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The narrative is highly detailed, emotionally consistent, and spans several years, describing a personal journey of transition, regret, and detransition. The user discusses complex, nuanced topics like medical procedures, hormone therapy, and psychological motivations in a way that aligns with the passionate and often painful experiences of genuine detransitioners. The advice given to others is specific and practical, reflecting lived experience rather than a scripted agenda.
About me
I started wanting to transition at 15, believing becoming a girl would fix my deep unhappiness with being male. I began hormones at 18 and later had surgery, which I now deeply regret for the permanent health problems it caused. I’ve realized my dysphoria was a symptom of trauma and other mental health issues, not a true identity. I’m now detransitioning, taking testosterone, and learning to accept myself as a man. My focus is on healing from the physical and mental scars and moving forward with my life.
My detransition story
My journey with transition and detransition was long and complicated. It started when I was about 15 years old. I was getting a lot of counselling at that age and I remember telling them I wanted to transition. I just really hated being a boy and thought being a girl would fix everything. I felt disgusted by my masculine body and started fantasizing about being feminine. I experimented with cross-dressing, painting my nails, shaving my body hair, and using makeup. I always kept my head hair long, too.
I found online trans social circles and my whole life became about being trans. When I was 18, I started taking estrogen hormones. My family kicked me out of the house almost immediately after that. Looking back, it felt like my transition was impossible to stop. I think a huge reason for it was trauma from my childhood. I didn't get enough validation and I didn't have a strong male role model. My father wasn't around and I took my parents' divorce very hard. I was also sexually confused, and I think all of this combined led to a dysphoria that made me want to change my body.
For years, I genuinely enjoyed transitioning. I truly believed in my mind that I was a woman. When I was 26, I had an orchiectomy, which is the surgical removal of the testicles. I had thought for years that this surgery was what I needed to finally be happy. But about 8 months after the surgery, I realized I felt worse, not better. That’s when I began to understand that transitioning wasn't the answer to how I felt. It’s difficult to admit that.
I regret the orchiectomy deeply. If I could go back, I would stop myself from having it. It has left me with serious health concerns because my body now has no natural source of testosterone. I have to take testosterone injections for the rest of my life, just like a man who has had testicular cancer. My libido completely disappeared after the surgery, but since starting testosterone injections for my detransition, it has returned and sex is enjoyable again for the first time in years. I also had laser hair removal on my face and I worry my facial hair won't come back fully, even on testosterone.
I’ve come to believe that my desire to transition was influenced by many other issues. I grew up being taught that men were toxic, which didn't help me feel confident in being male. I think I also struggled with autogynephilia (AGP), where the thought of being a woman was sexually arousing. This was an unhealthy fetish and a form of escapism, not a real identity. I used the idea of being a woman to escape from my other problems, like low self-esteem, depression, and anxiety.
I now see that gender dysphoria isn't its own condition, but a symptom of other mental health issues, like the trauma and lack of support I experienced. I wasted many years transitioning when I could have been working on accepting myself as a man. I’m trying not to beat myself up about it, but I feel scarred, both physically and mentally.
I don't think 17 is old enough to make such serious decisions about hormones and surgeries. The internet and social media have a huge influence on young people today, convincing them that transition is the answer to their problems. I think the trans community can be like an echo chamber that encourages transition without exploring other reasons for someone's unhappiness. I benefited from finally getting non-affirming therapy, where I could question why I wanted to transition in the first place.
My views on gender have changed. I think biological sex is real and immutable. Socially, I will respect someone’s decision to transition and use their pronouns, but biologically, a person born male will always be male, and a person born female will always be female. I also believe that no one should be forced to be attracted to a trans person; attraction is based on more than just presentation.
