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Authenticity Assessment: Not Suspicious
Based on the provided comments, the account ghxst_bxnny appears to be authentic.
There are no serious red flags suggesting it is a bot or a bad-faith actor. The comments exhibit:
- Personal, detailed medical experience with testosterone, surgeries, and detransition (e.g., specific costs, procedures like chondrolaryngoplasty, and physical changes).
- Consistent emotional narrative expressing regret, anger, grief, and frustration, which aligns with the known experiences of many detransitioners.
- Internal coherence in the timeline of their transition (4-5 years on T) and detransition (referencing being months off hormones).
- Interactive engagement with other users, offering support and sharing personal anecdotes in a conversational, non-scripted way.
The passion and strong opinions are consistent with a genuine detransitioner who feels harmed by their experience.
About me
I was born female and started identifying as transgender in my late teens, beginning testosterone for about five years. I now realize my desire to transition came from trauma and a deep discomfort with womanhood, which I wanted to escape. After stopping hormones, I'm facing permanent changes like a deeper voice and facial hair that are expensive to reverse. I deeply regret not getting therapy for my trauma instead of medical intervention. I now believe we need to find acceptance in our biological sex rather than trying to change it.
My detransition story
My journey with transition and detransition is complicated and deeply personal. I was born female and started identifying as transgender in my late teens. I was on testosterone for about four to five years, from the time I was around 17 or 18 until I was about 22. I never had any surgeries, but I considered them.
Looking back, I think a lot of my desire to transition came from a place of deep discomfort with being female. I had trauma and a lot of anxiety around men and sexuality, and I think I wanted to escape being seen as a woman because it felt vulnerable and unsafe. I also hated my breasts and felt a lot of general discomfort with my body during and after puberty. I spent a lot of time online, especially on sites like Tumblr, and I was definitely influenced by the communities I was in. I think I was looking for an identity and a way to belong, and transitioning seemed like the answer.
I was told by medical professionals that transition was the only real solution to my feelings of dysphoria. They made it sound like it was the only way to be happy. But after several years on testosterone, I realized I was more unhappy and suicidal than I had ever been. The physical changes started to feel wrong and permanent in a way that terrified me. I began to understand that my problem wasn’t with my body itself, but with my mental perception of myself and my unresolved trauma.
I stopped testosterone about a year ago. The process of detransition has been difficult and slow. My voice is permanently deeper, I have facial and body hair that requires expensive laser removal, and my Adam's apple is more prominent. I’m looking into procedures like a tracheal shave and vocal cord surgery, but they are costly and come with their own risks. My body isn’t changing back as quickly as I’d hoped; my natural hormones seem to be working very slowly to reverse the effects. My period came back but it's been irregular and a constant reminder of the disruption I caused.
I have serious regrets. I regret not looking into other ways to deal with my dysphoria, like more intensive therapy that focused on why I felt being female was bad, instead of just affirming that I should change my body. I regret not waiting and giving myself time to grow into adulthood. I feel like I made a permanent decision based on temporary feelings and outside influences. The phrase “you asked for it,” which someone said to me once, haunts me.
My thoughts on gender have changed completely. I now believe that your sex is a biological reality that can't be changed. Every cell in your body carries the information that made you female. Medical transition is a cosmetic change that doesn't alter that fundamental truth. I think we need to learn to find acceptance and comfort in our own skin, rather than trying to attain an impossible ideal. I also have a much more critical view of the online trans community and how it can influence vulnerable young people.
I don’t think I benefited from gender-affirming care. I think I would have benefited from therapy that wasn't focused on transition, but that helped me unpack my trauma and my negative associations with being a woman.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 11-15 | Felt like an outcast, used Tumblr, was uncomfortable with puberty and being female. |
| 17-18 | Started identifying as transgender and began testosterone therapy. |
| 22 | Stopped testosterone after 4-5 years, began the process of detransition. |
| 23 | Currently dealing with the ongoing physical and emotional effects of detransition. |
Top Comments by /u/ghxst_bxnny:
holy shit, yep! few years back often personally saw intersex getting thrown around as an identity tag or temporary label, and could only seem to see one person in all the noise openly stating how much they despised the new pride flags and arguments of what intersex was, when it was and always is related to genitalia and chromosomal malformation/differences that are managed throughout life due to hormone imbalance or other things that may come with being born intersex. this lone person also mentioned how doctors have and tend to "correct" intersex newborns without notifying parents and that their trauma is in no way comparable or relatable to the trans ideology/methods of "treating" biological sex. that one individual obv was not treated very kindly and may've been deleted since stuff like that doesnt settle well for long on tungle. but anyhow, wild when youre on the other side hearing shit like that :')
LMAOO NOOO im sorry but holy christ thats something i cant help but laugh. but its very true that it shouldn't be spread as possible and that those abdominal pains are something else. to say its "developing organs" or something to that effect is a load of crock and menstruation is more than just some muscles pulling and bland period panties. id straight up say go take a shit/check your bowel movements and be rational for a second. estrogen in male body = loss of muscle mass, fat redistribution and accumulation, excess breast tissue/gynecomastia, hormonal impacts (GI tract/mood/overall health). trans 'women' don't grow the suspensory ligaments or even a shrapnel of cells for uterine related hormones or production, there is no womb to signal increased circulation to except a penis, and besides bathroom issues i could only point to delusional/psychosomatic phantom sensations of what they can ONLY IMAGINE cramps/bloating/PMS being like. so really- acting/mocking. its like trying to experience limb loss by taping your arm inward for a day/week.
