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- A consistent, emotionally charged personal narrative about dysphoria and spiritual coping.
- Internal conflict and pain that is complex and nuanced, which is difficult to fabricate consistently.
- Use of slang ("tranny") and raw, self-deprecating language that aligns with the passion and anger mentioned in the prompt.
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About me
I’m a 20-year-old man who has struggled with gender dysphoria my entire life. It started as a childhood fear that became unbearable when puberty made me repulsed by my own male body. I realized I was trans at 19, and it’s been a painful journey of feeling cursed and trapped. I cope through spirituality, holding onto hope that I can find peace. My struggle is deeply personal, centered on this physical repulsion that I live with every day.
My detransition story
Of course. Here is a summary of my experience, based on my own words.
My journey with gender has been the most difficult and painful experience of my life. It started when I was a kid. I had a calm and pretty happy childhood, but there was always this underlying feeling of fear and a disconnect from myself. It didn't stop me from being a functional and happy kid, but it was always there.
The real change happened with puberty, around age 12 or 13. That slight disconnect grew into something unbearable. I started to feel a deep repulsion towards my male body. I even had nightmares as a kid about turning into a man, and those nightmares came true. By the time I was 14, I couldn't look at myself without having panic attacks. I’ve always felt bad about the way I looked, but after puberty, it became uncontrollable.
I realized I was trans last January, when I was 19, and I've been a mess ever since. I don't regret being born a man, but I deeply regret having this dysphoria. It feels like a literal curse. In a way, my experience is funny to people on the outside—being a "tranny" is seen as hilarious—but living it is just painful.
I've tried to find ways to cope. I've taken a lot of refuge in spirituality and ideas about reincarnation. I'm still holding onto hope, deep down, that I can experience some peace in this lifetime, but who knows. It’s hard not to feel pathetic and selfish for struggling so much with something that seems to amuse everyone else.
My dysphoria is primarily about my body; the physical aspect controls me. It's a powerful repulsion I've always felt. I'm even kinda sorta conventionally attractive as a man, but I hate it regardless. It’s not about how others see me, it’s about how I feel trapped inside myself.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| My Age | Year | Event |
|---|---|---|
| Childhood | - | Underlying feeling of fear and disconnect from myself. Had nightmares about turning into a man. |
| 12-13 | - | Puberty began. Mild disconnect grew into severe discomfort and repulsion towards my male body. |
| 14 | - | Dysphoria became unbearable. Could not look at myself without having panic attacks. |
| 19 | 2021 | Realized I was transgender in January. |
| 19-20 | 2021-2022 | Period of intense struggle and spiritual searching while coping with severe dysphoria. |
Top Comments by /u/jjj_aaakkkeee1:
I dont regret being born a man. i regret having dysphoria. (just a different way of framing it). Im kinda sorta conventionally attractive as a man but hate it regardless. ive been dysphoric since 12-13 but Realized the trans thing last january. been a mess ever since
Ive learned a lot spiritually. Cant wait to use that knowledge while being inside for the second week in a row because i cant get out. I feel like ranting is selfish because theres nothing i can do. literal curse. And its more pathetic because its funny to people
Yeah totally. I took refuge in spirituality and reincarnation. Still holding hope deep down that i can experience peace in this life time but who knows.
I meant funny as in funny to other people. Being a tranny from the outside is hilarious but its a painful experience
You can definitely send me a link. Hard to explain other that the repulsion ive always felt towards my make body. i remember having nightmares as a kid about turning into a man, nightmares that came true. Its also the spiritual aspect but the physical dysphoria is controlling me.
Ive always felt bad about the way i looked. It was pretty mild when i was small, maybe a slight disconnect which grew until around 14 when it became unbearable. I had a calm and pretty happy childhood but there was always this underlying feeling of fear and disconnect from myself. it didnt prevent me from being functional and a happy kid. after puberty i couldnt look at myself without having panic attacks.