Now, I'm focused on reconnecting with my masculinity and improving myself. There is more to life than gender. I’m learning to accept my body for what it is and move forward. I’m grateful I realized this now and can share my story so others might learn from my experience.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 15 | First desired to transition. Expressed this to youth counsellors. Began experimenting with cross-dressing and a feminine presentation. |
| 18 | Started taking estrogen hormones. Was subsequently kicked out of my family home. |
| 26 | Underwent an orchiectomy. |
| 26 (8 months post-op) | Realized I regretted my transition and began to detransition. Started testosterone injections. |
| 28 | (Present) Continuing testosterone therapy and working on self-acceptance and physical health. |
Top Comments by /u/pupreno:
Obviously mental health. I personally don’t think gender dysphoria is its own condition, but rather a symptom of other ones, such as borderline personality disorder. Interestingly enough, you’ll find people with bpd more likely to identify as transgender.
I like how they are blaming detransitioners for what has happened to us. But they forget to realize it’s the doctors who are misdiagnosing us with GID, and the therapists and psychs that aren’t providing us with proper mental health supports and exploration for why we want to transition.
It also doesn’t help that the trans community is against any dissent. They’d rather egg you on to transition than give you support if you feel any doubts. If you want to blame anyone blame the social and medical structure that the community designed. It created this monster.
Take testosterone and your libido will come back full swing, a long with how you looked pre transition, unless you had any cosmetic surgery done. I’ve been on T for 2 years since an orchiectomy. Sure you’ll need to be on it for life but you have no choice as your body needs to take or hormone. Many guys who have had testicular cancer are in the same boat.
Does the thought of having a vagina arouse you? If so, you will most definitely regret it afterwards. Not only will there most likely be complications but you’ll lose your libido, as well as your selection of potential partners will greatly diminish. You could be setting yourself up for a life of depression and possible suicide once you’ve realized it wasn’t how you thought it was. Perhaps my comment is more crude but this isn’t something to take lightheartedly. Good luck.
No amount of transition will make you be able to become a mother. Figure out why you even desire that. If you say it’s AGP then it’s not like you were clear in mind wanting to transition.
The dysphoria will go away once you get the actual problems in your life solved and you stop fixating on being trans.
r/TGandSissyRecovery
Have you had your testosterone levels measured?
The thing about porn, and particularly fetishes, indulging in them gives an addictive dopamine release and reinforces the stimuli. It isn’t exactly bad to have them, but to be addicted is problematic. You need to never give into the addiction, and associate normal sex as pleasurable by trying to continue to engage with it. Try rewarding yourself whenever you distant yourself from the fetish.
Your situation isn’t helpless. Like you I had an orchiectomy. I take testosterone now. I had my documents changed back to normal. You can get your breasts removed, even though you just had the surgery done. Be upfront with the surgeon and don’t lie to yourself.
“Stupid hairy male”. It’s your attitude and beliefs that need changing, not your gender. It’s sad you have been wrongly conditioned to believe men are evil. Maybe that has been your experience with men but morality isn’t determined by ones sex. There are good and bad people regardless. There are plenty of good men.
It’s obvious you aren’t mentally well. Lots of victimization and self loathing talk. Forget the gender bs and focus on trying to be a better PERSON.
Suicide isn’t the answer to this.
There is only one choice you have now, and that is acceptance. I’m really sorry how you are feeling and my heart aches for you, but you need to keep moving forward.
There is more to life than your gender or sex. In time you can find love, or a partner, once you’ve built yourself up first. Some people have it easier than others but it is not impossible, even though you are trans or have autism. There are plenty of other people who don’t have sex drives, or genitalia they aren’t happy with. There are people who have life changing disabilities or conditions who preserve and so can you.
Your mind is obviously in a bad place right now and you deserve stability. I’d strongly recommend you reach out to people, or professionals. You should try calling a local hotline or going to the ER.
If it helps, you look good in your pictures and pass well, so I think surgery helped you reach your goal.
You do something about it. I feel regret, but I’m grateful I have some semblance of who I was before the transition. You go work out, take T to restore it, if you have breast growth get the surgery. If you got SRS then you learn to accept what happened, move on, go focus on the other parts of life. Self improvement.