Bad enough to think about ending it countless times, but not bad enough to ever make a serious attempt. Bad enough that I was in the process of getting referrals and planning for phalloplasty. Even when I did decide to detransition, I kept my hysterectomy date until a couple weeks out from the surgery.

I had a lot of other shit going on at the time, and I can't really account for what exactly happened to my perception. My mental health was the worst it had ever been, due to other factors. And because of that I think I began to feel as though my dysphoria didn't matter any more. It was the least of my worries at the time. That disconnect from the urgency I had felt before let me step back and see the big picture, which was that what I called dysphoria was a whole bunch of other things that boiled down to blaming my body for the way I was treated. That wasn't how I conceptualized it at all when I was transitioning, if you'd asked me if it was about society I'd have laughed in your face. I was a feminist from a young age. I would never have thought I had internalized those ideas about what it meant for me to be female. But that's exactly what happened. Maybe it's not the same for everyone, but for me it was.

Now to answer your original question, "does it ever go away", is a little complex because of that. The source of my feelings didn't go away, no. But I realized that they were coming from outside of me, not from some internal "brain map" that was mismatched. I have a new threat model to work from. Instead of fighting my body, I am fighting the attitudes that tell my my body is the problem. I don't name this mental state as dysphoria any more, so in some sense, yes, my dysphoria has gone away.

Tl;dr I'd say yes.

I socially transitioned from age 15-22, took testosterone for almost 4 years, had a mastectomy, and was in the process of getting a hysterectomy and coordinating bottom surgery when I detransitioned (thank goddess I didn't get that far). Personally, it was because I didn't find transition helpful any more. I experienced both physical and social dysphoria and felt that I had a "male brain map" that was mismatched with my physical body. After doing a lot of internal work I felt that what I called dysphoria was more complicated than that and that I needed to take some time to understand why exactly I felt the way I did about my sex. It ended up coming down to a lot of different things, but they mostly boiled down to the fact that I didn't feel like misogyny and homophobia were important enough to make me feel as bad as I did about myself.

I don't believe that every trans person will eventually want to detransition, if that's what you mean. I do know that pretty much every trans man I've known well enough to hear their unfiltered thoughts has expressed some manner of regret. That doesn't necessarily mean anything, except that this is a big life decision that's not as easy or as satisfying as you might believe if all you knew about transition was from watching Chase Ross videos or something (is Chase Ross still popular? I don't even know, I'm so out of touch), but I think it is noteworthy. I do think that anyone who's contemplating transition should consider regret a real possibility and not just a TERF/rightwing bogeyman, and act accordingly. We're not reducible to a talking point or a failed transition. We are, from what I've personally seen, just about as diverse in circumstance and opinion as transmen. While our writings and videos are coopted by unscrupulous so-called "radfems" (while I do agree with most of the tenets of radical feminism, there is a significant contingent who thinks that label is an excuse to abuse trans people, and those women are who I refer to here) and fundamentalist Christians, often to make the point that no one should ever transition and that dysphoria is a sign of "delusions" or other stigmatized mental illness, the detransitioned women I know (myself included) have fought back against these misrepresentations and attempts at tokenizing.

I did a peer survey about this subject, specifically for female people with a history of transition or disidentification, that you might find helpful. It includes a graph showing the various reasons for detransition as well as some additional short answer comments.

1. I don't know how to answer this without knowing what you mean precisely. Do I believe dysphoria is legitimate and debilitating? Yes. Do I believe gender identity is innate? No. Do I believe some people benefit from transition in our current society? Yes. Do I believe people would still need to transition in a world with true gender equality? Don't know because we don't live in that world. My hunch is no. Do I believe trans people deserve to be treated with respect? Yes. Do I believe transition changes someone's sex? No.

2. I already questioned the trans movement prior to detransitioning. I was "truscum" (believed you needed physical dysphoria to be trans, though I did believe in non-binary identities and identified as non-binary for a time). That subgroup supported a lot of the questions I had about the mainstream trans movement but there were some subjects that were still off limits. I kept searching and found that radical feminists, aka The Worst People Ever (lol), were the ones that didn't shut down those questions. I was initially horrified but kept digging. Eventually I found detransitioners online, and was horrified by them too, but again kept reading. And here I am today. So really, it's the other way around. Questioning the trans movement was one of the forks in the road that led me to detransition.

