Egg culture targets GNC people to assimilate into the trans cult. It happened to my husband. He's got a very feminine spirit and style and these transgirls we used to live with spent months convincing him he was trans by making egg jokes at him and saying everything he did was evidence he was trans. No critical thought. Don't forget the "cis" male hate. He finally desisted this month after two years of trans ID. So glad he never got on HRT or anything.... but they were all so quick to pressure him after he "came out". Literally the first question out of these bitches mouths was "HRT when???". Same with his primary care doc. Egg culture is a tool for conversion to the trans cult. It literally makes me sick. I'm so glad I started questioning everything after he went through that when we were living there. It's part of what made me quit T and get off the internet. I told him to be careful what he committed to and I was scared for his health and that I was unsure if the messages from the trans cult were healthy. Thank God he listened.

Talking about getting access to girls spaces being a "dream" is really weird, tbh. I know you're young so I'll be kinder than I would to an adult man, but you should really speak to your therapist about your feelings towards women.

Also, the fact that your friend "cracked your egg" makes me super suspicious that you're not actually trans at all. I think you see that the social paradigm is skewed to favor females and/or transgender people in your age group. That is not necessarily true in the adult world, and trying to give yourself a sense of intrinsic worth by appropriating their experiences will not serve you long term. Nor is it ethical for your "friend" to sway your sense of self and "help" you in that way. That's how I ended up how I did. I let other people lead my self discovery.

Listen to your therapist. It sounds like they actually have a good head on their shoulders about this stuff. You young people are the most affected by the paradigm shift and the most vulnerable to it.

Me and my husband are both bisexuals, I detransed ftmtf, and he desisted. I totally relate to your frustrations about how bisexuals are perceived. And honestly erased by insisting everyone should like both kinds of genitals??? Like, bisexuals like both, that's why we're not straight or gay. By insisting that straight and gay people must like both genitals because being monosexual is a "preference" makes the term bisexual meaningless!!! WTF.

I don't feel safe in the community that's supposed to represent me either. My husband and I both feel this way. It's to the point where we'd literally feel safer in a straight space because the trans shit and bi-erasure by default is so triggering for us. The word pansexual is also triggering for us, lol. It's like the woke way to be bi or something. Like by saying I'm bisexual people get suspicious and need to know if I'm a "good bi" or a "bad bi".... it's exhausting. Hugs to you.

In this state, the last thing to do is transition medically. It's never too late to start, but once you start, you can't go back. I've had a lot of similar feelings in the past. I went on T... and I regret those 2 years. Every second of them. And I 200% thought it was the right thing to do for me. I thought transition would make me happier, but I just became more angry and confused. Thank God I didn't get any surgery.

Please seek therapy to explore your shame around being female. At this point I believe that my gender transition was trauma informed. It was a way to escape the disrespect, danger, and humiliation I associated with being female. It seems like you may have similar feelings. It's a lot to unpack and your brain is going to do it's best to protect you from the pain. Be patient with yourself. It's going to get weirder and more painful before it gets better. Lean on your wife for support. She sounds like a wonderful support person.

I've honestly never heard of or experienced a wrinkly clit after T, so take this with a grain of salt, but I've been using an estrogen cream for my vaginal atrophy and putting a little on my clit has actually really helped with the pain/loss of sensation thing, so maybe it could help you with your wrinkles? Be aware it took me a long time to find a gyno who would prescribe it to my because a lot of doctors were in denial that T caused my atrophy and pain issues. But it really changed a lot down there pretty quickly for the better and I'm on a pretty low dose for now. It could be something that could help you if you have other gyno problems.

But really the best thing you can do is let go of the shame around your genitalia. A lot of women feel ashamed about how their genitals look but everyone unique. Clits come in so many shapes and sizes whether or not they've been affected by T. Your clit is a wonderful body part that can give you so much pleasure, and the right partner won't care. They will just want to give you as much pleasure as they can.

My hugs to you. I'm still working to accept my clit too 💜

I don't think it was because they didn't know about it, it was that they didn't want to admit it, lol. The gyno who dismissed my concerns about atrophy from T was a they/them "transmasc". Literally prescribed me lidocaine and told me to relax LOL. I blamed myself for years thinking it was my fault I couldn't relax and have pain-free sex with my partner and got neurotic about whether or not I was still attracted to him because my vagina wouldn't make lubricant or stretch right. Finally found a gyno who listened to me after two years and was like, "yeah your genitals look fine but what you're describing sounds like atrophy based on the sensations you're having. It's a lot like my patients in menopause describe the loss of vaginal function." and prescribed me the cream.

I was so surprised how much life sprung back into my genitals within the first week of using the cream! I could feel much lighter sensations than before, my vagina felt so much stretchier and fuller, and my cervix felt.. harder and stronger? It was like a whole new vagina. I still have some vulvodynia and vaginismus issues but they're slowly resolving between the cream and pelvic floor PT. I don't know if there's any way to get rid of loose skin though. I do have some of that going on and I suppose it looks a bit wrinkly... My clit "puffed up" a bit after I started the cream so maybe that would help "fill out" the extra tissue?

But I seriously suggest just trying to accept your body for how it functions and what it does for you. Looks are so overrated. I would do anything to have pain-free sex. Maybe talk to a therapist who has experience with body shame stuff. You may find there's nothing to be done but wait and heal your spirit. I still struggle a lot with feeling shame around how my genitals are still healing and I can't have the sex I want to. It was really traumatic to have those issues dismissed. It made me feel so broken and useless and led to more complications in my sexual health. It's hard to relax and have sex when you have all these trauma triggers and negativity surrounding your genitals and sex 😢 It gets easier in some ways and harder in others.

I've never had a boob job so feel free to ignore me, but from what I've researched about boob jobs (I have really tiny boobs and it makes me insecure sometimes... 😢) they are a lot of work and you need to get them replaced every 10 years or so. It's a major surgery that incurs a lot of trauma on the body and it doesn't last forever. Maybe you could try some silicone prosthetics. I got a cheap pair on Amazon and they look pretty realistic under clothing 😊 I would personally avoid all unnecessary surgical procedures if you can. If it's not causing you extreme distress I would try and tuff it out. Though I'm of the personal belief that the cosmetic surgery industry is predatory AF.

I never had tits to begin with but after I got off of T at 22 (24 now) I went from basically completely flat chested to a 34 D. I literally wasn't even an A cup before I got off the T. And they still keep slowly growing. There's definitely hope for you. Bodies change so much throughout life.

yet somehow it's become framed as something "inclusive, respectful, equal, etc"... sure. That's why thousands of gays, lesbians, and bisexuals feel evicted from their own community and replaced with heterosexuals playing gay for fun pretending to be trans

I never said I despised you. Talking about extracting the hormones from females is creepy. As a woman it makes me feel dehumanized. Kind of like you despise women for not giving you what you want. "Follow the logic of love or perish" doesn't seem very loving, either.