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The user's story is highly specific, emotionally consistent, and contains the kind of complex, self-reflective, and occasionally contradictory thoughts typical of a genuine person navigating a difficult experience. The narrative of transitioning young, the detailed medical history (blockers at 12, T at 12), and the internal conflict about detransitioning align with known detransitioner experiences. The passion and criticism of "affirmative care" are consistent with the stated harm and stigma some desisters feel.
About me
I was born female and began socially transitioning to male at age seven, then started medical transition at twelve. I've now stopped all treatments at fifteen and feel like a science experiment, worried about my permanently changed voice and masculine features. I had endless support to transition, but that support vanished completely when I decided to detransition. I now believe my dysphoria should have been treated with therapy and self-acceptance, not just hormones. My faith has become my foundation as I navigate this lonely process of trying to find my real self.
My detransition story
My whole journey with transition started when I was really young. I was born female, but from around the age of seven, I remember begging to dress like a boy, be called "he," and have short hair. That was the big telling sign for my family. I was also a very angry and anxious kid; I screamed a lot and was just generally mad at everything.
By the time I was twelve, my family and I, following what's called the Dutch protocol, decided I should start medical transition. I was put on puberty blockers and a low dose of testosterone to mimic male puberty. At the time, everyone around us, including doctors, presented this as the only affirming and correct path. We were told the blockers were completely safe and reversible. I haven't socialized as a female since I was about seven years old.
Now, at fifteen, I've decided to stop everything. I'm going off the blockers and testosterone. Looking back, I feel like a science experiment. I’m just waiting to see what happens to my body now. My voice is permanently deep and my face is masculine, which makes the idea of social detransition really daunting. People will probably think I'm a trans woman (MtF) instead of understanding I'm detransitioning.
A huge part of my story is how I was influenced. The pro-transition ideology is everywhere—in schools, online, and in therapy. I had unlimited support and affirmation when I decided to transition, but now that I want to detransition, that support has completely vanished. My current therapist is trans and is kind, but he still says very trans-biased things, so I'm looking for a new one. It’s been a lonely process.
I also struggled a lot with being influenced by what I saw online. I’d watch a detransition video and feel sure I wanted to detransition, then I’d see a pro-trans video and feel doubt all over again. It was ridiculous and made me feel like I was losing my mind. I realized I needed to drastically reduce my media consumption to find my own truth.
My thoughts on gender have changed completely. I now believe there are many other ways to treat gender dysphoria, a mental disorder, than introducing hormones and surgery. I think true self-acceptance has to come first. For me, finding spirituality and faith has been a huge part of that. I was an atheist, but I developed a fascination with Islam, learned Arabic, and eventually converted. My relationship with God is now the most important thing to me, and it helps me navigate all of this.
I do have some regrets. I regret that I was led to believe medical intervention was my only option. I regret that I wasn't given a chance to just work through my discomfort with puberty or my anger and anxiety. I’m worried about potential health complications, like loss of bone density from the blockers. I haven’t had any surgeries, but the hormonal changes are a big deal.
Overall, I’m trying to move forward and learn from this experience. I’m focusing on self-acceptance and my faith.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 7 | Began socially transitioning. Begged to dress as a boy, be called "he," and have short hair. Stopped socializing as a female. |
| 12 | Started puberty blockers and a low-dose testosterone regimen as part of the Dutch protocol. |
| 15 | Made the decision to stop puberty blockers and testosterone and began the process of detransitioning. |
Top Comments by /u/redactedchicken:
This sub has saved me at 15.
I understand the frustration, the transition-only trans ideology is literally everywhere. Affirmative care is now the norm and anyone who dares criticize it is immediate shut down. It’s in the classroom, too. Something strange is going on and it sure feels political. I joke about being a conspiracy theorist, but if you shed the view that you’re supposed to have, things like child transition, which is my experience, are just not ok in a majority of circumstances.
My therapist is trans and although he supports my choice to detransition and is very kind, he still says very, well, trans-biased stuff (I am going to find a new one soon). I know that many, many detrans people have faced this, too. I found unlimited support and affirmation being trans. I can find nothing now that I’m planning to detransition.
I agree, it makes me happy to see trans people who support detrans people, but it’s not all that common. I think that once detransitioning becomes more rampant when my generation grows up, there will be a movement and we will be more recognized. Just some thoughts—keep being amazing, you are not alone!
