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The user's story is highly specific, emotionally raw, and internally consistent. The detailed, personal descriptions of medical side effects (e.g., vaginal atrophy, heat sensitivity), mental health struggles, and complex family dynamics are not typical of bot-generated content. The account expresses a nuanced and conflicted state of regret and questioning, which aligns with the genuine experiences of many detransitioners and desisters.
About me
I'm a fifteen-year-old female who started saying I was a boy when I was three and began testosterone at twelve. I rushed into medical treatment without understanding the permanent consequences, and now I deeply regret it because of difficult physical changes like balding and not being able to cry. I've had a lot of therapy for depression and anxiety, but I've never been able to tell any of my therapists about my regrets. I feel completely stuck and can't talk to my parents because I'm afraid of disappointing them. Right now, I'm just trying to figure myself out, and I think a lot of my original feelings came from discomfort with puberty and low self-esteem.
My detransition story
My journey with gender has been long and complicated, and I’m still trying to figure it all out. I’m a female, and I started saying I was a boy when I was just three years old. I officially came out as trans when I was twelve, and just six months later, I started taking testosterone. I’m fifteen now, and I’m starting to really regret that decision.
I’ve been in therapy since I was seven years old for depression and anxiety. I’ve never seen a dedicated gender therapist, but all my therapists were educated on transgender issues. I’ve had five different therapists, three case managers, and three psychiatrists over nine years. It’s been hard because as soon as I get comfortable with a therapist, they seem to leave, and it’s really difficult for me to open up to new people. I’ve never told any of them about my regrets. I don’t know if I ever will be able to, and I definitely can’t tell my parents. I feel like I’m too deep into my transition now, and it would severely disappoint them, even if this is just a period of questioning.
The effects of testosterone have been really difficult for me to handle. It’s screwed up my emotions; I can’t even cry anymore. I’m already going bald, which is really upsetting. I’m way hotter all the time, temperature-wise, and that’s a huge problem because I have sensory issues and I’m extremely heat-sensitive. I get horrible anxiety every time I have to do my shot. I’m also already experiencing vaginal atrophy, which causes really bad cramps. I’m hairy everywhere now, and I just hate it.
I struggle with multiple mental illnesses and I’m autistic, which makes it really hard for me to understand my own feelings. I’ve been going through a rough patch lately and I might just be overthinking everything. As of now, I’m not actively planning to detransition. I’m just trying to figure myself out and understand what I’m really dealing with.
Looking back, I think a lot of my feelings were about discomfort with puberty and my body, and I had really low self-esteem. I also think being online and the general culture at the time influenced me. I rushed into medical treatment without fully understanding the permanent consequences. I wish I had taken more time to work through my other mental health issues first.
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 3 | Started identifying as a boy. |
| 7 | Began therapy for depression and anxiety. |
| 12 | Came out as transgender. |
| 12 | Started testosterone. |
| 15 | Began to experience significant regret and physical side effects from testosterone. Started questioning my transition. |
Top Comments by /u/laminated-papertowel:
It's okay. Yeah was seeing a therapist since I was 7, but never a gender therapist. My therapists were educated on transgender issues, but I never saw a gender therapist. I did have to see a gender councilor one time before I saw the endocrinologist (but that was when I was looking at hormone blockers). So, five years before I started T, as of now nine years total though.
I see a therapist and have been for nine years now, mostly for depression and anxiety. I've never had a gender therapist, but I've had five different therapists, three case managers, and three psychiatrists. My current therapist is getting a new job, so I need to get a new one. It seems as soon as I get comfortable with a therapist they leave. It's really hard for me to open up about things, and I've never told anyone about this, my regret. I don't know if I'll ever be able to.
It screwed up my emotions. I can't even cry anymore. I am (very unfortunately) going bald already. I'm way hotter (temperature-wise) all the time, and testosterone makes you warmer. That part is really difficult for me because I have sensory problems and I am extremely heat-sensitive. This probably doesn't count, but I have horrible anxiety when I go to do my shot. I'm already experiencing vaginal atrophy, and it causes really bad cramps. I'm hairy everywhere and I just hate that.
As of now, I am not considering detransitioning, I am just trying to figure myself out and understand what I'm dealing with. I struggle with multiple mental illnesses and autism, so it is really difficult for me to understand my feelings. I have been going through a rough patch lately, and may just be overthinking some things. I don't know. Whatever this turns out to be, I'm not going to tell my parents about it. I'm too deep into my transition it would severely disappoint them, even if this turns out to be just a period of questioning.
I was identifying as a boy since I was three, but came out as trans when I was 12, and started hormones six months later. My stepmom came into my life when I was nine, but we didn't know when was trans until I was 13/14. She didn't mention it at all until long after I came out.
I was the same way in seventh grade when I was twelve. I came out as trans and six months later I got on testosterone. I'm 15 now and unfortunately I'm starting to regret that decision. I'm glad you are able to see more clearly, I hope everything goes good for you. Try to keep your head up, you're a badass and everything will be fine. As for remaining dysphoria, I don't know how to help with that, but try new things, find what helps. If it's social dysphoria maybe you can try self reflection or journaling? That helps me some times.