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About me
I started questioning my gender as a teenager when I was struggling with my mental health and found online communities that made transition seem like the only answer. I began testosterone at 19, but I later realized I was confusing the excitement of taking action with actual treatment for my depression and anxiety. Getting proper mental health care was the turning point that helped me see my dysphoria was a symptom of those deeper issues. I stopped hormones and am letting my body return to its natural state, which has given me a lot of hope. My biggest lesson is that you must fix your mental health first, as permanent changes to your body can't be undone.
My detransition story
Looking back at my whole journey, I think the biggest thing I’ve learned is that I needed to fix my mental health before I made any permanent changes to my body. I wish that was a message I had heard back when I was starting out.
It all began for me when I was around 14 or 15. I was really struggling with my mental health and I found a lot of trans YouTubers. Watching them, it felt like I had found an answer to why I felt so bad. The idea of transition was presented as this sure thing, and I kept hearing that only a very small percentage of people ever detransition. Because of that, I never even considered it as a possibility for me. I didn't sit down and really think it through.
I started with a social transition, and I don't regret that part. It felt like a necessary step to explore my feelings and ask those big questions about who I was. But medical transition is a completely different story. That’s something I’ll always regret to some extent.
I started testosterone in March of 2019. For a while, I felt better. But what I didn’t realize at the time was that I was confusing the excitement of transition with actual mental health improvement. I had untreated depression and anxiety, and starting hormones felt like taking action, which temporarily lifted my mood. It wasn't the testosterone itself fixing my underlying problems.
Being on T came with side effects I wasn’t prepared for. I got severe acne, which really crushed my confidence. It made me realize that even the small, temporary changes can be hard to deal with. I was on a type of T called Nebido, with injections every few months. I started thinking about the long term—could I see myself at 80 years old, still doing these shots? The idea started to feel overwhelming.
A big turning point was finally finding the right antidepressants and getting into therapy that worked for my general mental health, not just gender issues. Once my depression and anxiety were being treated properly, it was like a fog lifted. I realized that a lot of what I had called "dysphoria" was actually stemming from these other untreated conditions. I needed an unbiased perspective to help me challenge my thoughts and see the distinction.
I took my last shot of testosterone in mid-December 2019, and it fully ran out of my system by March 2nd, 2020. I decided to just let my body settle back to its natural state instead of taking anything else to try and reverse the changes. It’s been a process. About a month after stopping, I noticed my skin getting smoother again. I started to see early signs of my body fat shifting back to my chest, hips, and away from my stomach. My face started to look more like it did before. Knowing that these changes were happening gave me hope.
My thoughts on gender now are that it's incredibly complex and deeply personal. For me, it was tied up with a need to escape from myself and my problems. I also think it's so important that you transition for yourself, and not because it feels expected by others or by online communities. This is your body, nobody else's.
I feel sad that the possibility of detransitioning is often shut down or seen as a taboo topic. If I had had access to more balanced information and less pressure, I might not have taken hormones and ended up with the permanent changes I have now, like my deeper voice. I worry that other young, impressionable people are going down the same path I did without all the facts.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| My Age | Date (Approximate) | Event |
|---|---|---|
| 14/15 | Around 2015/2016 | Started questioning my gender, influenced by trans YouTubers. Began social transition. |
| 19 | March 2019 | Started testosterone (Nebido injections). |
| 19 | Mid-December 2019 | Took my last shot of testosterone. |
| 20 | March 2020 | Testosterone fully left my system. Began noticing early physical changes back towards my pre-T state. |
| 20 | April/May 2020 | Two months off T, reflecting on the experience and feeling hopeful about the future. |
Top Comments by /u/roninsrampage:
It honestly makes me so sad seeing the concept of detransitioning being completely shut down. If the information wasnt such a secret in the LGBT community then i probably wouldnt have taken hormones and look and sound how I do now. :(
And it wouldnt surprise me the dysphoric child in question would eventually end up in a similar situation, i wish them the best and thanks for trying to warn them about potentially permanent changes.
I genuinely felt so disappointed watching the video and reading the comments. But I’m in no way surprised either. He was actually the first trans youtuber I watched when i was 14/15 when i was first coming out.
Knowing his audience I get why he had to downplay to avoid backlash. But I think it’s EXTREMELY irresponsible to use the small percentage argument.
