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Based on the comments provided, the account appears authentic.
There are no serious red flags suggesting it is a bot or a fake persona. The comments show:
- Consistent personal history: Details like having top surgery at 16, being 21 now, and references to psychedelic therapy and specific emotional struggles are consistent across posts made over two years.
- Complex, evolving emotions: The user expresses a range of genuine, nuanced feelings—regret, self-consciousness, moments of peace, and anger—that read as human.
- Internal logic: The perspective, while passionate, follows an internally consistent narrative of someone who feels they were influenced as a minor and now advocates for caution and self-acceptance.
The account does not exhibit the repetitive, scripted, or agenda-driven posting that would indicate inauthenticity. The passion and anger present are consistent with the warning that detransitioners can be rightfully upset about their experiences.
About me
I started as a teenage girl who was really struggling, and my feelings about my gender began right after my eating disorder suddenly vanished. I was heavily influenced by social media and rushed into top surgery and testosterone at 16, even when I felt unsure. My perspective completely changed after a powerful experience made me realize I was a girl, and I woke up one day regretting everything. Now at 21, I'm learning to accept myself as a woman and am at peace with who I was born to be. I deeply regret the permanent changes and wish I had just learned to love my natural self.
My detransition story
My whole journey with transition and detransition started when I was really young. I was a teenager, around 15, and I was really struggling. I had an eating disorder that just magically disappeared one day, like a light switch went off. I stopped seeing myself as fat. It was weird, and not long after that, the feelings about my gender started.
I think a lot of it was influenced by social media. My parents never monitored what I was looking at online, and I was heavily influenced by what I saw. Being trans as a minor gave me a kind of god complex that I’m now ashamed of; it was gross and I still have to watch how I think sometimes. I also felt a lot of discomfort with my body during puberty, especially my breasts. I really hated them.
I started socially transitioning and then, at 16, I got top surgery. I remember the surgeon asking me if I was sure a few times, and I remember not being sure at all. I just quietly mumbled yes. I felt like no one was really there for me to talk it through properly. I started taking testosterone too, and I have to admit, it made me feel really energized and good at the time. It felt like it helped me.
But things started to change for me. I started using psychedelic drugs to help with my anxiety and depression, and it really did help me in the long run with those feelings. But during one trip, I had a really strong experience where it felt like it was telling me I was a girl. I ignored it then, but looking back, it was a sign. The feelings kept growing. I woke up one day feeling completely different about my identity, just like a light switch, the same way my eating disorder had vanished.
Now, at 21, I regret everything. I miss the feeling I had in my chest before top surgery. I miss a lot. I wish I had just learned to be a tomboy instead of going through with all of this. I think transitioning requires deep meditation and thought for years, something I didn't have the chance to do as a minor. I was rushed into it.
Since detransitioning, I’ve had to learn to accept myself. I tell people to use any pronouns for me now because I’m still going to be seen as a man for a while until things reverse. I try not to worry too much about how I look, or else I get really self-conscious and compare myself to women who never took hormones. It’s a process. I had an ex-friend who transitioned recently attack me for my choice, which was crazy. It feels like some people don’t even try to understand our thoughts.
My main thought on gender now is that you have to love yourself and really understand that no one is perfect. Everyone has imperfections, and you are still capable of being loved and being beautiful in different people's eyes. You just have to learn to be okay with your natural self. I feel so much better and at peace now, accepting who I was born as. I feel free in a way. I even got called "she" the other day, which never happens, and it felt nice.
I don’t regret the journey entirely because it led me to where I am now, but I deeply regret the permanent changes. I wish I had given myself more time.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 15 | Developed and then suddenly recovered from an eating disorder. Began experiencing intense discomfort with my body and breasts during puberty. |
| 16 | Underwent top surgery. Started taking testosterone. |
| 21 | Realized I had made a mistake and began my detransition. Now working on accepting my body as it is. |
Top Comments by /u/gurodog:
I'm here for you my dms are open. I had top surgery at 16. I remember my surgeon asking me are you sure a few times and I remember not being sure and very quietly mumbling yes. No one was here for me. I'm 21 now and regret everything. But sometimes you just gotta accept it and make peace or you will be miserable. I do wake up depressed most days but I'm working on it. I had an eating disorder at 15 that magically went away one day and I didnt see myself as fat anymore. It was weird. Like a light switch. Same shit happened with the trans shit. I woke up one day feeling way different.
Just be a tomboy. I wish I did that. I'm 21 Nd I regret transitioning I miss the feeling I had in my chest before top surgery, I miss a lot. You can learn to accept and love yourself. And if it keeps happening in years, you can transition but I think it requires deep meditation and thought for years. Something I didnt have as a minor.
This is why i haven't told anyone about my detransition, people probably assume I'm MTF but right now I could care less. I used to care, but I feel so much better and at peace accepting who I was born as. I feel free in a way. I did get called she the other day tho which never happensss
You have to love yourself and really truly understand noones perfect and everyone has imperfections. Realize everyone's different though and you are still capable of being loved and be beautiful in different people's eyes...You just have to learn to be okay with your natural self. I think.
Yes, I did it so many times. Each time was worse. First was when I wanted to cut my hair short. She first put it in a bob. I thought it looked beautiful. But then continued to get a masculine hairstyle that I felt horrible about.. I feel like an idiot looking back at it even though I was just a dumb kid I guess
Yeah... they love labels so much.. ever since I detransitioned I just said fuck it. Any pronouns. Cause I'm still gonna be seen as a man for a while til shit reverses. I dont really wanna worry too much about how I look either ot else I'll get really self conscious and compare myself to women who never took hormones. I was attacked by an ex friend who transitioned recently too, its crazy how they dont even try to understand our thoughts...
I'm sorry this happened to you:( people are so judgemental, they really are. People assume everything. We live in a cruel, stupid world, unfortunately. And for introverts like me, there's alot of room for people to assume. Your beautiful tho never forget it.
Give it time to learn about yourself and the world. If you really feel uncomfortable then maybe transitioning is for you. But meditate, maybe even psychedelic therapy. Can all help you learn more about yourself. It helped me... and now I'm just trying to clean up all this mess it feels like.
as a detrans female ig, testosterone made me feel really energized and good it helped me. just see the positive. you embraced your feminine side fully as a man per say and now you can go back to your authentic self if you want . idk just trying to help people who are feeling lost . just catch that high, go for a run or hike....do something to keep you going
I started getting more self conscious with myself being trans in high school when taking psychedelics. It helped me alot with anxiety in the long run and depression. But with the gender stuff, I had a trip once that was literally telling me I was a girl. I ignored it though. Social media and being trans as a minor gave me somewhat of a God complex that even today sometimes I have to watch how I think. Its gross, I totally agree. I was so heavily influenced by social media as a kid and my parents never monitored. I am so different now, in so many different ways from who I was when I identified as a trans man.