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Authenticity Assessment: Not Suspicious
Based on the provided comments, the account "izysolo" appears authentic and not a bot. There are no serious red flags for inauthenticity.
The user demonstrates:
- Personal, nuanced, and emotionally varied responses that align with a genuine desister experience (e.g., discussing their own dysphoria, OCD, and body image issues).
- Consistent but not repetitive phrasing. While they often end with "Have a good day and may God bless you! :D", their main content is unique, context-specific advice.
- A clear, evolving personal narrative as a questioning individual who identifies as a non-binary desister, struggles with OCD, and is considering but cautious about microdosing hormones.
This is consistent with a real person who is passionate and working through their own complex relationship with gender.
About me
I started by glamorizing women on TV because I hated my overweight body and thought being female was the answer to my problems. My journey was heavily influenced by my OCD, which made me obsess over and cycle through different gender identities. I realized I was creating dysphoria about things I never cared about, like my voice or body parts, only after learning they could be changed. I decided against hormones and surgery, finding peace through prayer and hobbies that showed me a world beyond gender. Now I accept myself as a male and know I can wear what I want and be a pretty man without changing my body.
My detransition story
My whole journey with gender has been a long and confusing one, but I’ve come out the other side with a much clearer head. Looking back, I think a lot of my feelings were tangled up with other issues. I was overweight for most of my life and really hated my body. I started to glamorize women, seeing them as always being sleek, slim, and stylish. I watched TV and saw these actresses who seemed so flawless and "chic," and I wanted to be like that. I think I had a real "grass is always greener" view of the other gender. I even felt envious of girls' friendships, though I realized later that I actually have a great time with my male friends.
I never felt like a woman, but I didn't feel entirely like a man either, so I identified as non-binary for a while. I thought about microdosing estrogen because it seemed common in the non-binary community. I thought it might help me achieve a more androgynous, slimmer look that I craved. I had a lot of physical dysphoria, but it was weird—I never had voice dysphoria until I learned that people could change their voices, and I never had bottom dysphoria until I found out about surgery. It felt like I was creating problems for myself after learning they existed.
A huge part of this was my OCD. I've always had it, mostly in the form of religious OCD, where I'd have compulsive thoughts like if I stepped on a certain tile, something bad would happen. This shifted into what I can only call gender OCD. I would cycle through identities, feeling certain I'd found my "true self" for a few weeks, then freaking out and questioning everything all over again. It was exhausting. I also struggled with low self-esteem and depression, and I think I used gender as a way to escape from just hating my body and myself.
I was influenced a lot by online spaces, and I had to tell myself to get off Twitter because the trans community there seemed toxic. I realized I needed to focus on things outside of gender. What helped me tremendously was watching wildlife documentaries. It sound silly, but it showed me there was a huge, beautiful world outside of my own body and my obsessive thoughts about gender. I also turned to prayer, which gave me a lot of peace. I came to believe that God made me unique, and I don't need to look like anyone else to be good-looking or valuable.
I eventually realized that I don't need to transition to wear the clothes I want or to be called pretty. I can be a pretty man. I can be desirable as a man. The idea of gender itself started to seem ridiculous to me. Why can't we just be people? I am male, and I will always be male biologically, and that's okay. I can express myself however I want without changing my body with hormones or surgery. The risks I heard about from others—like not being able to control bowels or walk comfortably after surgery—really scared me off from pursuing any permanent changes.
I never went through with taking hormones or having any surgery. My "transition" was mostly social and mental, and my "detransition" was really just a change in my thinking. I don't regret exploring my gender because it led me to a place of self-acceptance, but I am very glad I didn't make any permanent changes to my body. My regret would have been huge if I had. Now, I'm focusing on my hobbies, trying to accept my body through healthy habits, and living my life without being consumed by gender.
Here is a timeline of my journey based on my recollections:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| Teenage Years (approx. 13-17) | Struggled with being overweight, body hatred, and began glamorizing female characters on TV. Puberty was tough. |
| 18 | Started identifying as non-binary online. Researched microdosing estrogen and became influenced by online non-binary communities. |
| 19 | Realized a lot of my dysphoria was linked to OCD and body dysmorphia. Began to understand I was creating dysphoria by learning about transition options. |
| 19 | Decided against taking hormones. Focused on therapy (non-affirming), prayer, and hobbies like watching wildlife documentaries to gain perspective. |
| 20 | Came to accept myself as a male who can express himself freely. Stopped identifying as non-binary and left online gender communities. |
Top Comments by /u/izysolo:
I hate how gender is prevalent in everything.
