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About me
I started transitioning in my early twenties because I felt like an outsider as a woman and thought becoming a man would fix my confidence. I took testosterone, which permanently damaged my voice and triggered serious health problems, including diabetes. I stopped after a year and realized it was a huge mistake that came from confusing normal teenage discomfort with being trans. I now understand I'm just a lesbian who never got to see how I'd grow up naturally. My biggest regret is the permanent damage I caused by trying to change my body instead of learning to accept myself.
My detransition story
My whole journey with transition and detransition was a difficult and painful lesson that I wish I had never had to learn. It started with a deep discomfort during my teenage years. I never felt like I fit in with other girls and I hated the changes that puberty brought, especially developing breasts. I felt like an outsider and I think a lot of my feelings were just a normal part of growing up and not being comfortable in your own skin yet.
I started identifying as non-binary first, and then later as a trans man. A big part of it was that I was projecting a lack of confidence onto an imagined male version of myself. I thought that if I could just be seen as a guy, all my social anxiety and self-esteem issues would disappear. I was also influenced a lot by what I saw online; it seemed like everyone was transitioning and it was presented as the only solution to these feelings. I loved the idea of being accepted and read as a guy, even though I rarely passed before taking any medical steps.
I decided to take testosterone. The first six months were like a honeymoon phase. It was exciting to finally be experiencing the changes I had read about, and I even felt calmer mentally. But that didn't last. After those first few months, my body had an extreme reaction. My hair started falling out rapidly, almost all of it gone in just a month. I developed severe acne all over my arms and back. I was always tired. But I was stubborn and kept taking it for several more months, ignoring the warning signs my body was giving me.
The biggest and most lasting regret is what it did to my voice. I went through a second voice break after about a year on T and it completely ruined my vocal cords. My voice became hoarse and strained, and I lost almost all my vocal range. I used to love singing; it was a huge part of my life and my mental well-being. Now, I can't sing at all. It's a constant, painful reminder of what I did. My voice has gotten a little higher and lighter since stopping, but it still feels strained and weird to talk, like it's always an effort. I've had to give up on singing and am trying to reconnect with music by learning an instrument instead.
Stopping testosterone was a wake-up call. It only took a few weeks without it for my emotions to come back and for me to realize it had been a huge mistake. I was just wired on hormones before. I also developed serious health problems that my doctors believe were triggered by the hormonal imbalance. I developed LADA/Type 1 diabetes, which isn't in my genetics, and my lifestyle didn't change. An endocrinologist even told me to get a hysterectomy "asap" because of a supposed cancer risk, which was a scary and pushy suggestion that I'm glad I didn't listen to.
Detransitioning made me realize a lot of things. I figured out that I'm probably just a lesbian. It makes me sad to see so many other young lesbians now identifying as something else or even getting surgeries. I feel like the gay community has been hijacked by gender ideology, and it's hard to find spaces that are just for gay people anymore. This whole experience has completely changed my political views; I've moved away from the left because of all this and now lean more conservative or libertarian.
I have a lot of regrets. I regret altering my body and my voice. I feel detached from myself because I never got to see how I would have grown up naturally. I miss not looking like other women and I feel like a permanent outsider. I deeply regret the permanent damage I caused to my health. My advice to anyone, especially teenagers, is to wait. You haven't even figured out who you are as a person yet. Woman and man don't have to mean anything specific; you can be yourself, masculine or feminine, without changing your body with hormones. Examine where your discomfort comes from. It's probably more common than you think.
