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About me
I was born female, and my discomfort started in puberty when I hated the changes to my body. I transitioned to male because presenting masculinely made me feel safer and invisible in a world where being a woman felt like being under a spotlight. After a year and a half on testosterone, I realized I wasn't becoming my true self, but was just running from the anxiety of being female. I stopped hormones and, with voice training, gradually returned to living as a woman. I'm now at a point of radical self-acceptance, understanding my journey was necessary to become a woman who can finally accept herself.
My detransition story
My whole journey with transition and detransition was a long and complicated one, and it took me a long time to understand my own reasons for doing it. I was born female, and my discomfort really started in puberty. I hated the changes, especially the development of my breasts. I felt like everyone was looking at me, and it made me incredibly anxious. I just wanted to blend in and not be seen.
I started identifying as non-binary first, and then later as a transgender man. A big part of it was that when I dressed and presented in a masculine way, life felt easier. I didn't worry about what anyone thought about how I looked because I just blended in. No one was looking at me. Whereas when I'm dressed femme, I feel like there's a constant spotlight on me, and I feel people's eyes, especially men's, judging me. It made me realize how much more comfortable and safe masculinity felt in our society.
I was influenced a lot by what I saw online and eventually decided to start testosterone. I was on T for about a year and a half. It did make me feel more confident for a while, like I was finally taking control. But over time, I started to realize that my reasons for transitioning were more about escaping the discomfort of being a woman in the world than about having a male identity. I was running from the anxiety and the pressure, not toward a true self.
I never got any surgeries, but I thought about top surgery a lot. I'm grateful now that I didn't go through with it. Coming off testosterone was hard. I was worried about my voice and my body shape permanently being masculine. But I learned that your body is more resilient than you think. Once you stop T, your body fat redistributes to a more feminine shape and your muscles soften relatively quickly. It happens faster than the changes on T because estrogen is your natural hormone.
The voice was a big worry for me, but voice training helped so much. It might sound very masculine when you begin, but if you keep at it, you make amazing progress. Eventually, using a higher-pitched, more feminine voice becomes your new normal and you don't even have to think about it. I also switched back from masculine to feminine presentation gradually. I didn't make a big announcement; I just slowly started dressing and presenting in a way that felt more comfortable to me over time.
I don't think I really understood my gender until I went through all of this. Now, I see myself as a woman who had a very hard time accepting the difficulties that come with being female. I had a lot of internalized issues to work through. I don't regret my transition entirely because it was a necessary journey for me to learn who I am. It led me to a place where I can now radically accept myself. I've learned to accept the parts of my body I don't like, like my Adam's apple, and understand that they don't make me less of a woman. It's just a thing. Connecting with others in this community helped me realize I'm not a freak and that what matters is living in a way that makes you happy in the long run.
Age | Year | Event |
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13 | 2012 | Started puberty; began to feel intense discomfort and hatred toward my developing breasts. |
19 | 2018 | Began identifying as non-binary, influenced by online communities. |
20 | 2019 | Started identifying as a transgender man and began taking testosterone. |
21 | 2020 | Stopped testosterone after 1.5 years and began the process of detransition. |
22 | 2021 | Fully living as a woman again; focused on voice training and radical self-acceptance. |
Top Comments by /u/pink-rose-01:
I can relate to a lot of this. I feel your pain but I'm glad you've learned about yourself. It's gonna feel better later, I promise. You just went off of testosterone. Of course you're gonna still be processing a lot of feelings right now. But that's not the way you're gonna feel forever. You will make peace with it.
About the voice--it can pass as female without you having to strain so much after a while. It just takes practicing using that more female voice every day. Eventually it will become your "normal" voice, if you use it all the time, and you won't even have to think about it. It's really amazing.
Also, for me, I switched back from masculine to feminine gradually without actually re-coming out for a while. It felt comfortable and natural that way. Just go with the flow and do what feels comfortable. You own your body and you decide the way to present yourself.
Man the biggest thing I noticed was that when I dressed masc/lived as a guy it was easier! Maybe it's partly my own self consciousness but when I would go outside dressed masc I didn't worry about what anyone thought about how I looked because I just blended in. No one was looking at me. Whereas when I'm dressed femme I feel like everyone's looking at me, not even because of my detransitioning, it's always been like that. There's just a sense that people's eyes are always on you--especially because recently I like to dress in a very feminine way, in heels and skirts and stuff. But even if I'm wearing jeans a t-shirt there's a sense that there's more people looking at you and judging you, especially men. It's crazy. It made me realize how comfortable masculinity is, and how much of a constant spotlight femininity is.
don't worry at all about that! there are cis women who never went on t or anything who have large clitorises. it may be slightly uncommon, but its not super rare. probably the same amount of people who have outie belly buttons or freckles. it's just one of those things that's not really good or bad it just is and it doesn't make you not a woman or anything.
also my girlfriend is a lesbian and she thinks big clits are super hot, and guys do too--so don't worry about a partner thinking its weird. this is gonna sound super crass but my partner describes it as a "juicy p****"--she's attracted to it BECAUSE it looks so deliciously female to her. hopefully that helps? it made me feel better!
I like that phrase--to "radically accept yourself." Accepting yourself no matter WHAT. Connecting to people on here has really helped me realize that I'm not some freak or anything, it's really not that big of a deal, what matters more is to live in a way that makes you happy in the long run. Thank you for your reply.
I guess most people probabably won't discount me based on an Adam's apple, that's pretty silly. It's just a thing. So I shouldn't discount myself based on that either. I will try to be more mindful and positive of the parts of my body I don't like, too. :)
It will get better! I was also on T for a year and a half. Once you stop T you'd be surprised how quickly your body fat will redistribute to a more feminine shape and muscles will soften. It's a long process but it starts relatively quickly. It happens quicker than the redistribution to a masculine shape on T because those are your natural hormones.
And your voice is not necessarily the voice you have to live with forever. Voice training helps sooooooo much. It might sound very masculine when you begin, but if you keep at it you'll be amazed at the progress you can make. Between dressing a little more feminine and modifying the way you talk, you don't have to accept presenting as male for the rest of your life. Just be a little patient with yourself. It'll get a little better every day from here.