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About me
My transition started because I felt unsafe as an unattractive girl and thought becoming male would protect me from bullying and abuse. I now see I was trying to escape myself, influenced heavily by the constant pressure of online content. Taking testosterone caused lasting damage to my voice, which I'm still working to heal. After stopping, switching to an estrogen-based pill cleared my skin and, most importantly, made my mind feel clear and right again. While I regret the pain and lost friendships, the journey forced me to understand myself better, and I'm finally learning to just be me.
My detransition story
My whole journey with transition started from a place of just wanting to be safe. I was bullied a lot in school and there was abuse at home. I felt like the world was hurting me because my body was wrong—I was an "ugly" girl, and the idea of being a lesbian felt even more dangerous. To survive, I felt I had to become the opposite. I sacrificed my own dreams and who I really was because my safety depended on other people approving of me. I thought if I changed my body, the stress from everyone else's rejection would go away, and that would make me happy.
Looking back, I think a lot of this was tied to low self-esteem, anxiety, and depression. I see now that I was trying to escape from being me. I was influenced a lot by what I saw online, too. The algorithms on apps like TikTok and YouTube felt like a toxic, manipulative person, constantly bringing up trans topics and haunting me with doubts until I engaged with them. It took me months of actively avoiding that content to get it to stop showing up. I had to learn that having zero tolerance for what the apps were pushing wasn't being intolerant of people; it was about protecting myself from a kind of psychological warfare.
I took testosterone for a while. It did change me. It lowered my voice and I lost some of my vocal range. I also experienced some physical trauma to my neck and throat, which tore something in my vocal cords. For a few months, I could barely make a sound. I’ve been working to get my voice back by singing in my car, which has helped a lot with my range, even if my natural talking pitch isn't fully back because of the scar tissue.
After I stopped testosterone, I was off it for over a year before I tried a different hormonal approach. I switched to a birth control pill that has estrogen and progesterone, which I take for three months at a time. It’s been really good for me. It cleared up acne that T caused, softened my face, and helped my hair grow back thicker where it had thinned. More importantly, it made me feel like myself again. After testosterone, I felt dim and emotionless, and the estrogen felt like putting the right oil in my brain’s gears. Things started moving smoothly and felt right.
I don’t really know what I think about gender now. The whole experience has made me question everything. I have regrets about transitioning because I think I was just trying to solve a problem that wasn’t really about my body. I could have just been a happy lesbian. I lost friends because I destroyed the persona I had built, and it broke their trust in who I was. But I also don't regret the journey entirely because it led me to where I am now, and I understand myself a lot better.
Here is a timeline of the main events:
| My Age | Event |
|---|---|
| Teenage Years | Experienced bullying and abuse; felt intense discomfort with puberty and social expectations. |
| Early 20s | Started identifying as transgender and began taking testosterone. |
| Mid 20s | Experienced physical trauma to throat, damaging vocal cords. Stopped testosterone after being on it for some time. |
| 26 (approx.) | Started a combined estrogen/progesterone birth control pill. Felt significant mental and physical improvements. |
| 27 (approx.) | Actively working on voice recovery through singing and breathing techniques. |
Top Comments by /u/lemonlavalemon:
This is exactly how I feel, most days. I could have just been a happy “ugly” lesbian.
Bullying in school and abuse at home, well I made it make sense. I’m in danger constantly if I’m an ugly girl, if I’m a lesbian, even worse if I’m an ugly lesbian. So I’ll become the opposite to keep me safe, in times of chronic or mortal stress my ego and all that I want or dream of doesn’t matter- what matters is that I’m alive and safe. I forfeited my dreams and my aspirations and my interests and my self and all that I wanted- my safety depended on others approval of me, and that more important than my desires.
I can be alive and safe if I can make the world stop hurting me. The world is hurting me because my body is wrong (ugly, homosexual, poor & all that that visibly entails for a kid in the 2000s). I will change my body, this will make me happy because it will alleviate the stress I feel because of others rejection of my body.
I can’t say what path is right for you. I lost all my friends because I destroyed the stability they expected of the persona of built myself in to. I broke the bond of trust in who/what I am.
