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About me
I'm a woman who started feeling a deep discomfort with my body and the changes of puberty, which got tangled up with a serious eating disorder. I spent a lot of time online and thought identifying as non-binary would be an escape from the pressures and fears of being female. I became very cautious, especially after questioning if my feelings were truly about gender or just a way to avoid other issues like body dysmorphia. I never medically transitioned, and I'm relieved I didn't make any permanent changes. Now, I'm focused on learning to accept myself and my body instead of trying to change it.
My detransition story
My own journey with gender was complicated, and looking back, I see it was tangled up with a lot of other issues I was dealing with. I never medically transitioned myself, but I spent a lot of time thinking about it and watching others go through it. I’ve had my own serious struggles with body image, including a severe eating disorder and what I believe was body dysmorphia. For a long time, I hated my body, particularly my breasts, and I felt a deep discomfort with the changes of puberty. I think a lot of that came from a place of low self-esteem and anxiety, and from feeling like my body was being judged by others.
I spent a lot of time online, and I was definitely influenced by what I saw in trans communities. There was a period where I thought maybe I was non-binary, because the idea of escaping from being a woman entirely felt like a relief. It seemed like a way to stop the constant pressure and the feeling of being preyed upon just for existing in a female body. I saw how women are harassed and how little girls are taught to be afraid, and I wanted no part of it. Transitioning felt like a way out.
But I also saw a pattern in others that worried me. I saw how a childhood interest in crossdressing could, after puberty, turn into a full-blown sexual fetish. It made me question whether for some people, the desire to transition was more about a sexual fixation, what some call autogynephilia (AGP), than a true identity. I started to wonder if I was falling into a similar trap, just wanting to escape the difficulties of being female rather than actually being a different gender.
I never went on hormones or had surgery. I think my background in law school made me really cautious about making permanent changes, especially after reading about informed consent and how little is known about long-term effects. I saw it as a serious decision with factual consequences, not just a feeling. I also saw how gender dysphoria has a high comorbidity with other mental illnesses, and I had to ask myself a hard question: how could I tell the difference between gender dysphoria and my own body dysmorphia? I never found a clear answer, and that uncertainty stopped me from taking any medical steps.
My thoughts on gender now are that it’s incredibly complex and often mixed up with other problems like trauma, OCD, or internalized homophobia. I don’t believe that feeling like you are the opposite sex makes you that sex. I think we put too much emphasis on changing our bodies to fit a feeling, when sometimes the feeling itself is what needs to be addressed. For me, the solution wasn't transition. It was learning to ignore how I thought others were judging my body and trying to find comfort in being myself, whatever that looked like. Life as me is worth more than my life as either sex.
I don't regret exploring my gender because it led me to a deeper understanding of myself. But I am relieved that I didn't make any permanent changes I might have later regretted. I benefited from stepping back and questioning everything, rather than just affirming the first feeling I had.
Age | Event |
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During Puberty | Started experiencing severe body discomfort, hatred of breasts, and developed an eating disorder. Felt intense anxiety about being perceived as female. |
Early 20s | Spent a lot of time online, influenced by trans communities. Identified as non-binary as a form of escapism from the pressures of being a woman. |
Mid 20s (Law School) | Began seriously questioning the narrative around transition. Studied informed consent and became cautious about medical interventions. Questioned the difference between gender dysphoria and my own body dysmorphia. |
Now | Have desisted from identifying as non-binary. No medical transition occurred. Focused on managing body image issues and self-acceptance separately from gender identity. |
Top Comments by /u/daughter_of_bilitis:
Disclaimer: I am not detrans. I just like throwing out that at the beginning in the rare chance I comment here because I know this space is not designed for me, and that's ok - if I am out of line commenting on this thread, lmk and I'll delete the comment.
But on substance, I'm curious - if you think transphobia is the reason behind the high suicide rate, why wouldn't it follow that we would see similarly high rates for other minority/marginalized groups? Ex. why wouldn't we see homophobia causing similarly high rates of suicide among LG and/or B people? Or racism (which I would argue is much more pervasive than 'transphobia') cause a similar rate of suicide for ethnic/racial minorities?
I'm not trying to "haha own" you or anything, I'm curious for the answer that feels right to you, given your original comment.
After reading the article, I don't have high hopes for his luck on appeal. Usually, appeals courts will be reluctant to overturn or stray from a lower court ruling esp since the lower court is the "finder of fact"- the appeals court will rely on their facts. And this will almost certainly be a factual issue. The article talked about informed consent in the state as being the understanding of the consequences of the treatment, and the waiver did mention that the treatment had not been well-studied and the long term effects are unknown. So, as a factual matter... I see it unlikely that would be overturned since the factual analysis won't be much changed. That, plus the excerpted comments from the judges, leads me to believe the court won't buy the lawyers arguments here.