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| Teenage Years | Experienced puberty discomfort, hated developing breasts, felt like an outsider. |
| Early 20s | Identified as non-binary, then as a trans man. Influenced by online communities. |
| 22 | Started testosterone. First six months were exciting and positive. |
| 23 | Health issues began: rapid hair loss, severe acne, constant fatigue. Continued T despite this. |
| 23 | Voice broke a second time, causing permanent hoarseness and loss of vocal range. |
| 23 | Stopped testosterone. Realized it was a mistake weeks later as emotions returned. |
| 23 | Diagnosed with LADA/Type 1 diabetes, believed to be triggered by hormonal imbalance. |
| 24 (Present) | Detransitioned. Realized I am a lesbian. Dealing with permanent voice damage and health issues. |
Top Comments by /u/dfkjbgkgfjb:
I'm not sure if theres any surgery to help with this, but my voice got really fucked as well. I stupidly went through a second voice break after one year on T and sorta lost all vocal range. It was hoarse and unusable for months and I can constantly feel my cords straining, and my voice sometimes changes throughout the day. I've kind of given up hope on singing again but my voice has gotten higher and lighter, and I hope it'll feel like an actual voice again someday, and not just stuck like this.
It's really tough to realize you might never get this back. I cant really enjoy listening to music all that much anymore, since I cant sing along with it. So the only thing to do really is to focus on something else musically. I'm gonna start learning an instrument, and I'm mostly listening to classical music these days. Some way to reconnect with it, but differently.
It's only after losing it entirely that I've realized that singing was a huge part of my life and mental well being, and it's strange to not have that. I haven't really figured out how to deal with the regret, but I'm sure it's possible to get used to anything. Just focus on working on different things, overall, keep your mind focused on something.
And like I said, my voice was unusable for months and it sorta got better. Maybe yours will lighten up too, over time, and at least become easier to deal with. Have you done any voice training, or been to any professionals about this?
its telling that you dont hate your body (so why alter it), and you just dont like the thought of being a girl/woman? what matters is who you are, individually.
hormones are dangerous, they probably cause pcos and/or vaginal atrophy after a few years, and overall, you should always keep detransition in mind. even on a low dose, you'll still change some things permanently, and you cant really control what happens. and then if you do pass as a guy, there might come a time you grief not being viewed as a girl anymore. i miss not looking like other women, and feel like an outsider. i also never got to see myself grow up, how my looks wouldve changed, naturally. i've altered it and feel really detached from myself now.
so yea, i'd advice any teenager (or anybody under 25) strongly against it because you havent even figured out who you are as a person. and maybe try to examine where your discomfort about girl/woman (being perceived as one?), some body parts, etc, came from? was it always there, or just after puberty? because not relating to your body is really normal at that time. also, woman/man, it doesnt really mean anything. we just have these two body types via nature, you can be yourself, masc/fem/whatever, anyway, without testing out hormones.
theres a lot of videos from other detrans people on youtube, if you just search for it, and on benjamin boyce channel as well, listening to their perspectives can be helpful... its already really good you're thinking critically about this, just give yourself time and focus on other things, your interests, future goals, finding happiness in the moment, practicing self care, etc..
that is absolutely horrible.. i hope you can recover a bit more over time even if your health cant go back to how it was ://
i have a similar story in that T made me lose nearly all my hair in a month, it happened so quickly i was sort of in shock and didnt even stop soon enough :/ that correlated with higher blood sugar, which soon turned into lada/type 1 diabetes. its not in my genetics, my life style didnt change drastically, etc., so yea, the hormonal imbalance probably triggered something. i also got acne all over my arms and back from it, and even though i was never in the "cis male range" of testosterone levels, my body had an extreme reaction to it. doctors would just tell me oh, hormones cant cause disease, but first off, im not a cis male, and secondly, nobody knows anything (but ofc, theres probably more than one cause to it). the only thing the endocrinologist told me was to get a hysterectomy "asap" cause of the danger of cancer, which hasnt even been proven. but yea sure just take out your hormone producing ovaries, and no other risks mentioned.... im glad i didnt get any surgeries at least, but i wasnt planning on that anyway.
the risks can vary widly, and you cant foresee what might happen. it isnt all superficial male attributes according to genetics, lots of things can go wrong. and maybe some people are more sensitive to it than others?