This is true. Wars aren’t fought only in the battlefield anymore. No civilians are safe from unlimited warefare- u limited warfare is a pentagon term that in layman’s words means war that doesn’t use guns and tanks and bombs., war that doesn’t look like combat.
I was in the army, I was in a pentagon study on this aspect of war and social media. What happened to me, no one else signed up to get that experience or to know the things I know now. But I can tell you this much: what was said here is true, war is no longer on the battle field only.
No one is protecting civilians from unconventional warfare, but someone is protecting our nation from the fallout it creates by using it to support our economy(by profiting off the damages done to civilians by unconventional warfare). Instead of protecting civilians from being hurt by unlimited warfare, civilian casualties are having self perpetuating markets created around them that generate money.
I wish I could say this clearer.
I spent 2 years singing for my self by my self in my car. Never tried voice training. This worked amazing for me, it made my voice stronger and gave me more range.
I lost vocal range from testosterone and also from physical and repeated neck/threat trauma (crushed throat, tore a hole in my voice meat and couldn’t produce any sound besides the sound of my breathing for a few months)
This isn’t a brag(if ur around people who brag like that god bless you)- I’m saying it cuz I think it speaks volumes for what singing and hollering in my car has done to give me most of my old vocal range back (and then some)
I still don’t have my old natural talking pitch back but that’s cuz where I tore my voice meat. I can feel that it’s ripped or scarred or whatever when I try to talk in that range. But I can comfortably and naturally talk just above and just below it now!
I didn’t rly follow any singing lessons, just did it til I liked how I sounded.
O and another thing I learned but haven’t done long enough to see results: it’s a yogic breathing technique. Breathe in your nose a full deep breath, and out your gaping mouth as if you were roaring with no sound. It looks/feels silly but i think it’s kind of like a voice endurance thing to put the goal results into more modern western terms.
If there is a sliver of doubt about trans as anything valid what so ever, the app will try to convert you using operant conditioning. That’s a fancy insane worded way of saying it but see it like this: imagine the algorithm is a toxic, manipulative, narcissistic person who sniffs out your worries and makes sure they never rest by using both blatant direct confrontation and indirectly bringing it up, “beating around the bush” or gossiping about it always finding ways to mention it and then disregard it after they’ve said it. “Well I didn’t talk about it I just acknowledged it then changed the subject” basically constantly haunting you with shit you don’t want to think about, until you ENGAGE with it (either cuz you want it to stop or cuz you gave in, doesn’t matter why you engage in it all that matters is you engaged at all)
It took me months for my social media (mostly tiktok and youtube) to stop showing me anything related to trans at all what so ever even when I do all the in-app functions to request it stop.
I think the best way to make your app algorithms stop is to close the app and don’t open it again for a lil while, have ZERO TOLERANCE for what the app shows you that you don’t want to see. Doing this, I learned that what I USED to think was “tolerance” was actually submission and obedience and coerced compliance. Having tolerance for trans people is DOES NOT mean you have to watch trans stuff on social media.
Tldr if you have any behavioral vulnerabilities to narcissistic abuse, social media WILL exploit it. Our shared flavor of that just happens to be transgender, for others it is racism, or misogyny, or misandry, or constitutional rights, or good ol fashion religion.
I’m not a doctor I don’t know if this is okay or not , but I switched from an IUD (localized hormonal non estrogen BC) to a GENERAL hormonal pill with estrogen BC that lasts for 3 months, and at the end of the 3 months you have 1 week for your period.
Like regular pill BC but it’s for 3 months instead of 1 month cycles.
It’s got a small amount of estrogen as well as I think progesterone in it.
I had been off of T for some months maybe over a year when I started taking this pill BC.
I can’t say anything about lowering T levels but it has (obviously) given me estrogen lol. It’s cleared my forehead acne(as far as I’ll allow it cuz I touch it too much lol) and softened my face and made my hair grow thicker where It had thinned because of T(not fully, but a huge improvement).
I was scared that it would make me “crazy” but it has actually given me back my light, I felt dim and dull and emotionless before. I still am, unrelated to hormones, but it feels like I finally got the right oil in my gears in my brain. Moves a lil smoother now, feels right again.