i don’t even think it’s just makeup, i think my face in general just looks more feminine than it did 2 months ago. I was actually shocked looking at the photos of myself on T, i hardly recognised myself. (more pics including me now w/o makeup to show this https://imgur.com/a/paw53Y0). Unless it’s just me imagining it lol

I don’t think anyone (including cis people) “feel” male or female. I think most people recognise that they are biologically male or female and so usually by definition that means they are a man or a woman. I knew detransitioning was right because transitioning wasn’t an option for me anymore. It didn’t reduce my dysphoria, it wasn’t worth it, i was tired of it, and i was most likely ROGD so it didn’t make sense for me to, pretty out of the blue, start identifying as trans. once i accepted this all i began accepting that i am female and now i’m comfortable being a woman. i used to have really awful dysphoria

nope, not diy. i started thinking of alternatives to deal with my dysphoria besides transition. i felt as though transition wasn’t worth it for me, as most of my dysphoria was based on things i couldn’t change, and to me this wasn’t worth the social repercussions, having to be on T forever, surgery, money. etc. and then i started to really delve into why i transitioned in the first place, and i realised that my dysphoria probably wasn’t something i was born with. it probably developed over time, maybe i transitioned because i wanted to escape myself or something. and once i began properly evaluating it all, it kinda all just fell apart. i don’t feel like i need to transition anymore. most of my dysphoria has gone. so now since i’m not transitioning anymore i kinda just want to reidentify as female.

You won’t always look like a boy in a dress. If you stopped T your fat would redistribute and your face/body would look female again (if it doesn’t already). When i first stopped T i looked pretty masculine and i can relate to feeling like looking like a boy in a dress, but now after 2 months off T i look female again. (although i was only on T for 3 months)

Exactly. I had therapy, but in the UK they use the affirmation model, they don’t “fix your dysphoria”. It’s not as simple as going to a psychologist to get your dysphoria fixed. I told my parents and the internet told my parents that the cure for dysphoria is to transition. The internet says that if you don’t support your transitioning child then you’re transphobic. My parents just wanted me to be happy. They didn’t push anything on me. I don’t blame them for supporting me when I told them this is what I needed to do. They supported me then and they support me now that i’m detransitioning.

Maybe just take things slow (if you need to) and experiment with doing whatever you did before you transitioned. For instance, as FTMTF, i experimented with makeup that i did before i transitioned. Maybe try internally gendering yourself as male and see how that feels, or go on a forum with a male identity, for example. Just experiment and see if it’s actually bad or not. And of course, you don’t have to force masculinity on yourself if that’s not what you feel suits you. You can be a GNC male, that’s fine. I’d also suggest trying to distance yourself from the trans community for a bit if you’re currently really involved in it.

Thank you :) that’s what i keep telling myself, that if i hadn’t tried T i would most likely still be pursuing transition. And i think that’s true, and i’m glad that i have answers now instead of a lifetime of what ifs. Most of the time i’m okay with it, but sometimes, like when i made this post, i panic about it. i’ll probably be okay with some time.

Just by myself really, a lot of evaluation. I’ve only started getting counselling in the past month or so. I started becoming more comfortable in my body once I accepted that i am female and so my body is also female. I was uncomfortable previously because i identified as male, and so having a female body was distressing. But i no longer identify as male so my dysphoria is gone now.

I went in expecting to live life as a guy. I was also fairly anxious about it, but any doubts I had were shut down by my dysphoria and often the community (“doubts are normal, id be worried if you didn’t have doubts”, that kind of thing). But i was also aware of how 3 months is usually around the period when prominent changes start to happen (from most timeline videos i’ve seen, there’s usually a big voice drop around this time). As I was nearing 3 months, although I had dysphoria I really didn’t want to be trans forever. I found all of it (relationships being difficult, feeling marginalised, transphobia in society, dysphoria, being reliant on doctors forever. etc) really exhausting and I doubted I’d live long if that was my life forever. So I tried to see if it was possible for me to live as a woman, and I also addressed the causes of my dysphoria in the first place. I figured i’d rather pause transition and if it didn’t work, transition knowing id truly tried everything else. But i’m fine now being a girl.

Thank you, i’m seeing a counsellor so i think i’ll be okay with some time. i’ll probably try to work on feminising my voice a bit, i think a fair amount of it is also the voice training i gave myself to make it deeper (such as speaking from my chest).