Sorry! You're completely right, I worded that badly. Since you said you dont want to be a trans guy, just a guy, I wanted to express how transitioning cant make you a cis guy, so it probably wont provide the solution. But of course your feelings and identity is totally valid. I'm still grieving my own medical transition, and new to reddit, maybe not a good head space to give advice! Again, really sorry.
I shouldve added, that I loved being accepted and read as a guy pre-T, it just nearly never happened since I didnt really pass. And then I made the rash decision to take hormones, only to figure out, I was projecting a lack of confidence onto that male version of myself, pretty much like what you're describing. It was like I wanted to escape from parts of myself it seemed too difficult or impossible to work on, but they didnt vanish.
Idk what to do about the control part, passing is just really difficult (and can often push people into becoming more dysphoric). But so long as friends see you and accept your name, that already means a lot. And also, finding your personal style and whatever hair and clothing you like can bring more joy than trying to be perceived as another gender (at least thats how I feel about things, looking back)
yup, its the same for me. unfortunately i stopped too late and the residulal hormones made me sort of go into the second voice break and its been hoarse ever since. i do think voice training can help you with more resonance, ill try that out myself. and no, there arent any surgeries for it, or at least its very risky. it got a bit less hoarse after two months for me but it still feels strained and weird to talk, like its always an effort.
I feel exactly the same... it was only after detransitioning that I kinda figured out I'm probably just gay, and now everything online and sometimes irl as well (even though i'm in europe..) has been hijacked by this gender ideology, and it just makes me sad when I see lesbians id'ing as something other than their sex, or even getting top surgery.. also, i can't imagine being with somebody who still celebrates the trans movement when I was glad to get away from it.
I've found some comfort with the "lgb alliance", they don't center trans identities, and i hope there'll be more people around waking up from the gender nonsense and just focusing on being lgb/gay. but as of now, you're kind of an outcast if you don't respect every gender identity and use made up pronouns. it's probably gonna be a slow development, but i'm sure as many people grow up, they'll take a step back from all this. I guess we have to build up gay (and not queer) culture ourselves, again! It also seems like this is especially bad at unis, so maybe if you can find work or hobbies some place else, you might be able to meet other normal people?
From all the reading and research I've been doing I've also completely changed my political affiliation, cause the left has simply gone mad. I'm now going more the direction of conservative or libertarian? Anything that doesnt support this ideology... And through that, I've also found more gay people who feel the same way as I do.
There's also this app called "giggle", which is for women only, I haven't downloaded it yet but it was nice to find it.
*also, bone/it pronouns? the fuck? xD
What makes you think you'd be happier as a guy? Maybe you have some ideal or imagined version of yourself that makes more sense to you? And how others perceive you changes a lot with your attitude, confidence, etc, so you can definitely control that. Apart from that, they're mostly occupied with their own thoughts, anyway!
And well, the reality of it is that you cant really become a guy, superficially maybe, but not without health risks from hormones and surgery. So im glad to hear you're being careful with these kind of decisions!
The first six months were great, exciting. I was finally starting what I had only observed from the outside, and experiencing the effects myself. And it also seemed to work well for my mental health, like I was getting calmer. But that didnt last forever, it was only the first subtle changes that were good, when my body wasnt yet reacting strongly to it. Then, the health issues started, my hair was rapidly falling out, i was always tired.. but instead of stopping, I kept taking it for a few more months, being too stubborn to just take a break from it. When really, I was lucky that my body gave me all these obvious warning signs, and I would be happier now if I had stopped right after the "honeymoon phase". I kept wanting more changes but all that happened after I now deeply regret, because it's a constant reminder of what I did to myself. It really only took going without T for a few weeks to get back in touch with my emotions, and realizing that it was a mistake. Before, I was just wired on hormones.
Yes, I never really figured that withdrawing something I had my body get used to could turn out just as bad as the effects during taking it :(
I really dont want to resume T, I dont want my voice to drop anymore. Im afraid I put myself into a whole mess of a system instead of... not.