Guys are supposed to be stoic and girls must be uwu. In TV, which I believe is a cause of my dysphoria, portrays women as this sleek, slim person but I learned today that these actors are underweight! Fucking underweight. In other words, unhealthy I never wanted to be like a guy in TV, muscular and all. I wanted to be slim, cuz I was overweight for most of my life. I always grass-is-always-greenered the other gender, they looked so flawless, so "chic"... But then I realized that I shouldn't transition... to be able to wear fucking clothes! That's stupid! I can wear whatever clothes I want! Also, I felt envious of girl's friendships, but then I enjoyed a lot when I spend time with my male friends!
Anyways, sorry for the rant rampage. Have a good day and may God bless you! :D
A name is a name. Your name. You own it. So, don't feel embarrassed, and change it to your original one, if you really do wish to do so. And by the tone of your post, you do.
I wish you the best of luck, no mater what you do.
Have a good day and may God bless you! :D
Yay you!
There is no wrong way to be you. You may be masculine, feminine, or as all of us here, a lovely mixture of both. Find your hobbies and passions, and live life. Watch wildlife documentaries to marvel nature. Just get outta this sub now, and this gender bullshit, and live your authentic life!
Have a good day and may God bless you! :D
Keep going strong man. See a therapist well versed with LGBTQ+ people, but not an open preacher of transition.
If you don't match with one therapist, go to another. Most people don't find the perfect therapist till the third or fourth change.
Also, please deactivate your Twitter account. The Trans community in Twitter is trash, (or so I've heard).
Think about what you wanna be called. A husband, or wife? A father, or mother? Brother, or sister?
Have a good day and may God bless you son! :D
"I go through cycles where I feel certain that I am something, like I found my true identity and now I can move forward with my life etc., but after a few weeks I start questioning it and stressing, then eventually freaking out and finding another "true identity" which calms me down until it happens again."
This SCREAMS OCD. I too have it. This is common. Go to your therapist, not an affirming one, and tell them what you typed. They'll say if this is OCD or not. For now, stop taking hormones. Meditate daily. Anyways, one thing which helped me immensely was to watch wildlife documentaries, which showed me a wonderful world beyond my gender and body. Also, dysphoria and my OCD had stripped me off my artwork and hobbies. Follow your passions and hobbies outside gender too!
Have a good day and may God bless you! :D
Look, don't stress yourself about what you MIGHT wanna do in the future, like reconstructive surgery. Instead, focus on what ya wanna do NOW. Like going to a therapist.
Go to a therapist who's in the middle ground, who supports NB folk but at the same time isn't a preacher about transitioning and all. You may find them on Psychology Today, and they have commonly written "Experience with LGBTQ+ community". Your problem seems to be with your various mental disorders, but also anorexia. PLEASE fix your anorexia first. That can kill you. Drinking while you've anorexia, is even more dangerous. And I'm a cis straight man, and I'd definitely date ya. Just go to r/askmen, and they'll all agree. Watching wildlife documentaries helped me see a world without Praying to God helped me too. Also, let's DM! I'm struggling too, and I strongly feel it's because of me being overweight and overall hating my body.
Have a good day and may God bless you! :D
Once you're an adult, you can get a top surgery. Once you start earning yourself, or get in a job with good insurance, you CAN do the things you've wanted to.
But, as a teen, carry on. Who knows? Maybe your body dysmorphia will go away. It seems like you hate having hips and boobs, rather than wanting to be a male. So, for now, radical self-acceptance is the key. And then, when you're a little older and wiser, you'll know what to do. What helped me tremendously was to watch wildlife documentaries. It helped me show that there was a beautiful and significantly marvelous world outside my body. For now, please don't waste your life hating your body. Puberty is tough, no doubt.
Have a good day and may God bless you! :D
You see, you're right. It' probably my OCD acting up. It's always been there, but it was always religious OCD (Google it), and now, it's gender OCD. fuck my life.
Anyways, yes, at the most, I'll post maybe once a week with clear, coherent conscience. This community is really supportive, so... thanks! Remember, you take a break too!
Have a good day and may God bless you! :D
Yup. You're right.
By the way, have you noticed the amount of posts of people thinking of or are detransitioning after 5-10 years of HRT? Why is that? I ask this because I'm gonna microdose E, and while I don't wanna take it forever, I'll see if it alleviated my dysphoria.
Have a good day and may God bless you! :D
Also, putting them on a pedestal and glamorizing women hasn't certainly helped my dysphoria.
Before transitioning, did you also glorify or glamourize about the other sex? When did that go away during transitioning? When was that moment when you realized that this was a mistake? Was it a sudden revelation or was it gradual?
Have a good day and may god bless you! :D