cut. The wig looks okay but would look better if you gave that some layers or clips. Use foundation to fix the hairline. You look like a woman through and through. Also what facial hair 😂 jk i understand that but you don’t have a shadow. When you save up for laser you will probably pay less than I did. You’re rockin it girl dont worry!

Also 5 years on T and now 1 year off sending love and healing to you

I told planned parenthood when I detransitioned and even asked if they know what I should do for my hormones and they recommended birth control meaning they didn’t know shit. I also told my therapist who I have been seeing for 6-7 years and affirmed me at 14 first session. I had a few sessions with her, let her know how my detransition was going and what I wish she did for me back then rather than let me transition. I then asked her for my notes and sent out an intent to sue last week.

I also use peoples preferred pronouns and names. I respect anyone as a human and they are allowed to have their beliefs. The way I would approach it wouldn’t be aggressive or invalidating- just talking about the harm, lies, and suffering involved. The healing it takes. Not straight up saying “Transgenderism doesn’t exist.” Im just hoping to gain insight on if it is worth it, if anyone gained benefits from doing this.