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About me
I started identifying as a trans man at 19, hoping it would solve my deep unhappiness and body image issues. I was on testosterone for seven years, which caused serious health problems and made me feel like I was living a lonely lie. I stopped in 2022 when my body couldn't take it anymore, and seeing a friend breastfeed made me realize I was robbing myself of my womanhood. Now, I'm learning to live authentically as a woman with a body permanently changed by the hormones. I deeply regret the damage done and believe my pain was exploited by a medical system that should have protected me.
My detransition story
My journey with transition and detransition is complicated and deeply personal. It started when I was 19, right after high school. I was struggling with a lot of things: feeling estranged from my family, undiagnosed mental health issues, and body image problems. I think my family not being supportive in general made me vulnerable to looking for answers elsewhere. I found those answers online in trans communities, which seemed to offer a way out of my pain. I started socially identifying as a trans man in 2014 and began taking testosterone in 2015.
I was on testosterone for seven years. At first, it felt like a solution. I experienced a kind of "euphoria" and felt like I was finally taking control. But looking back, I see that a lot of my desire to transition came from a place of low self-esteem, internalized homophobia (I'm bisexual), and a deep discomfort with the challenges of being a woman in the world. I hated the way I was treated as a female and I thought becoming a man would be an escape. I also had a therapist at the time who was a trans woman himself, and he encouraged me to transition without ever challenging me on the deeper reasons why.
The physical effects of testosterone were significant. My voice dropped, I grew a lot of facial and body hair, and my face changed—my jaw became more square and my brow more furrowed. I even started to look more like my Mexican father. For a few years, I lived "stealth" as a man. I used the name Phillip and people who didn't know me before believed I was male. But it was a lonely and isolating experience. I remember feeling like an intruder in men's spaces, like locker rooms, and knowing on a primal level that I would never truly be part of their world. It was all an act, like an actor playing a part. I was deceiving myself and asking everyone else to participate in the lie.
Around the three-year mark on testosterone, my health started to decline. I became emotionally unstable, very sleepy all the time, and hypersexual. The longer I was on it, the worse it got. I developed serious health complications that no one had warned me about. I experienced severe vaginal atrophy, which led to bladder incontinence. It's embarrassing, but I have the bladder of a senior citizen and I'm only in my late twenties. I also lost a lot of my hair. I now know that taking high doses of testosterone long-term is not tested or approved for women, and the doctors who prescribed it to me were engaging in medical malpractice. They were essentially using me as a guinea pig.
I stopped testosterone at the end of 2022. My body was screaming at me to stop. The decision to detransition wasn't easy. It started with quitting the hormones for my health, but still presenting socially as male for a few months. What really pushed me over the edge was seeing my best friend breastfeed her child. I felt a powerful, mammalian urge to be a mother myself, and I was hit with the realization that I could never share that experience with the men I was trying to be like. I knew I was a woman, and I was robbing myself of my own community. Transition stole from me the feeling of togetherness with other women.
Detransitioning was harder than transitioning. I went through what I call a "dark night of the soul." My period returned and the first one was shocking—it was like my body was clearing out years of old tissue. I cried constantly, at everything from sad music to movie trailers. It was like the testosterone had suppressed my ability to cry and now all the emotions were flooding out. I also lost friends, especially those in radical leftist and trans circles who saw my detransition as a betrayal.
I have permanent changes from the testosterone. My voice is still very low, I have a lot of facial hair, and my facial bone structure is more masculine. I manage the hair by using an epilator (an electric tweezer) every other day and then shaving what's left. I don't pursue permanent solutions like laser because I don't want any more medical interventions. I’ve had to learn to accept my body as it is now. I don't try to "pass" as a woman anymore; I just am a woman, and this is what I look like. My perspective on gender is that it's a social construct based on stereotypes. Sex is real and immutable. I was born female, and no amount of hormones or surgery could change that.
I absolutely have regrets. I regret the damage I did to my body and the years I lost living a lie. I regret the isolation and the genuine relationships I ruined because I was pretending to be someone I wasn't. I feel deep anger towards the medical professionals who enabled this and the online communities that sold me a false promise. My family estrangement turned out to be deeper than transition; even after I detransitioned, they weren't truly supportive. I've had to make peace with that.
Ultimately, I’ve learned that transition isn't a solution to pain. It’s a belief system that asks you to reject reality. My goal now is long-term health and wellness, not temporary happiness. I'm learning to live authentically as a woman, with all the scars and changes from my past.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Year | Event |
|---|---|---|
| 17 | 2012 | Enjoying being a teenager, playing games with friends, before any thoughts of transition. |
| 18 | 2013 | Graduated high school. |
| 19 | 2014 | Began socially identifying as a trans man. |
| 20 | 2015 | Started taking testosterone. |
| 23 | 2018 | Health problems from testosterone became noticeable (around the 3-year mark). |
| 27 | 2022 | Stopped testosterone at the end of the year due to severe health issues. |
| 28 | 2023 | Fully socially detransitioned, returned to my birth name and female pronouns. My period returned. |
| 29 | 2024 | Living as a detransitioned woman, managing permanent health issues like bladder incontinence. |
Top Reddit Comments by /u/feed_me_see_more:
It was being called a "trans misogynist" and "TERF" when I was still a trans man 😂. Being told I never experienced misogyny as a trans man and that I had male privilege.
