This story is from the comments by /u/inspireddelusion that are listed below, summarised with AI.
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The user's story is highly detailed, emotionally complex, and internally consistent over time. They describe a very personal and nuanced journey of transitioning (FTM), detransitioning, and the ongoing physical and psychological challenges, including specific medical details (e.g., effects of testosterone, pregnancy, top surgery), personal relationships, and evolving self-perception. The emotional tone ranges from anger and pain to hope and support for others, which aligns with the expected passion and trauma of someone who has lived this experience. The narrative does not read as a manufactured stereotype.
About me
I was born female and felt from a young age that I should have been a boy, a feeling made worse by my mother's cruelty and the abuse I suffered. I transitioned as a teenager to escape my body and my pain, getting testosterone and top surgery with little medical oversight. After having my son, I realized my transition was a way to run from trauma and my mental health struggles, not a true identity. I've now detransitioned and am learning how to be a woman, though I live with permanent physical changes. I’m finally focusing on being a mother and finding myself without any labels.
My detransition story
My whole journey with gender has been long and complicated, and it’s taken me a lot of time to understand it myself. I was born female, and from a very young age, I felt different. I remember thinking as a little kid that it would be easier if I were a boy. I was a huge tomboy, I only wanted to wear boys' clothes, and I got really angry and confused about why I couldn't use the boys' bathroom. When I got my period at 12, I cried because I wished so badly that I was a boy.
A lot of this came from my home life. My mum made it very clear from the beginning that she had always wanted boys, not girls. She would say things like, "My side of the family is beautiful… you look like your dad," or "older sister the brains, younger is the beauty and you’re just you." She also sexualised me from a young age. I remember her saying in front of a friend's son, "He only likes her 'cuz her boobs are so big!" when I was a self-conscious teenager. I was also sexually abused by people in my immediate family. All of this made me hate my body and gave me incredibly low self-esteem. I developed a severe eating disorder, anorexia, which I still struggle with now at 22. I felt ugly and unlovable as a girl. I thought being a boy would be a way to escape my body, to be someone who "didn't care" about their appearance, and maybe even a way to get my mum to finally like me.
I came out as trans when I was 14. My mental health was terrible at the time. I was diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder and borderline personality disorder, and I had a psychotic disorder during puberty. I wasn't showering or brushing my teeth. I was a mess. But no one really looked into that. I started testosterone at 17 after just one Zoom call with a clinic that was later sued for giving hormones to minors. They didn't ask about my mental health history or my eating disorder. They just sent the prescription.
Being on testosterone felt like a life-saver at the time. I truly believe that if I hadn't gotten it, I would have killed myself because I was so convinced it was the only cure for how I felt. I was on T for three years. It gave me some changes—I grew some facial hair I have to shave, and my voice got a little lower but never fully dropped—but because of my genetics, I never passed completely as male. I also had some bad physical side effects. I had constant UTIs and bladder issues from vaginal atrophy, which was really embarrassing.
During my time living as a man, I fell into some bad spaces. I was surrounded by a group of gay men, and there was a real grooming culture. I was a teenager being preyed on by older men, and I hypersexualised myself on apps like Grindr to feel seen. It was a really bad time. I also had top surgery when I was 19. I hated my breasts; they were large, and they made me sweat and feel sexualised. Getting them removed felt like a relief.
But about two years into taking testosterone, around 2021, I started to quietly question things. I began dressing in women's clothes in secret when no one was around, almost like I was doing drag. I stopped T cold turkey in July 2022 because my partner and I decided we wanted to try for a child. Coming off hormones was rough. I was moody, cried all the time, and felt mentally unstable for months. But my period came back after two months, and I eventually got pregnant and had my son last year. The pregnancy actually gave me a heart rhythm disorder, so I couldn't go back on T even if I wanted to.
After I had my son, I started to seriously confront who I was. In January of last year (2024), I finally admitted to myself that I wasn't trans. I told my partner first, and we started trying out my old name and she/her pronouns again. I gradually told my close friends. I dropped a lot of my old social circle to avoid backlash and blocked people who tried to tell me I was still trans. I didn't need anyone else to tell me who I was. I officially came out publicly as detransitioned in August 2024.
It’s been a process of rediscovery. For a while, I identified as non-binary to ease back into the idea of being female. I still sometimes flinch at she/her pronouns because I used he/him for seven years. I feel a lot of dysphoria now, but it's different. Having a flat chest from top surgery sometimes makes me feel like I'm in drag when I try to wear feminine clothes. I wear fake breast forms every day now, not just for the look but because they feel comfortable and right. I’m learning how to be a woman—I’m growing my hair out, learning makeup, and building a new wardrobe. I just had my first professional haircut at a salon since I was 14, and it felt like a girly rite of passage I’d missed out on.
I’ve realised that a lot of my transition was about escapism and running from myself. I have an unstable sense of self from my BPD, and latching onto a trans identity gave me a rush. Now, I try to find that feeling in hobbies and other things, not in my identity. I also understand now that I have a lot of internalised homophobia. I’m attracted to women, but I felt so ugly and unattractive as a woman that I thought the only way to be with a woman was to be a man. Turns out, that wasn't true.
Do I have regrets? It's complicated. I don't regret my transition in the sense that I believe it saved my life at the time. But I deeply regret the permanent changes. I will never be able to breastfeed my children, and that destroys me. I have lifelong vaginal atrophy and a heart condition. I feel like I was failed by the medical system that gave hormones to a mentally ill teenager without any real psychological evaluation.