Firstly, there isnt enough concrete evidence to be 100% sure the exact number detransitioning. There is also the fact that watching youtubers at such an impressionable, young age who were pushing “small percentage”, that when I began T I did not factor detransitioning at all and didnt sit down and think at all it might not be what i needed.
I deeply worry that this could lead to more people detransitioning longterm and i honestly hope that will not happen. There is more research needed into detransition to understand it properly, because based off his comments, his audience perceptions on detrans people are so skewed and far from the truth. I actually had to stop reading them after scrolling down a bit because it affected me mentally.
i dont regret social transition, because i feel like if i never did I would still have so many questions about my gender.
medical transition is a completely different story and is something i’ll always regret to some extent at least. I’m almost 2 months off and have no idea how well i’ll end up passing to live as my birth gender safely.
Saying that I have learnt a lot about myself and I definitely matured from the experience.
I’m in a similar situation, I was on hormones March 2019 - March 2020.
I’ve only been off a month but ive noticed my body start to change, my skin is as smooth as my pre T skin and i’m seeing early signs of fat distribution. My face already looks similar to pre T and i have more fat on my chest/hips and less on my stomach.
Generally they say it takes a few months to really see a difference. But I hope you are able to see results soon and feel comfortable in the clothes you wear.
I’m not sure where you are from since most countries are in lockdown, but you could try home workouts designed more for a female body type. This could help reshift body fat distribution faster while you are waiting, I wish you the best.
Hey, detransitioner here :).
One of the main reasons i detransitioned was because i had untreated mental health conditions, after i was medicated it made me realise this was the cause of my ‘dysphoria’ so to speak.
Everyone on here can give you advice, but ultimately it’s your healthcare and you are the one that has the choice of what to do next.
Regardless of what you do I wish you peace and happiness. Also my main advice would be: if you have mental health issues unrelated to dysphoria, please see a none gender specialist and work on that first.
That way you can have an unbiased personal perspective and if you seek treatment they can help you healthily challenge your identity, to be certain it isn’t comorbid with other existing stuff.
If there is a clear distinction between dysphoria and your mental health is good so you can make rational decisions, if you wanted you can pursue hormone treatment as long as you are aware of permanent side effects.
As the others have said, the first year might seem really exciting with injections, but these are for the rest of your life. Could you imagine yourself at 80 still doing these shots and feel content with your choice?
Also not only do you have shots, you still need blood tests to check your body’s general health because it can put you at a slightly higher risk for certain illnesses.
I was on hormones a year, while i was physically healthy I did get severe acne. This can be a common side effect and it crushed my confidence big time. So even small subtle things ask yourself, would you be happy presenting that way a couple years until it clears up.
These were my main points and hope you’re okay, im glad you felt comfortable coming on here for advice, as most trans people would not.
Finding good antidepressants and therapy that actually worked for my mental health, before starting T, one of the main reasons it took a year medical transitioning to realise because i was confusing transition for being the reason I was better mentally.
Make sure you are transitioning for you not for anybody else or that it is expected of you. This is your body. Nobody else’s.
If it makes you feel any better, I’m 2 and 1/2 months off T. And your one year off is honestly what I hope will happen to me and it gives me hope!!.
I noticed someone posted a feminisation surgery link. It’s your choice, I read you as a cis female on the left and if i passed you in real life i would never had thought you could had been remotely male. Ultimately do what you wanna do, give yourself time to think. and i hope you’ll be successful in your journey to self acceptance and happiness. :)
Im in a similar situation, My last nebido shot was mid December and it ran out March 2nd.
Since ive already caused so much damage to my body, im just letting it settle naturally instead of trying to shift them again. I’m a month off T and ive seen noticeable changes and i know a year from now, that i’d be more back to normal.
But i know that doesnt answer your question and it must be so difficult to go through, I know there are hormonal birth controls, such as the combined pill that can be used to create more female hormones.
I know you mentioned your blood work already, but please note i am not a doctor and if you do go off T or use birth control you must try for your own health to monitor your blood levels and be honest with your doctor so they can help you.
So in conclusion, I’d recommend waiting it out but if you are medically detransitioning please be honest with ur health care professionals because they would know a lot more, than a random redditor like me would.