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About me
I always felt like a boy since I was five and started testosterone at 17 because I was deeply uncomfortable with my female body. I realized at 19 that I was holding on with a fake smile and that I didn't need to be a man to be happy. Now I've stopped hormones and am focused on re-feminizing my body through diet, exercise, and planning for hair removal. This detransition is a slow, new journey that requires just as much patience as my transition did. I don't regret my past, but I've found my happiness in accepting myself as female.
My detransition story
My whole journey with gender has been long and complicated. I felt like a boy from the time I was five years old, and it was documented in my files, but nobody ever said the word "transgender" to me. I didn't even know what being trans was. I just knew I was deeply uncomfortable with my feminine body when puberty started. I began binding my chest because I hated my breasts; I just wanted to be flat.
I started socially transitioning at 17 in 2018, a year before I even heard about people like Jazz Jennings. For me, it wasn't about influence from online celebrities; it was a feeling I'd had my whole life. I got on testosterone and it gave me a more muscular body and a deeper voice, which I liked at the time. But my feelings started to change. I think a lot of it was that I just wasn't happy before and was holding on with a fake smile. Maybe that comes with age, because at 19 my mindset was the complete opposite.
I started my detransition in January of this year. I realized I had found happiness within myself and that I didn't need to be a man to be happy. Now I'm focused on re-feminizing my body, which feels like a whole new journey, just like when I first transitioned. It takes time. I've learned it can take a year, sometimes two, to fully detransition, depending on your body.
To lose the muscle mass from testosterone, I'm jogging 3-5 times a week and I'm very careful with my diet, eating only half a gram of protein based on my bodyweight and staying in a calorie deficit. It's slow progress, but I've lost about ten pounds of muscle so far. I'm looking into laser hair removal or electrolysis for the permanent hair growth, and I've been researching everything from vitamins to foods with phytoestrogens that might help, like flaxseed, soy, and certain supplements like boron and zinc. I haven't tried them all yet, but I'm gathering information. I'm even watching videos made by trans women on how to become more feminine, because our paths are similar in a way.
I haven't had any surgeries. I'm looking into consultations for hair removal, but that's it. I'm also going to see a doctor soon for testing to check my estrogen and testosterone levels to make sure everything is going back to normal.
Looking back, I don't think people should medically or surgically transition until they are at least 18. I believe trans care is incredibly important, but so is detransition care. I've had to explain to other detrans people that being hateful towards trans people doesn't solve anything. Just because my path changed doesn't mean their path is wrong. I'm proud to be detransitioning, but I don't think that makes me any better than someone who is trans and happy. We all just want to find ourselves and be comfortable in our own skin.
I don't have major regrets about my transition. It was a part of my journey that led me to where I am now, and I've learned a lot about myself through the entire process.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Year | Event |
|---|---|---|
| 5 | First remembered feeling like a boy. | |
| 17 | 2018 | Started socially transitioning to male. |
| Started testosterone hormone therapy. | ||
| 19 | Mindset began to change, was holding on with a "fake smile." | |
| 21 | 2025 (Jan) | Stopped testosterone and began detransitioning. |
| 21 | 2025 (Apr) | Scheduled consultation for hair removal treatment. |
Top Comments by /u/mariamad89:
Thank you! And yes losing muscle mass while toning up as well. I have a good ways to go lol 😆. But will update in a few months. And I found happiness within myself honestly and just wasn’t happy before and holding on to it with a fake smile. Maybe that comes with age, cause at 19 it was the complete opposite.
It's a chance just like any other effects from medication. But not a 100% guarantee. So it's not necessarily "misinformation " just a bit slim to like 2% chance. And some doctors will exaggerate, but they do have to tell you this information cause it's one of the effects and legal reasons of course.
A little different from the hrt situation , but when I was on the ftm group on Facebook. There was this guy who wanted and literally planned to do DIY top surgery on themselves 🤧🥺😬. And they already had history of self harm to top it off. Of course we all agreed NOT TO DO THAT! And can’t remember what it’s called, but there is a name for ppl like that, and it’s so so sad 😞.
I feel bad for her and believe no one should medically or surgically transition till 18 minimum. Can identify and wear whatever(appropriate clothing) as you please other wise. But also what about the ppl that never knew about Jazz or heard of her after they transitioned. Like for me I felt like a boy since I was 5 years old even documented but no question of Transgender in my files. I didn’t even know Trans was a thing until I read about Indian culture and that was after I started binding because I was uncomfortable with my feminine body. So I was binding,etc… before I even knew what Trans was. And then a year later after transitioning I heard about Jazz. Started at 17 in 2018 Socially. So no I would not like to be called Jazz Jennings Generation as that isn’t my case and is subjective and putting us all in one box.
You’re so pretty! And I haven’t had yet but I have a consultation for it in April and they said it’s about $85-$150/m(with discount) and treatment is about 6-10 times usually depending on different factors. So roughly between ($1500-3000(no discount)) for me
I honestly think it depends on if we are “passing” as our perceived/biological gender to others. Like if ur a Detransitioning Woman and present urself as a Woman but still look very masculine from Testosterone, ur highly likely to be perceived and treated as a “Trans Woman”. As if a Detransitioning man has feminine features, but present as a man I feel ur most likely to be perceived as gay/bi or androgynous. But also Estrogen doesn’t really have any permanent effects like testosterone does.
I was just explaining this to someone a few weeks ago cause they were being a bit Transphobic even though they were detransitioning and they didn’t understand the importance of Trans care being just as important for Detransitioning. So how you feel is definitely valid.
Hi! After doing some research it seems it can take a year and sometimes 2 years for us to fully detransition. Some ppl 6 months if they’ve been on it for a shorter period of time or just on how there body reacts. Take it one day at a time and continue to get any support you can even if it’s just on here as well. It’s a completely new journey just like when you transitioned and it took time.
FOODS WITH PHYTOESTROGENS/HELPS WITH FEMINIZATION:
. Flaxseed,Chia seeds . Soy Milk . Soy products (Tofu) . Bone Broth .Chickpeas or Hummus . Nuts . Peaches . Garlic
VITAMINS/SUPPLEMENTS: . Vitamin C( Helps repair skin, anti aging, boost Collagen, helps absorb more iron, glowing skin, and softer skin.) . Zinc- Fertility, Osteoporosis, Skin health, maintain biological hormone levels,etc..) . Boron- Bone and brain health, balances hormones and can also increase Estrogen, increases metabolism. . Collagen Peptide . Vitamin D . Potassium
*Haven’t tried myself yet, but Tumeric( can make a mask), helps kill hair follicles over time and can’t be a natural hair removal.
Did u by chance have pcos or something close? And 😆 I wish I could see what you all are seeing . Thank you! And I’m going to see if I can see a doctor for testing,etc… after a month. You think they would qualify me for estrogen if I didn’t have my ovaries removed? And ohh 😮 wow I didn’t know that about the possibility of bone disorders. Thank you for the advice!