My thoughts on gender are my own. I still believe being trans is a real and valid experience for some people; it just wasn’t the right path for me. For me, it was a band-aid for deeper issues of trauma, abuse, and mental illness. I’m finally learning to just be me, without any labels. I’m focusing on being a good mum and loving myself.
| Age | Year | Event |
|---|---|---|
| 4 | ~2006 | Recalls platonicly kissing girls and believing that meant she must be a boy. |
| 12 | ~2014 | Got her first period and cried, wishing she was a boy. |
| 14 | 2016 | Came out as transgender. |
| 17 | 2019 | Started testosterone. |
| 19 | 2021 | Had top surgery (double mastectomy). |
| 20 | 2022 | Stopped testosterone cold turkey in July to try for a child. |
| 21 | 2023 | Gave birth to a son. Pregnancy caused a heart rhythm disorder. |
| 22 | 2024 | In January, began to admit she wasn't trans. Told her partner. In August, came out publicly as detransitioned. |
| 22 | 2025 | Now identifying as a woman, growing out hair, and navigating life post-detransition. |
Top Reddit Comments by /u/inspireddelusion:
Uhhh no. I’m quite left in all honesty. I love that anyone else living as themselves is progressive and beautiful and when it’s us it’s the worst kind of atrocity.
When I wake up in the morning I’m eating cereal. I’m not taking your health care away. After that I’ll have a shower, read, decide on lunch. I am not preoccupied with any kind of hate even though they seemingly are constantly. It seems there’s always someone evil to trans people, there’s always a bigot to fight at 3am on Twitter. It’s why I’m so glad I’m not part of the community anymore. The constant need for fighting to seem you’re this liberated bigger person when in all honesty they’re just as filled with hate as anyone else is.
I cant tell if you’re being needlessly aggressive to this person because you’re simply jealous? Your entire comment comes across as “you were never a real trans person because you barely transitioned!” She took hormones for a year, which is more than some people do and it’s entirely valid that she’s excited with the results her detransition has given her. I’ve met people who were six months T and will never pass again as a woman, and me myself I WAS THREE YEARS ON T and I’m a passing woman now and my voice is entirely female. It doesn’t matter how long someone transitions, a detransition is important in any capacity to share results for, LET PEOPLE BE HAPPY. Sorry you’re mad that you decided to do another 3 years on E and now you can’t pass?
I’ve seen your post history that you’re a schizophrenic and you were in psychosis six months ago, regardless of whether you are trans or not (that’s not up to me) I would seriously consider putting your physical transition on hold anyway. As someone who was in psychosis and transitioned it played a huge part in my self perception. Testosterone as you know can also trigger periods of mental distress and you sound quite upset at the moment: before you make any decisions I’d get into a stable mindset for a minimum of a year whether that looks male or female is up to you but don’t be making permanent decisions when you’re currently unstable, I speak from a place of relating.
Yep. This is what my friends were like. One would literally dress as a woman, tits out the lot and get mad when people called them a girl. I offered them a binder they said no.
My “nonbinary” friend is the same. She “tolerates” she/her pronouns, why you might ask? She loves MEN calling her a woman but if another woman does she pops off because she wants to be sexualised but also be “different.”
I came off HRT at 20 when I decided I wanted a child. I stopped cold turkey and I’ll be honest I felt… awful. I was moody, I cried a lot and I became generally quite mentally unstable for a few months. I evened out about six months off HRT and eventually went on to have a child and that mellowed me out too once I recovered from PP depression.
It wouldn’t surprise me if she was jealous, she had quite a bad eating disorder and would compete with me when I was struggling with anorexia. She made this whole thing of saying “my side of the family is beautiful… you look like your dad.” Or “older sister the brains, younger is the beauty and you’re just you.” Still kill’s me inside, still have an eating disorder from it.
This is absolutely fucking insane. 1. I would never celebrate the death of a person regardless of background and if anything I feel more sympathy for Eden because she was a minority struggling with mental health issues clearly such as depression. 2. Yeah we aren’t changing our celebration because someone died (after we had decided on a date) or else why shouldn’t every fucking celebration date be changed because someone died on that particular date? I don’t stop celebrating my birthday if a family member died on it; I still exist and get to enjoy myself, and it doesn’t make me distasteful for celebrating myself.
If you look through detrans timelines on here you’ll see many stories and photos of people who passed completely as male and then go back to living as female and look like beautiful pretty women! I was on hormones for 2x as long as you, I have a beard I have to shave and yet I am never misgendered anymore! It’s possible to go back and look and feel pretty again. I do small feminine things that make me feel good, I even wrote a “girl bucket list” of things I’d never done and wanted to; buying an expensive dress, getting my nails done, having a large girl friendship group, learn how to do basic makeup!
Probably a bad take but honestly this is one of those things where you literally just have to learn to move on. People choosing to do what they can do with their own autonomy is absolutely not your fault, you shouldn’t feel guilt and even if they “blame” you then let them. If they were so easy to convince they were trans there has got to be other underlying reasons too; mental illness ect. I’d not put so much thought into it because it’ll just ruin your own mindset.
I was barely seventeen going on testosterone with a clinic that was getting sued for giving minors hormones. We did an hour over zoom before they sent me (without my parents consent) an electronic prescription for T. They didn’t ask about my mental health which at the time was so bad I had been sectioned, they didn’t ask if I had a history of body dysmorphia even though I’d had an raging eating disorder for a while. They didn’t give a flying fuck. I think my consent personally was out of the window, I had psychosis and was NOT in the right mind to make those decisions and yet since I was over 16 people think I need to take full responsibility which I completely and utterly disagree with!
I take responsibility for the fact when I was 19 I got top surgery because mentally I was somewhat better and did understand my decision but hormones as a minor I entirely disagree.
I also personally do agree that I feel some level of understanding gender dysphoria because I am dysphoric about the fact I have a beard which some trans women are ect but it’s absolutely not entirely the same. Our struggle is different.