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About me
I started identifying as trans because I felt a deep hatred for my female body, especially during puberty, and I truly believed I was a gay man. After a year of therapy and doctor visits, I started testosterone, which did stop my suicidal thoughts about my body. But I always felt isolated from other guys and found it easier to connect with women, which made me question myself. I don't have clear regrets, but my thoughts on gender are much more complicated now. I'm just trying to understand myself better beyond any labels.
My detransition story
Of course. Here is a summary of my experience, based on my own words.
My whole journey with gender has been confusing and filled with a lot of anxiety. I started identifying as trans because I felt a deep and painful discomfort with my female body, especially during puberty. I hated my breasts so much that I couldn't go out without wearing a binder. Even saying the word "bra" made me upset. When I wasn't on hormones, I had a lot of suicidal thoughts that were centered around having a female body. The only thing that made me feel better was thinking of myself with a male body.
I saw myself entirely as a gay man who dates other gay or bi men. The idea of being a gender non-conforming straight woman never made any sense to me; it just didn't fit who I felt I was. Even though I understood that sexuality and gender are different, this was a big part of my identity.
But there were always things that made me question myself. I actually found it easier to relate to women and I had a lot of girl friends. I often felt nervous around boys and felt like I didn't quite fit in with other guys because I was trans, which was really isolating. I just wanted to have dude friends to talk about normal things like gaming with, without my gender being an issue.
Getting on testosterone was a long process. My parents wanted me to think about it for a long time, so it took about a year of doctor and psychologist visits, consent forms, and a note from my therapist confirming I had gender dysphoria before I could start.
Looking back, I think a lot of my struggle was about figuring out if I had true gender dysphoria or if I was just struggling with a deep discomfort and hatred of my female body. My brain gets cluttered and overwhelmed easily, which made all this self-reflection really difficult. I was never trying to argue or prove I was really trans; I was just looking for guidance during a very anxious time in my life.
I don't know if I have any clear regrets. The medical transition did stop the suicidal thoughts that were directly about my body, and for that I am grateful. But my thoughts on gender are more complicated now. I'm trying to understand myself better, beyond the labels.
Here is a timeline of my journey based on what I remember:
| My Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 14-15 | Started experiencing intense discomfort and hatred toward my developing female body during puberty. |
| 15 | Began identifying as transgender and started socially transitioning. Wanted to start testosterone. |
| 15-16 | My parents insisted I wait and think about it for a year. |
| 16-17 | Underwent a year of required therapy and doctor visits. Received an official gender dysphoria diagnosis. |
| 17 | Finally started taking testosterone. |
| 18 | Was still actively identifying as a gay man and questioning my journey on online forums. |
Top Comments by /u/evmitr:
that’s very true! and i understand that completely, but i actually do relate more easily to women? i have a lot of girl friends and i get nervous around boys quite honestly. it feels like i don’t quite fit in with the guys because im trans, its isolating often. but i also don’t want to be called a female at all, and want dude friends to talk about gaming and other shit like that with?
sorry i hope i didn’t sound bitchy or like i was trying to argue! it wasn’t intended at all, im just really curious about this all. but yes i totally agree-and to some level i think that does apply to me :’) i’m not struggling with whether i have actual dysphoria or if i’m just struggling with discomfort of a female body
i’m more so just looking for a bit more guidance in a time of anxiety, not simply trying to prove that i’m really trans. do you mind if i message you to answer some of these questions, or would you prefer to keep it here? my brain gets cluttered and overwhelmed pretty easily aha
see that’s kinda what makes me question my being trans, but i don’t feel attraction to straight men or want to date straight men bc i see myself entirely as a gay man who dates gay/bi men. and also sexuality and gender are different, and while they can be connected in many ways, i just,,, don’t feel as though gnc straight woman makes any sense for me as a person. not trying to argue btw!!!! i’ll definitely check them out, and thank you for the advice!!!
every time i’ve tried to go out without a binder i seem to have panic attacks though, even wearing a still constricting sports bra (it actually makes me upset to even say bra too lmao) also, when i wasn’t on hormones i was dealing with a lot of (tw) suicidal thoughts centered around my “female” body. thinking about myself with a male body is the only thing that seems to make me feel a little better also dating in general is always gonna be hard for me, but i’ve found a some really cool people in my life that have shown interest and who aren’t weirdos. i’ll be fine in that section and i’m sorry that you’ve suffered, really. i hope you feel like you again soon!
it was really hard actually. it took a years worth of doctor/psychologist visits, consent forms, a note from my therapist, confirmation that i have gender dysphoria, etc etc. before that year i still wanted it for another year or so, but my parents wanted me to think about it more. so i did.