I got blockers at 12 and started a low-dose testosterone then that mimicked male puberty. My family and I had been planning to do the Dutch protocol since I was pretty young. I have very mixed feelings—in some cases it could be worth it, but there are wayyyy too many unknowns. My parents genuinely wanted the best for me and were only given affirmative information and resources. Now, I’m a 15 year old female with a deep voice and masculine face, and I just recently chose to go off blockers and T. I feel like a science experiment, and I’m just basically waiting to see what will happen with my body.
Thank you, I know some people may be suspicious that I’m not actually 15 (someone said there was something off about my story??) but I swear to God I am. I’ve just been an old soul and a deep thinking ever since I could, well, think.
Yes, there are SO many other ways to treat gender dysphoria, a literal mental disorder, than to introduce exogenous hormones and body mutilation. Who would have thought?
To be fair, it wasn’t just behavioral problems, I begged and begged to be able to dress like a boy, be called a he and have short hair, etc. That was the telling sign. But, I can’t do anything now but move on and learn. And thank you very much, I will sure try!
Yeah, I began mine as a minor too and got on blockers and testosterone by 12. I haven’t socialized as female since I was about seven. This is a very interesting situation because most transition as adults and are thus not as “stealth”. When I detransition, people will think I am MtF and will think you are FtM but just don’t know the whole story. This is one of the hardest social parts in my opinion. I haven’t had SRS since I’m 15 and my changes aren’t as extreme, but I have experienced the same idea of not completing puberty, growing up seen as the opposite gender, etc. so it feels very daunting to me as well.
Figured I would get anti religion things, not actually sure why I mentioned that. I chose to by myself completely because I fell in love with its beauty and unity.
And yes, I remember the behavior problems clearly, I was just generally very, very angry at everything and screamed a lot. I also got really anxious.
IDK why anything would seem off. I'm just a disorganized writer and probably forgot some things. I usually can't tell any story without forgetting some details
Thank you, that is what happens when you just think 24/7.
And yes, I am aware of that and am cautious about where I find my identity since I am at such a malleable age. No matter what, I will always be spiritual or have faith of some sort even if I am not part of a community, and self-acceptance will always come first (I believe true spirituality/faith prospers with self acceptance.) I hope that makes sense, and thank you again for your thoughtful reply!
That makes sense and I agree 100%. Your viewpoint is refreshing, completely true, and empowering. If only other trans people could understand that :(
About Islam, I began learning Arabic and learned about Islam through that. I was an atheist but slowly started warming up to spirituality and religion. I had a fascination with Islam, and as I learned how to pray in Arabic I decided that it was for me and went to a mosque to take my shahaadah. That means a testimony. All you say is “I bear witness that there is no god but Allah (the Arabic word for God) and that Muhammad is His messenger.” I received immediate support and love from everyone. True Muslims are the most hospitable and kind people you will ever meet. People today hate Islam because many Muslims with hardened hearts give it a very bad reputation. I wouldn’t blame them, honestly. The Qur’an and the pillars, which are faith, prayer, charity, fasting and pilgrimage are where you find the true heart of Islam untouched by today’s society. Your relationship with and belief in God is the single most important thing.
I’m not perfect, and I have my own doubts and criticisms. But I try my best to truly believe. Sorry that was longer than expected.
Oh I’m American, too, it’s just called that (you can look it up). It’s very rare, and I have never seen any other cases of this happening either.
I’ve researched that, and yes I know it is for the first couple of years even, so I’ll try to prepare. And I’ve had a bit of breast budding when I was younger (just penny sized, not noticeable) and ugh it’s so uncomfortable!
Men do not get to do anything they please. Men and women have slightly different rules but no one has more or less. Men cannot even touch the hand of a female they aren’t related to. Men have to lower their gaze. Our prophet said that the best of the men is him who treats his wife the best.
I now regret mentioning this, but hope to continue a peaceful discussion. :)
Random side note, I’m not saying not to call me she/her but I haven’t been called that in like 7 years I definitely have some getting used to! Haha
I totally agree, that is the second most important reason in here that I forgot to mention. I can’t believe that we were told that they were completely safe and reversible. I’m hoping to get in as soon as I can to stop them (and the testosterone). I may be temporarily depressed from female pubertal changes but that’s exactly where that quote comes in :) thank you for your input.