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- Personal, nuanced, and emotionally charged narratives about their specific medical history, detransition reasons, and evolving philosophy.
- Consistent internal logic across multiple posts, developing a coherent political and personal argument against transition as a solution to misogyny.
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This is a passionate individual sharing a deeply personal and ideological perspective on their detransition.
About me
I felt deep discomfort with being female from a very young age and pursued testosterone at 19 to escape that feeling. I realized my desire to transition was rooted in a deep frustration with misogyny and the limitations placed on women. I stopped because I saw my struggle as part of a shared female experience of oppression, not an individual problem to medically solve. I don't regret my journey, but I see it as a band-aid rather than a cure. Now at 22, I'm learning to find power and self-love in my female body and connection to other women.
My detransition story
My whole journey with transition and detransition was really about me trying to understand myself and my place in the world as a female person. I started feeling intense discomfort with my body and the way I was treated by society from a very young age. I remember yelling at my family to call me a boy name when I was just two years old. When I was six, I cut my own hair short. By the time I was eight, I knew I wanted top surgery, and by eleven, I was sure I wanted to take testosterone.
I wasn't able to actually start any medical transition until I was 19. I took testosterone for about six months. Physically, it was actually really good for me at first. I found out I was naturally testosterone deficient and had very high estrogen, so the T balanced my hormones. My mood became so much more stable, I had way more energy, and my endometriosis pain lessened. My periods stopped completely with no drawbacks. In a lot of ways, I felt better than I ever had.
But my reasons for wanting to transition went much deeper than just physical discomfort. I hated the way women are scrutinized for everything. I wanted to be able to be feminine without it meaning I was "following the correct order" for my gender. I wanted to be able to not shave my legs without it being a political statement. I wanted to be shirtless at the beach and not be sexualized. Most of all, I wanted to be respected and seen as a full human being the way men are when they walk into a room. I felt that as a woman, everything I did was picked apart under a microscope.
A huge part of my desire to transition was also related to my attraction to men. I felt that relationships with men could never feel equal if I was a woman. Becoming a man, especially a feminine man, felt like a way to escape that power imbalance and just be myself.
I stopped taking testosterone and detransitioned after those six months. It wasn't because I regretted the physical changes—I didn't. I actually miss the stability and energy it gave me. I stopped because of a bigger realization I had. I started to look at the women in my life, my mother, my aunts, and my female ancestors. I realized that these feelings of hating my breasts, of not wanting to be sexualized, of wanting basic freedoms, were probably a huge part of the female experience throughout history. This thing we now call gender dysphoria is, I believe, a component of the systemic trauma that comes with being born into the female class, an oppressed class.
It felt like a cop-out to try and opt out of misogyny on a personal level. Sure, if I got top surgery and took T long-term, I could probably escape most misogyny. I could go shirtless. But that wouldn't help all the other women who feel the same pain and are still stuck. It felt unfair to them. I wanted to fight for all women to be free from misogyny, not just me. I realized I was trying to separate my "male self" from the trauma of being born a woman, but that trauma is a part of our shared history and connection.
I don't regret my transition. I'm glad I did it because it helped me understand myself better and it resolved some of my health issues. But I see it now as a band-aid, not a cure. For me, being trans felt like a refusal to grow up and accept the unchangeable fact that I am female. I'm almost 22 now, and I've come to a place of self-love that I couldn't have imagined at 19. I'm learning to see the richness and real inner power that comes with this body and to connect with women as a social class.
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 2 | Told family to call me a boy's name. |
| 6 | Cut my own hair short. |
| 8 | Knew I wanted top surgery. |
| 11 | Knew I wanted to take testosterone. |
| 19 | Started taking testosterone. |
| 19 | Stopped testosterone after 6 months and detransitioned. |
| 22 (now) | Reflecting on my journey and finding self-acceptance as a female. |
Top Comments by /u/lakespirits:
its not so much regret of the actual transition, but moreso realizing that being trans is a bandaid. that these feelings of gender dysphoria are actually apart of the (systemic!) trauma that comes with being born a member of the female class. women are an oppressed class of people and from birth we are socialized into painful conformity via sexual and psychological and physical and emotonal violence .
i wanted top surgery since i was 8 years old. testosterone since i was 11 years old. i wasn't able to transition until 19, and only ended up on testosterone for 6 months. LOLLLLL
i realized my female ancestors probably went thru these feelings too, my mother and my aunts,
and that it's so unfair to all other women in the world for just me to opt out of misogyny. sure i can go shirtless on the beach if i elect to have a "male chest" but what about all the other women that are still stuck not being able to?
why do i have to become male to have basic freedoms?
it was this kind of inner work and looking outwards at the situation of women as a social class, my own ancestors , women i know personally in my life, etc.
if you feel any doubt just hold off on it. you can always change your mind later. but you cant reverse it and have your natural voice body etc back which you may want when you get older. i know i am coming to terms with loving it now.
