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About me
I started testosterone at 13 and had top surgery at 15, but I was far too young to make those permanent decisions. I stopped hormones last month and am now struggling with the lasting changes to my voice and body. My biggest regret is my surgery, and I desperately hope reconstruction is possible one day. While some people have been cruel about my deep voice, I've also found partners who love my scars and see them as a sign of strength. Now, my only focus is on healing and hoping my body can find its natural balance again.
My detransition story
My name isn't important, but my story is. I’m a 17-year-old girl, and I’m detransitioning. I want to share my experience from the beginning to where I am now, in my own words.
I started medically transitioning when I was only 13 years old. I was put on testosterone and was on it for three years. I stopped it just last month. When I was 15, I had top surgery, a double mastectomy with nipple grafts. Looking back, I was just a kid. I think I was way too young to make those permanent decisions. I’m now facing the permanent changes from the testosterone, like my deeper voice and more prominent jaw and cheekbones, and I really hope my face softens up with some fat redistribution soon.
I didn’t have any major, visible health problems from the hormones, but coming off them has been rough on my body. My digestive system has been a mess for months with lots of bloating, stomach aches, and other issues that have really interrupted my daily life and sleep. I’ve also lost a significant amount of weight, going from about 125 pounds to 110-113 in just a few months, which I think is a mix of losing muscle and my appetite being messed up.
For a long time, the feeling of "euphoria" from transitioning kept me going, but that magic faded pretty quickly. My old body image issues came rushing back, and I started struggling with dating as a gay guy, which felt wrong and confusing. It was a really slow realization that I had made a mistake. I finally broke down last May, almost a year after my top surgery, and admitted to myself that medically transitioning was the wrong path for me.
My biggest regret, by far, is my top surgery. I hate that I had it done. I see my flat chest and my scars as a glaring flaw. My nipple grafts are placed very low, and I find myself desperately looking for pictures and stories from other girls like me who have had breast reconstructions, hoping it's possible to fix. I miss having breasts. I’m secretly using the topical estradiol cream I was given for vaginal atrophy on my hips, thighs, and stomach, hoping it will help my fat redistribute into a more feminine pattern. I’ve had some spotting and I’m really, really hoping my body can recover and develop the way it should have. I want my hips to develop so I can have a feminine shape again.
Explaining my detransition to people has been hard. I’m going into my senior year of high school and I’ve been open about it on social media where some people from school follow me, which I hope makes it easier. So far, most people have been understanding, but I’ve also lost friends who couldn't handle that my views on transition changed completely or that the whole experience traumatized me. Some people at school make fun of me behind my back for my strong features and deep voice.
Through all of this, I’ve been trying to learn to accept my body as it is now. I’ve had a few partners who have seen my chest and didn’t have an issue with it at all; they even loved it. They helped me see my scars as a symbol of strength and a unique kind of beauty. I’ve learned that there are decent men out there who will love a woman for who she is, regardless of her chest. I’ve also become really meticulous about grooming my eyebrows because I think they play a big part in making a face look feminine or masculine.
I don’t really know what I think about gender anymore. The whole concept feels messy and complicated to me now. My main focus is on trying to heal, both physically and emotionally, and hoping that my body can find its natural balance again.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 13 | Started taking testosterone. |
| 15 | Had top surgery (double mastectomy). |
| 16 | Broke down and realized transitioning was a mistake (May). |
| 17 | Stopped testosterone. Began socially and medically detransitioning. |
Top Comments by /u/princesschr0nicles:
You’re pretty! I think your jaw is fairly soft looking and your eyelashes are very thick which is seen as a feminine trait, but I feel it would help to clean up up your eyebrows a bit and maybe pluck them from the underside to “raise” them a little? Ever since I detransitioned ive been very meticulously keeping up my eyebrows bc theyre a big part of what makes a face more masculine or feminine IMO
I feel this a lot. I started medically transitioning and detransitioning literally at those same ages. I just turned 17 and I’m ab 2-3 months into detransitioning. It gets better. My PMs r open if you want to privately vent or ask for help or anything
Had a mastectomy at 15 a year ago and turned 17 a day ago. Totally in the same boat. I wish I could find pictures and read accounts of FTMTF ppl who have had breast reconstructions, ESPECIALLY bc I got double incision with nipple grafts and my nips r SOO low. I hope I won’t have to get them grafted again to lift them
For me, it was a REALLY slow burn, with occasional hints that I would regret it or wanted to stay female, that I just kinda set aside... for a while, the euphoria was keeping me going, but the magic went away fairly quickly with my body image issues going back to where they were and my struggles with “gay” dating. it wasn’t until May of this year, almost a year after my top surgery, that I’d broken down over realizing medically transitioning was a mistake.
Not really directly but I’ve had some friends drop me because they can’t handle that my stance on transitioning has entirely changed or that transitioning has traumatized me. Some people at school make fun of me behind my back because of my strong features and deep voice caused by testosterone. Also, I hope your assignment goes well and you have yourself a good school year.
I’m having the same issue, with my jaw and cheekbones getting more prominwnt. I think it’s because I’ve been dropping weight cuz my appetite is fucked :( and also... the changes to bone structure that T brings are permanent. I just hope I get facial fat redistribution and look less angular soon
I’m quite young, and transitioning throughout high school kinda got in the way of dating for me, so I’m not very experienced with relationships or sex or things of that matter. The few partners I’ve had though, who have seen my chest, had no issue with it. They loved it, even. They helped me see my scars as a symbol of strength and perseverance - and a unique sort of beauty. I think that a decent partner will love every part of you, and help you to appreciate even the things you’re ashamed of or see as flaws.
Pretty sure hormones play a role in digestion. I’ve been off T for around 2 months and my digestive system hasn’t been taking well to it either :( lots of bloating and other issues, it’s starting to interrupt my sleep schedule and daily life, really hope it mellows out soon.
Ab that last part... There’s plenty of men out there who like women with flat chests, mastectomy scars, etc. I was surprised to find that there’s still guys out there who are attracted to me as a girl despite me having a post-op chest, something I see as a glaring flaw. There is so much more to a woman than her chest (and the rest of her body), and any decent guy will see that, I think :)
I’m going into my senior year this year and I’m also kind of at a loss as for how ill explain my detransition n stuff to my peers... I’m very open about it on social media where a few people from school follow me and I’m hoping that’ll help me before the school year starts. Hopefully explaining to people in person won’t be like jumping through hurdles, but from my interactions so far, almost everyone has been really understanding and taken well to it so :)