i think the main reason for ftms and even regular women and girls to have this idealization of teenage boys is simply because girlhood in comparison is absolute hell for most. im not sure how to phrase this exactly, but their is a loss of freedom that comes with becoming a teenager for girls as the body grows breasts and ur hips widen, and suddenly, men and boys start to stare at you. it can make a lot of girls start to long for the freedoms from being sexualized that being male brings. on top of that, since most of the trauma and pain caused to these girls is from grown men, it can lead to a demonizion of adult men but not of boys.

i hope that makes sense, its really late where i am and im super tired.

I agree 100%. I still to this day wish i could have been born male instead but i wasn't so that's just life, it took me too long to realize that injecting myself with steroids and dreaming about mutilating my perfectly healthy female body wasn't going to make me a man.

i dont believe in the existence of different genders from your sexed body so no i dont identify as cisgender. to me if feels like when christians say im gonna go to hell for something like i dont believe in heaven and hell so that simply doesnt apply to me. there is only my female body and that is what makes me a woman aka an adult human female. my brain isnt a woman brain or a man brain its just another organ inside of my female body.

Rose Mcgowan was 100% in the right. she was hosting a book reading and some random trans woman just comes in and starts yelling about how trans women are oppressed and how Rose is transphobic, disrupting everything and being a massive asshole at the same time. its feminist like Rose Mcgowan, who always face the most backlash for believing in things that are blantantly true. People will always turn to accusations of bigotry to try and shut feminists up. First, we were all labeled racist and "misandrist" and now transphobic no matter whether we agree with trans people or not.

i would stop if i were you, around the year and a half mark was when i started getting negative effects personally. my mental health got so bad, i had horrible anger issues, my depression came back in full force and i was gaining a lot of weight and found it damn near impossible to lose.

i also developed some vaginal pain and uterine cramps despite not having periods anymore, my large clitoris is also very sensitive and its often painful especially when wearing looser underwear/pants.

all of this except my clitoris problems have basically completely gone away after 5 months off T, and my clit problems are a lot better.

for reference i was on T for about 2 years before i quit.

theres nothing wrong with us, we just had a different life experience from others. most of us were taken advantage of by doctors and the trans community when we were at our lowest, making mistakes when your hurt is about the most normal thing anyone can do. and from my experience most trans people are not as happy as they seem, everyone puts on a face for the public but behind closed doors, a lot of trans people are struggling with the same things we detrans people are.

terf is just the new feminazi. ive been called a terf even when i was a trans man on T so it never really meant anything to me. nowadays i agree with radical feminists and i dont see anything wrong with that. im not 100% in agreement with radical feminism but i find it way better than liberal feminism and choice feminism.

yea i dont think so, i have never been happier since i decided to detransition. deciding that pretending to be something you can never be is not good for you is not the same thing as repressing your sexuality, especially since so many people go trans in order to repress their sexuality.

like others here have said, ex-gay people were repressing an innate, natural healthy fact about themselves, and detrans people are accepting an innate, natural and healthy fact about ourselves. pretending to be straight when youre not is not the same thing as accepting your sex and not letting gender roles define you.

you look very obviously female to me. i also want to tell you something as someone who pretty recently detransitioned as well; it will get easier and eventually you will be comfortable in your body again and you will feel like a woman again. i hated everything about myself when i had just detransitioned too, i was ashamed of myself completely. that was 2 years ago, now i still deal with my eating disorder and associated body image issues but even still i feel a lot more comfortable in my body and i feel like a woman again and you will too. just remember you dont need to wear makeup, have long hair or dress femininely to be a woman. all it takes to be a woman is to be an adult human female. im wishing you happiness and love ❤️

i completely understand how you feel, i feel the exact same a lot of the time. idk if itll help you or not but finding radical feminism and the women in the radfem community has been extremely helpful, i still have my days but overall compared to how i was just earlier this year, i feel much happier to be a woman and i even feel proud to be female.

i know its tough but it will get better. life doesnt have to be painful, i wish you the best ❤️