if i call a woman "he" out of respect for her choice, it still doesnt make her a man. "his own" in this case as you said will always be women. if a woman wants to see herself and "identify with" men, go ahead, but its not a man infiltrating womens spaces. its a woman who wants to be a man, expecting other women who refuse to see her as a man, to see her as a man.
what is that that makes you feel sick about it? can you elaborate?
if im a man and feminine, im subverting and interesting. if im a woman and feminine, im "following the correct order." if im a man and dont shave my legs, its whatever. im a woman and dont shave? suddenly it's a political statement? my complete INACTION (not shaving) is seen as oh shes a hairy feminist? ive even been called a gorrilla before by (very young) trans rights activists :/
its stuff like that i think is worth thinking about for you, because you seem to be in a similar boat as i was where you want to be a feminine guy, free to express yourself fully without it having some sort of political meaning. because everything women do is picked at and scrutinized under a microscope, but men are just some guys. they walk into a room and are treated as fully human. we arent. :/
for me, it helped to realize that even i transition and live socially as a man, i'm still female and that this is an unchangeable fact. im like three years past my transition now, and ive grown a lot since then. where i got in my "self love" today wasnt something i was able to feel when i stopped. i was 19 when transitioning and almost 22 now. as i continue to grow up i realize how much being trans is about the refusal to grow up. because it's not really a sustainable way of living your life
i dont expect you to fully resonate with what im saying at all because it would be really hard for me to understand this stuff at 15. i used to be deathly afraid of people who have the view points i do now. so its cool that youre at leasg open to listening, because i wasnt at all
definitely put a pin in the wanting to grow a beard thing, im not going to pry on that. but i want to address the "respected in a way a man does" thing :( i really relate to that sentiment and it really breaks my heart. personally i still am very "gender confused" and think about "re-transitioning" a lot. but, at least with the wanting to have male privilege, i think its kind of a cop out to only opt out of being "treated like a woman" for ourselves.
like, i want to be shirtless, for example. i want to swim shirtless. and i want to be respected the way men are respected. i dont want to be seen as a sex object by people who pass by me on the street.
and is the solution to these feelings to opt out of misogyny on a personal level? not in my opinion. i find it better to fight for all women to be free from misogyny, not just me. if i get top surgery and take t for a long amount of time, then sure i will be free of most instances of misogyny . i can dress how i want, hell i can even be feminine without it being tied to misogynistic trauma of being socialized female if was recognized as a man. but other women arent able to do that. i can go shirtless, but other women who feel the same pain that i do would still be "stuck" in the misogynistic place.
i hope this makes sense
you could have an imbalance. when i was on testosterone my moods were SOOOO much more stable, except for when i was suffering testosterone withdrawls. this is likely because i am naturally testosterone deficient and have very naturally high estrogen. this is an imbalance, because it was too low testosterone and too high estrogen for a female.
not only that, but other symptoms in my physical body totally went away. pain from endometriosis lessened, periods stopped completely right away with no drawbacks from that at all, and had soooo much more energy and enthusiasm. did i say my mood was way better? yeah. honestly i miss that.
i was yelling at my family telling me to call me a boy name at two years old. cut my own hair at 6. loved testosterone <3 still not a "tru trans"
if i was tru trans why would i have naturally grown into a beautiful highly estrogenic goddess body 🤷♀️🩸🩸🌕🌕✨✨✨✨
one of the major factors in my detransition is realizing my female ancestors probably struggled with these feelings too. that this thing now being described and pathologized as gender dysphoria is a huge component of the female experience. it was a lot of looking inside myself and also outwards, at other women in my life, at my own mother, even. relating my experiences to female experiences as a collective, realizing that i can't truly opt out of that, that i was trying to separate my "male self" from my trauma of being born a woman. a huge part of my own transition was wanting to be a feminine guy, to be able to dress feminine without feeling like its something im forced into , that im going to get props for following my correct role if i wear a skirt or something. i didnt want my clothes to have a meaning behind it, to be scrutinized the way women are. you may have heard in other contexts how oppression in itself is traumatizing. i think its the same for being socialized female.
bottom line of what i want to say, is make sure you do things for yourself. if you really do want a beard, a low voice, and you dont think testosterone would harm your body (or at least know the risks, i say this bc for me it actually did help a lot of my health problems bc i was testosterone deficient beforehand) then go for it. but also be prepared that seeing these things might end up not being what you actually are comfortable with, bc ive seen a lot of detrans people say they were so sure they wanted those things and then stopped recognizing themselves when it happened. i dont have any regrets about my own transition. im glad i did it, and i wasnt unhappy when seeing changes. i stopped for reasons more related to what i mentioned. because i want to be connected to women as a social class. the history and the richness and the real inner power that comes with this body. the way the world was stolen from us by men. the way the patriarchy is all wrong and women are the real divine. hahahhaha totally got me on a tangent now sorry
also as someone attracted to men, do you feel like wanting to transition and be in a relationship with men has to do with how as a woman, relationships with men dont feel equal? proposing that question bc its how i felt too and another factor of my transition. dont need to answer me, just something to think about too.