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The user's language is natural and nuanced, expressing personal, emotionally charged experiences with regret ("what if I didn’t have my balls chopped off") and specific, practical advice about weight cycling. The comments reflect a consistent, passionate perspective from a detransitioned male, including concerns about subreddit bans, which aligns with the stated community context. The mention of "AGP" is a controversial but real viewpoint held by some detransitioners.
About me
I started transitioning because I felt deeply uncomfortable as a male and thought becoming a woman would fix my life. I took hormones and had surgery, but it only created new, permanent problems and left me feeling worse. I realized my dysphoria was rooted in other issues like low self-esteem, not my body. I am now detransitioning and regret the irreversible changes I made. My journey taught me that changing your body isn't the answer to internal pain.
My detransition story
My transition started because I was deeply uncomfortable with my body and believed that becoming a woman would solve my problems. I now see that a lot of my feelings were tied to autogynephilia (AGP), which felt like a sexual orientation more than just a fetish. It created a powerful sense of gender dysphoria that pushed me to transition.
I took hormones for four years and eventually had an orchiectomy, which is the surgical removal of the testicles. At the time, I thought it was the right choice. I was convinced that this was my only path to being happy and authentic.
The reality was very different. After my surgery, I struggled immensely. I became extremely sensitive to criticism and had no energy. I felt like I was in a constant fog. I started to realize that my transition hadn't fixed the underlying issues; it had just created new, more permanent problems. I began to deeply regret the surgery because it made me infertile and altered my body in a way I can never reverse.
My thoughts on gender have changed completely. I don't believe that changing your body is the answer to internal discomfort. For me, it was a form of escapism from other problems I wasn't dealing with, including low self-esteem and depression. I benefited greatly from non-affirming therapy that helped me address these root causes instead of just affirming my desire to transition.
I am now detransitioning. I don't regret trying because I needed to learn the hard way, but I deeply regret the permanent changes I made to my body. I often think about what my life would be like if I had never had surgery. My advice to others is to heavily consider the negative, permanent outcomes and to explore all other options first.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 24 | Started taking estrogen hormones. |
| 28 | Had orchiectomy surgery (removal of testicles). |
| 32 | Stopped taking hormones and began to detransition. |
Top Comments by /u/nansnssvqgakdbdh:
Yeah. People always say they would spend their life wondering what if. I experienced it and now I’m thinking what if I didn’t have my balls chopped off and spend 4 years being extremely sensitive to criticism and having no energy.
But at least I tried I guess. Sucks either way. Good luck.
Hey. I’ve since detransitioned so I’m maybe biased towards that side. I think your list of pros and cons is pretty rational and sensible but from the outside it seems the cons outweigh the pros. I would heavily consider those negative outcomes and how they might affect the rest of your life.
That said, for the last two points, something like 75% of MTFs are AGP. It’s often suggested to be more like an orientation than a fetish. It can cause gender dysphoria, obviously. So don’t worry about being valid or invalid, just pick the best path for you.
Loaded question ever since GC was banned and this sub is teetering on the edge of controversiality.
Personally as a detrans male I think they’re entitled to their views and I often find myself agreeing, but this kind of question may not be productive here.
I know it’s almost impossible to seperate detrans issues from trans ideology and discourse, but we should try to, to some degree, to avoid being banned.
Yeah hey. The best you can do is time + testosterone + exercise. Then possibly surgery if it doesn’t satisfactorily change. I guess it would help if you lost and then gained weight too. Maybe lose some fat then put more on as muscle and more male looking fat.
Good luck.
Oh don’t try to lose it if you’re underweight! Maybe put on a bit of muscle and fat THEN lose it then gain it, etc. I think the process of actively gaining and losing helps you shift the weight from feminine to masculine patterns more quickly than just waiting. Definitely be careful though, don’t try to lose it all outright if you’re already skinny.