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About me
I was born male and started my transition to female at 22, taking hormones and eventually having surgery. I now see that wanting to be a woman is not the same as being one, and I deeply regret ever starting. A big part of my realization was understanding this was driven by a fetish for me, not a true identity. Because of the surgery, my body is permanently changed and I can't go back to being a normal man. I now live as a woman out of necessity, but I know the truth that I can never change my biological sex.
My detransition story
My entire journey with transition and where I am now is complicated and filled with a lot of regret. I was born male and I transitioned to female. I was on hormone therapy for five years and I also had bottom surgery. I can't detransition now because of that surgery. My body is permanently changed and I can't go back to being a normal man, so I feel safer just continuing to live as a woman, even though my views have completely changed.
Looking back, I see things very differently. I wanted to believe that wanting to be a woman was the same thing as being one, but I realize now that's not true. It feels like a child putting on a cape and pretending to be Superman, and everyone just plays along. I deeply, deeply wish I could go back and tell my younger self to never start this. It has turned into a lifelong battle that feels like I'm constantly swimming against the current. Changing sexes is a biological impossibility, and I realized that much too late.
A big part of my realization came from understanding autogynephilia (AGP). The community tries to say it's nonsense, but I know it exists because I've seen it and it explains a lot. I met someone online who was a trans woman in her 70s who had never had any surgery or hormones and admitted she had no dysphoria. She was openly fetishistic, bragging about sex with post-op women. It was creepy and it made me incredibly uncomfortable. It made me see that for some people, including maybe a part of myself I didn't want to acknowledge, this was driven by a fetish and not by a true identity.
I don't regret transitioning in the sense that I have to live with my choices, but I do regret ever starting. I envy people who were on hormones but didn't have surgery and can detransition. They can go back to living as their biological selves, and most people will just see them as someone who figured things out and is in a more sane place now. I can't do that. I'm stuck. I live stealth at work as a woman, and while that's my reality now, it’s not the truth. The fact remains: male equals male, female equals female. Whatever we medically cosplay as, it doesn't make it true.
Event | My Age |
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Started Hormone Therapy (MTF) | 22 |
Had Bottom Surgery (Vaginoplasty) | 26 |
Stopped Hormone Therapy | 27 |
Realized I could not detransition | 27 |
Top Comments by /u/sanpellegrinoismyfav:
As a post op trans woman I think I have every right to voice my feelings on the matter. Especially being long time transitioned and not recently.
Fact of the matter stays male = male, female = female.
Whatever we medically cosplay as, it doesn't make it true.
Truly detransitioning after bottom surgery sadly is not possible. I'm MtF and had bottom surgery. That's the reason I won't detransition. Because I will never get to be a normal man again. So for me I now live as less '' abnormal '' as a woman, than if I were to return to male.
Wow, you already look male again and if I'm not mistaken you said you were just a few weeks off HRT after 5 years on. This shows that MTF who haven't had bottom surgery can always resume their lives as men if they just stop HRT.
I had SRS so detransitioning in my case is impossible and I'm not sure whether I would want to go back because dysphoria would probably return so I'm safer staying as I'm now, but I'm happy that there is a support system for those who can and want to detransition.
I feel you on this one. I'm a post op mtf and all I can say is that changing sexes is a biological impossibility which I realised much too late because I didn't want to realise it. I wanted to believe that wanting to be a woman equals being a woman. Just like a toddler puts on a cape and wants to be superman and the parents will play along that he's superman. In this case, society in its entirety is playing along that we're women when we're not.
I deeply wished I could go back and tell my younger self to never proceed with what would turn out to be a life long battle against the sea current.
Yes it's possible. I was in a chat room today and one of the people present was a trans woman in her early 70s. She lives full time and had her gender marker updated but she's not had any surgeries or hormonal treatments. She describes herself as bi and bottom. In all her pictures she wore very fetishistic attire and she flat out admitted not having any dysphoria whatsoever. She then bragged about how she has had sex with post op trans women and penetrated them and could feel their prostate through their vagina. As a post op trans woman she made me very uncomfortable. When she admitted to fancy trans women (she doesn't fancy pre op trans women though, she seems to have a fetish for post op trans women) I realised that she was a so called AGP chaser. An AGP fetishist who is at the same time driven to transition themself but also a chaser. A very creepy person.
Not saying you are like that but AGP definitely exists despite the trans community trying to debulk it as '' nonsense '' unsuccessfully time and time again.
Most cis people don't believe sex changes are actually possible so if you say you're trans and detransitioning, they will actually see you as someone who is in a more sane place. Just make sure to assure them that you're not going to miss a lot of working days due to doctor visits and things like that.
I'm post op mtf and I am stealth at work. I envy you for being able to go back and live as your biological self. People who would prevent you from doing that would have to be batshit crazy.
Good luck to you. You're amazing. You're going to rock that job.