this seems to be a massive one! ive been told by many men and women alike they questioned it and what it means to the rest of their aspects and lives, and that questioning things from trivial to necessary is part of life, especially for/with girls. literally every other female ive talked to, mentions a period or multiple periods of time thinking of their sex and how it impacts them (such as if things happen because theyre female like how theyre treated and personal experiences). men not as much but they can and do as well. a part of becoming older is challenging what you hold and if it still or ever helps/serves you or what it means to you by how you've seen it defined. its human nature to be too damn curious. now, what we do with that curiosity...
8 months isnt a lot but! your face like your cheeks and jaw visibly rounded back out (fat redistribution!), eye/brow bone changed back to the rounded shape from before, softer/"glow" that doesnt look as rough and defined as T skin, your smile lines are missing the masculine bottom lines towards the chin so thats another perk of fat redistribution. your shoulders/shape look lovely since you didnt go too far. overall youre doing great! congrats on 2 months and much love
this. coming up to one year since officially stopping T and truly beginning the end of medicalization and the whole thing, and it was painful trying to "pass" as... myself. i wish i could go back and tell her its going to get better. its insane and heartbreaking tbh
this is (imo) a good scene to make the analogy for TW trying to be real/born women and its just... no, you dont know. you cant and never will. just like how we cant know your specific shit either, but to try to ever understand any girl from the US to Azerbaijan and anywhere else, no, you dont and will never know. CSA/SA is universal but how victims are treated even has a divide. its just not the same
was told this among other things by my NP early on. "transition is the only REAL solution you have to see to know and be satisfied". well, been more suicidal in a way i couldnt imagine. thanks im glad i found you and believed this stupid shit doc :) may your conscious burn worse than my shaven raw irritated scarred skin. *note: bitter hours
beyond appreciative for this, and just. wow. i always wondered and thought how much unnecessary trouble "chosen names" and things like that caused. i also left "F" on my paperwork for the same reason and still thankfully didnt change my marker or anything bureaucratic- thank you for this input as someone who works medically with the outside-impacted results of identity and gender politics in unrelated/unfamiliar fields !!
^^^^^^ !! i live in a more "liberal" (relaxed? dem? if in US ykwim) state and through the last decade ive seen so many articles/news on trans children and teens and how parents shouldnt be their "first bully" by discouraging medicalization. its one thing to suppress expression and preference and personality and your childs happiness but this isnt the case. and the same people to say "he's no less of a man for enjoying feminine things!" will take that same memory and place a new narrative now thinking its gender suppression embodied and finally showing up (or disturbingly after taking a regretful look at egg_irl, "cracking") by dressing up and that this type of behavior needs to be looked into and be furthered with transition. and for sure on the intersex points (tho i wont go further since i cant speak as or for them). this shits wild and such an ugly even unstable development of "science" that can reach underage underdeveloped people.
same !! i always got confused by the differing trans people arguing this and in the end thought that: why else would you want to identify with or seek such a thing unless you felt so wrong and deluded? just for kicks? for fun? ive seen one person say they're happy about and encourage easy access to irreversible hormones, verbatim. but here they are trying to shove detrans under the rug. or just percentile and statistic our existence and pain away.
it may be a reach/hell of a stretch but it makes me think of how antiabortionists/antichoice want fetuses born but have no established rigid childcare support or planning in place to ensure the child(ren) and parents can actually maintain and thrive after that pregnancy they had no choice keeping or if theres any complications that can cause harm etc. or better yet just say dont have sex, avoid it and "dont be stupid in the first place/unless you wanted em", and birth control not working or other circumstances are a myth... /s (sorry bit of another tangent but anyways.)
we arent forced by legal obligation to transition is the difference from antichoice however. but that "you can do this but fuck off if you have any qualms, shouldnt of done it!" mentality/response. sigh.