Being told that that even as a female i had male privilege over them and that I was "punching down" on them by just explaining my opinion on children being given puberty blockers and the harm hormones did to my own body.
I realized that this shit was absolutely delusional and started evaluating the community as a whole. I realized that it was very rare to see a "trans man" in any leadership or position of power in the trans community, trans identified females were simply being used as accessories to make the community appear to be inclusive...It was the males (trans "women") who always had the prestige and power which was familiar and eye opening.
You have not been "living full time as a woman", you have been living in a disguise but you have always lived as a boy/man.
you've been living as a boy/man with suppressed testosterone and due to the drugs you were given you are now a underdeveloped man.
Start restructuring your language around transition and you will start seeing how messed up the whole thing is.
You won't be able to undo the damage done by puberty blockers or hormones, once a bell has been rung you can't un-ring that bell. 🔔
What you can do is start detoxing off those drugs, I recommend under a doctor's supervision. Maybe a doctor can prescribe something to help you rebuild your muscles and maybe give you some relief from the long term underdevelopment but that's more along the medical mysteries that come with detrans people, specifically males.
Not sure about the height, but it's OK to be a short man, plenty of short men in this world.
I recommend getting some therapy to figure out why you were so fixated with not being a man/boy in the first place.
"dressing how I want and not how dysphoria wants me to"
thats the mkst important sentence you wrote.
Testosterone deatroyeed my body after 7 years on it, my biggest hope is that all the women on this poison stop it befire it does to them what it did to me. Nothing is worth bladder incontonence, NOTHING.
yeah i think the worst part of detransition is being embarassed and humiliated about the behavior i participated in as a "trans man"...
its really similar to recovering from addiction. We have to forgive ourselves. Now we know what we know, we can move on.
Imagine dating someone in a wildly different religion than you and expects you to participate on a daily level with them even if you don't believe it...
You have the choice to participate.
You don't really have the choice to stay in the relationship and not participate.
Not saying end your relationship but just consider the cost of continuing.
You are on to something, DONT let the naysayers discourage you from learning more about the history of Eugenics.
The sterilization of gender non conforming people and really any one deemed "abnormal" is happening under covert eugenics campaigns such as the trans medicalization movement.
The history of eugenics begins with "progressive" programs and movements and never ended, just changed.
I never got top surgery and "passed" as a man for 7 years lived successfully as a "trans man" for 8 years.
You don't need top surgery to be trans, it will not cure or even address your dysphoria.
I am SO GRATEFUL I listened to the little feeling I had to not get tip surgery.
It's a horrible feeling. When I stopped T I experienced a miscarriage, it was very scary and sad knowing a new life couldn't survive in my body. But we can still sustain our lives in our bodies and that's what really is a gift because even that was put at risk with transition.
We were lead to poison ourselves in many ways similar to the other cults in history, the poison was masked as a cure/ path to enlightenment or in the words of trans ideology "euphoria"...
Not sure when we will get justice for these evil "professional" knowing the effects of this poison on our body and fully allowing us to access it based on a lie...
We deserve Justice for being the targets of this modern eugenic sterilization campaign.
There is no such thing as passing.
I "passed" for several years. I was even "stealth" for 3 years at work and in my personal life.
I walked through men's locker rooms, went to gay men's events, and intruded on gay male parties. All while "passing" for a gay guy... It's not real. None of it was real.
It was not satisfying, it was terrifying and dangerous and foolish.
I was foolishly putting my life in my hands every single time. Those men's eyes may have been deceived but their senses were not. They couldn't figure out why I gave them a weird feeling but they could sense there was a female amongst them and usually just chalked it up to me looking so "gay"...
What I'm trying to say is that I "passed" and still detransitioned 8 years into it. I Detranisitoned because even when "passing" it's still pretend, it's still a lie and it's dangerous and super unhealthy.
The adrenaline rush that comes from intruding male spaces becomes addicting and its so bad for the gut and heart. It also fills out our survival instincts and forces us to turn off our conscience which is super dangerous.
Passing doesn't exist, it's just lying really convincingly.
The recommended for these kids to be "Using the "leftover" T in the bottle" first of all DANGER
second of all LOL because that's such a scam!!!
Someone out here scamming these kids like how they did back in the day selling oregano instead of bud 😭
except this is so dangerous not to mention painful. I just KNOW they be reusing needles too 🤢... All the mistakes that could happen 😞 air bubbles, infection, abscess, HIV 🤢