Yes I was, and I think you have a misunderstanding of how I and my classmates were educated on the topic. We were told that some people transitioned, that it was because they felt they’d be happier living as the other gender, and that it was important to respect the way they wanted to live. We were never told we might not be our birth gender. The exact same way we were taught about gay people and the importance of respecting them, we were never told we should wonder if we’re gay.

As for “when they should be teaching math or English”, it was a side note in the class our school ran once a fortnight that broadly covered emotional topics and personal development for 12 - 13 year olds. Things such as mental health problems and how to help yourself or friends who are struggling, bullying, puberty, pressure to achieve at school etc. which I think is an important part of a well rounded education system where teachers are able to support children as more than just things to teach facts, but full people.

I started taking T at 14 and went off at 16 and was shocked by how much my body changed and continued to become more “womanly”, including breast growth, well after I thought puberty was done. I’m 20 now and even talking with friends who never interrupted their puberty it seems most of them agree that their body continued to develop into early adulthood.

I think it’s also important to add that perhaps you won’t develop breasts in the way you want, lots of people have small chests, but accepting your body as it is is what will bring satisfaction with your body, not physical features.

Out of nowhere I just stopped feeling dysphoria. I don't know how or why and I didn't try to force or repress anything or convert myself, it just slowly stopped being something I felt and instead I felt a strong desire to be female. After 12 years of consistent, persistent, expressed gender dysphoria starting at age 3 it wasn't what I was expecting at all.

I've had so many detransition related dreams but the one that stands out the most is the nightmare I had where was going to a doctors to get top surgery. I was at a surgeons office and he was talking to me about how they would perform the surgery but the more he talked the more and more afraid I was because I knew I didn't want top surgery and I was afraid of having them removed and feeling like I could never detransition once it was over but I also thought everyone would hate me if I didn't go through with it. It sounds very mild when I write it out but I was so scared while it was happening that I think of it as a nightmare.

Thank you, it's nice to hear from someone else what I'm trying to tell myself, it makes me feel less alone with it all. As for therapy I've been going for over 10 years now but I still find it very hard to be open, especially when I'm blaming myself for something, but I do really need to talk about this.

What I've heard from my doctor is that being on testosterone doesn't make you infertile but you can't be pregnant while on testosterone. I've also heard a few stories of trans men getting pregnant after being on testosterone and I watched a video made by a detrans woman who'd had a son after being on testosterone.

Edit to say while you can't be pregnant on testosterone because it will cause birth defects you can get pregnant, testosterone doesn't work as birth control

Although I don't have experience maintaining muscle mass I thought it might be helpful to hear my experience to know what could happen. I exercise for 6 - 8 hours a week and have done so consistently for a little over a year and a half and I've been off of testosterone for 8 months. I've lost a fair amount of muscle mass, especially in my upper body, and I expect it to continue to decline. I'm still more muscular than average but I don't know how much more it'll go down as I refeminise. Strangely my athletic performance has only gotten better, I was nervous about enjoying it less if I couldn't perform the same but it turns out it was nothing to worry about.

I was on testosterone for a little under two years and what I've heard is that some people experience a lot of negative changes in the first weeks but personally I was fine, no more irritable, depressed, or anxious than normal. In fact my OCD improved when I came off t so I think reactions are different from person to person. Right now I'm 5 months off and I've noticed so many changes from being able to cry again to lightening body hair. I think I might make a post about everything I've noticed change when I reach 6 months.

You seem to have had a really similar experience to me. I had mild dysphoria pre puberty which became strong and unbearable at age 12. Then from age 15 it slowly but surely dissipated until it no longer felt necessary for me to continue transitioning medically or socially.

I hope it isn't, but I understand why you'd think that. I know transitioning wasn't right for me but it is right for lots of people. Unfortunately there are people on this sub who are taking anger out and trying to blame someone for the pain they're feeling, but I've been seeing less of them as time goes on. Honestly though sometimes I see some posts on here and I need to take a break from the subreddit for a while. I hope by being a detransitioner and a trans ally I can spread a more positive message and make the detrans community more inclusive.