Source: my thoughts + some law school
While it makes sense that you judge yourself based on how other people judge you, you shouldn't make lasting decisions based on how they judge you. As an AFAB person who has had a serious eating disorder and body issues, you genuinely just should try your best to ignore how you think others are reacting to your body, and then make the best decision you can based on you. I know - easier said than done. But, it will go every day at a time. Their opinions are real and will impact you, but they shouldn't shape you. And I hope you find clarity and comfort whatever you choose ♥️
Well I mean I'm just going to say, citation needed for the claim that homophobia/biphobia is not as vicious as transphobia. I mean, yeah, I'm just going to need a citation for that because that does not hold true with any of my experience or my understanding of global politics, esp outside the US. That also doesn't really address the plight of racial minorities too, though, which I don't think anybody would argue that transphobia in 2019 is more vicious than 1800s chattel slavery was for black people.
Clearly, homophobia/transphobia/etc-phobias will cause distress an uptick in suicide rates for affected groups, but the issue here is that trans suicide rates are so high, and so seemingly unaffected by 1) increasing social acceptance, 2) ability to transition, 3) geographic location (which would mean it holds across cultures and political differences), and at that point I just think there must be another explanation - or at least, a concurrent one.
What world am I living in where refusing to let your child's mental illness control their lives and mutilate their bodies is considered child abuse?
Ironic you think that we're the ones "clinging to outdated gender roles" when you're the one who thinks a man in a dress with makeup is a woman because he feeeeelz like it. It's all projection, isn't it?
I hope you never have children, though you've probably already ensured that was impossible so, thank God.
Something tells me if this person had grown up in a female body/being perceived as female, they would not enjoy people viewing them sexually as much as they do. Women are preyed upon and harassed for the behaviors he is excited to get attention for. Little girls have been killed for looking too sexy to the wrong adult and we are taught from infancy to be wary of that attention.
Your last sentence worries me a little just because it has an ominous tone to it - please be kind to yourself, and realize that life as YOU is worth more than your life as EITHER sex. I mean it.
Admittedly I am not detrans myself but I do hope to support people who are, and if you ever need to talk with someone who has had body issues/suicidal ideation, etc. Id love to help. Please take care of yourself.
Re: "crossdressing wasn't sexual for me as a kid" - yeah, cuz you were a kid. Once you developed a sex drive, you sexually fixated on that activity and it quickly became a fetish. That's a very, very common development pattern for fetishes. Most people with a lifelong or "significant" fetish DO have that transition from, "oh I really liked playing doctor as a little kid" to "oh fuck nurses can stick their fingers in my butthole and that's so hot." It's not like anyone pops out the womb with fully developed sexual fetishes and fixations. That's why fetishes are different from sexual orientations - they're mutable, and they develop over your life.
I mean I'm not even going to bother providing a reference because we both know it's true.
Nope, it's not true, and wishful thinking will not make it so. If you don't provide sources, you just encourage people to go do their own searching and then we find things like this - https://ucr.fbi.gov/hate-crime/2018/topic-pages/incidents-and-offenses - which shows that homophobia even in the US, which is very progressive on the issue of homosexuality compared to a lot of the world is wayyy more prevalant than transphobia. In 2018, AGAIN, gay males were the #1 most harassed and discriminated-against group in the LGBT unmbrella, per the FBI - 59.7% of the reported hate crimes were motivated anti-gay male bias. (Edited to add the italics) And that's from an analysis of more than 1,000 incidents. There were less than 200 gender-ID based incidents even reported, and only 157 of those were 'anti-transgender,' with the rest being anti-GNC. Until you can argue from more than your feelings, don't bother.
Is there anywhere in the world where its really acceptable to be trans?
Apparently not per your definition, but loads and loads of people will laugh at your assertion because yes, there are places. In fact, did you know wikipedia makes simple lists for stats like this? Very easy reading. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Transgender_rights
You're downplaying the role of transphobia in suicide rates. Now that I've seen you're a GC poster I can see why the idea would bother you.
First: lol. Second: I actually was not downplaying transphobia, I was saying there seem to be other causes (likely in addition to transphobia) given how high the rate is and how unlikely it is to change. But that didn't fit your narrative, so you don't like having a discussion about that. All I can say is, if you care so much about trans people you're willing to argue about them online with strangers, you should probably care enough to ensure best practices are being established to handle people with GID/dysphoria/gender discomfort. That may involve transition. A lot of people on this sub would disagree with that, obviously, but that does not make it right. But following actual data is key, not just assuming trans people are the most put-upon group ever in human history.
Yeah I mean, it's a pretty damning argument. Which is why the guy I'm debating even right now won't touch it. But so is any argument that undercuts the narrative that trans people are the most oppressed in human history, which takes a lot of hubris to assume, in my opinion.