3. Ask yourself why. Act like a five year old about it: don't take "because" for an answer. When you have an answer, ask yourself "why?" again. Dysphoria is sneaky and likes to tell you that you hate your body Just Because. But I don't believe anyone hates their body Just Because. It may be because of any number of reasons, but not Just Because It's Supposed to Be That Way. Don't ask yourself if you can picture yourself as a man or a woman 10, 20, 30, etc years down the line, a favorite of armchair gender therapists. What depressed person pictures their future realistically? Ask what would be materially different in your life were you a man or a woman x years from now. Then ask why that is desirable. Then ask why again. Ime people seem to take gender dysphoria at face value when they would never do the same for other types of mental distress. Interrogate your dysphoria. Don't just believe what it says about you.

It's not that I refuse to be seen as either gender. It's that I don't believe in gender any more. My sex is female and that is as complicated as I want to get about it. I would prefer other women to know I'm female but I'm pretty neutral about the effects of transition. I regret the fact that I hated myself so much that I injected drugs to change my appearance and paid a man to cut me open. But I don't regret having facial hair or a flat (ish, at this point) chest. I like that my appearance challenges the norms a little, even though I don't like how I got there.

Just realized I only answered one out of two questions here. There are a lot of little reasons, but it all really comes down to "no one told me it would STILL feel this horrible to be "just" a woman and a lesbian in the two fucking thousands". To be honest, I thought that as a "born feminist" (my mom's description lol) I was above things like hating myself for being gay or being a woman and that if I felt this bad about my sex, it must be something more severe. I was wrong. It's one thing to know these things on an intellectual level. It's another entirely to understand them on a deep emotional level.

I haven't been to therapy since I detransitioned but suspect I may have ADHD as well. Prior to transition but after coming out as trans I was diagnosed with depression and almost diagnosed with Asperger's (now ASD) but was a hair below the "cutoff" for clinically significant symptoms.

I am in contact with the facilitator and will get back to you on this when I have more information about what can be shared publicly. I attended this event (more of a retreat than a convention) and it was incredible to be around so many other women like me.

Occasionally. I leave my face stubbly and this combined with my "male" name and generally feminine presentation sometimes leads to people thinking I'm a transwoman.

The funniest one was a tattoo artist who straight up, no preamble, asked "why do you still go by (name) if you're a girl now?" As he is tattooing directly in between my mastectomy scars. I guess he wasn't wrong...

I work with children so the most common thing is for them to ask why I have facial hair if I'm a girl, or to ask if I'm "half boy" (which has more to do with a child's faulty understanding of biology than anything else, I think). Most of the time if people think anything different of me, they don't say it.

I am occasionally bothered by the idea that women may feel less safe around me, or that someone might think that because I'm supposedly a transwoman, they have to avoid triggering my dysphoria. But overall I don't care much what others think of my appearance any more.

Right before stopping t I had blood work done that showed liver enzymes just the slightest bit above the normal range. Couldn't say if they've stayed there or not since I have a different doctor now so it's possible their normal ranges are different enough that such a small change wouldn't affect the reading. I have chronic back and shoulder pain that I attribute at least partly to 5 years of binding as my shoulder blades are pushed farther apart than they should be.

Too complicated to fully answer if we go into my family history with religion, but I was raised devout Christian in a highly conservative denomination (though also by liberal parents), left the church a year before coming out, and did not return until right before detransitioning (to the Episcopalians, not the Orthodox). My mom's wife is a priest now in the Episcopal Church and it's the best experience of Christianity I've had, but it's still not for me. Honestly, the ubiquity of God the Father in the Christian church probably accounted for a huge portion of my dysphoria, when I used such words to describe my mental state (to anyone about to comment, yes, Mary Daly is on my "want to read" list, I'll get there lol). Biblical views and expectations of women are pretty bleak imo. I've found comfort and insight in nature based and Goddess based religions, but I don't tie myself to any particular religious group. I have nothing against Christians but organized religion in general doesn't work for me.

Edit: a word