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The user's story is highly detailed, emotionally consistent, and spans over a year, documenting a very specific and personal journey of starting testosterone and puberty blockers at age 14, detransitioning at 15, and the subsequent physical and emotional recovery. The narrative includes unique, personal details (e.g., specific hospital experiences, voice training, family dynamics, concerns about fertility) that are not generic and would be difficult to fabricate consistently. The user's passion, anger at medical providers, and nuanced views on the process align with the expected perspective of a young desister/detransitioner who feels they were harmed.
About me
I started at 13, convinced my problems would be solved if I became male. The medical process felt rushed and I was put on hormones at 14 after a deeply unsettling exam. I felt numb and dissociated on testosterone, but I thankfully woke up and stopped everything at 15. My body has been recovering, my mental fog has lifted, and I'm finally comfortable being female again. I'm angry that my youth was stolen and I believe my dysphoria was a symptom of other issues that were never properly explored.
My detransition story
My journey started when I was very young, around 13. I was deeply uncomfortable with my body and going through puberty was really hard for me. I found a lot of communities online that made me believe all my problems would be solved if I transitioned to male. I convinced myself that was the answer.
I was diagnosed with gender dysphoria, but looking back, I don't think anyone really looked into why I felt that way. I just hated my developing body and felt really insecure. I started going to a gender clinic at a children's hospital. The process felt really fast. After about five or six months of appointments, they put me on hormone blockers (Lupron) and testosterone. I was 14.
The experience at that clinic was really unsettling. During an exam, a doctor did what she called a "puberty check." I was alone in the room with her, and she touched my private parts and my nipples. It felt wrong and invasive, but at the time, I was convinced this was a normal and necessary step. My parents were horrified when I told them later, but nothing was ever done about it. The clinic also pressured my family, calling my dad abusive for having concerns about putting me on hormones. They used scare tactics about suicide to get them to agree.
Being on hormones was a really strange time for me. I felt dissociated and numb, like I wasn't really present in my own life. It put me in an on-and-off dissociative state for months. My mental health was not good, but everyone around me just brushed it off as part of the transition process. I was in a really bad place and also in an abusive relationship with a boyfriend who had a weird obsession with trans men, which made everything even more confusing and painful.
I was on testosterone and blockers for about a year, from just after I turned 14 until I was 15. I was planning to get top surgery and had already been binding my chest, which I hated. But thankfully, I started to question everything before I went through with any permanent surgery. I began to realize that my feelings were more about deep-seated insecurity and body image issues, and not because I was actually meant to be a boy. I felt like I was waking up from a fever dream.
I decided to detransition at 15. It was scary, but it felt like the right thing to do. I was worried about what I had done to my body. I was terrified that I had ruined my fertility and that I'd be stuck with a deep voice and small breasts forever. My period had stopped completely, and I was worried it would never come back.
Stopping the hormones was the best decision I ever made. My sense of self started to come back almost immediately. The mental fog and dissociation lifted. My body began to recover surprisingly quickly. My face softened, my skin got brighter, and I started to feel more like myself. My breasts, which had shrunk to almost nothing, started to grow back. I went from having barely an A cup to nearly a C cup within several months. My voice was a big concern, but my parents helped me get a professional voice coach who usually works with male-to-female transitioners. After a few months of training, my voice sounded almost exactly like it did before I started testosterone.
My period took much longer to return. It didn't come back until about six and a half months after I stopped hormones, and it's still not totally regular. I'm working with a new endocrinologist to get my hormone levels checked and might need to take supplemental estrogen to help my cycle regulate completely. Fertility is still a huge concern for me; I really hope I can still have children someday.
I don't believe I was ever truly transgender. I think my gender dysphoria was a symptom of other issues—puberty discomfort, low self-esteem, depression, and the trauma of being in an abusive relationship. I was influenced heavily online and I think I was searching for an escape from my problems. I regret transitioning medically. I feel like my childhood was stolen from me, and I'm angry at the medical professionals who allowed a 14-year-old to make such irreversible decisions. I signed an informed consent form at 13 that called the drugs "experimental," which is crazy to me now.
I don't have any issues with my gender now. I know I am female, and that's okay. I'm finally comfortable in my own skin. My relationships with my family have improved so much since I detransitioned. We can talk openly now, and they've been incredibly supportive, though I know they also feel guilt and regret for letting me go down that path.
My thoughts on gender now are that it's a very complicated thing, especially for young people. I think gender dysphoria in teens should be treated much more carefully, with a lot of therapy to find the root of the discomfort, rather than just immediately affirming it and offering medical transition. I'm worried for other kids going through what I did.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| My Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 13 | Started going to a gender clinic. Felt intense discomfort with puberty. |
| 14 | Was put on hormone blockers (Lupron) and testosterone. |
| 15 | Stopped taking testosterone and blockers. Began to detransition. |
| 15 | Started voice training. Period returned 6.5 months after stopping hormones. |
| 16 | Continued recovery. Working with an endocrinologist to regulate my cycle. Feeling happier and more like myself. |
Top Reddit Comments by /u/shloogmo:
thank you for your support, i’ve been feeling quite angry at myself for feeling this way towards the situation, but it really does have much more to do with my own problems and past that it does his boyfriend.
it is quite awkward, he’ll sit in silence and just keep his eyes on me constantly, though he is generally very kind when talking to people i just get very frustrated with the glaring. my brother was quite uncomfortable with my detransition to begin with so i’m not surprised that he disclosed this to his boyfriend, and i’m quite sure he has his own negative opinions about my choice.
it’s funny in a way, it’s like living in an echo house of bs. i’m able to look at this and understand that i’m doing what’s best for my body and life, yet certain family members seem very uncomfortable with the fact a 15 year old doesn’t want to sterilize herself. huh. i love him nonetheless, but it’s very tiring to constantly feel like something that happened to me is being thrown back in my face.
thankfully i have a supportive dad who was always concerned over my transition, i trust, and genuinely wants the best for me. i’ll likely be able to speak with him at some point.
thank you:)
ill delete this later, i’m just amazed at how quickly my face has (kind of) started to soften up, albeit eye makeup definitely does me justice. i was worried being on t a year during puberty would halt recovery due to bone fusion or whatever, but i’m starting to see change in my jaw and facial fat etc. i’m so thankful for my body for once. let’s hope nobody irl sees this😪
wow. and i’ve heard the uk is more strict with it than the us. that’s crazy i swear i can’t believe how easy it is to fall through the cracks, i went into a children’s gender clinic for 3 or 4 months and got on testosterone and blockers at 13 no problem. unbelievable
i went through the same thing in terms of how i was perceived,, i was so easily seen as female very soon after stopping hrt. same thing with feeling comfortable in myself enough so that being called “he” has no bearing on my self esteem,, because i am female. i am, have been, and always will be a biological,, natal female. hrt could never take that away from me,, and neither can anybody else
amen to that i took lupron and it really fucked with my mental state afterwards. i can’t read or talk about anything related to blockers or hrt for minors anymore without getting intensely anxious almost to the point of hyperventilation. i think it’s understandable though to feel so horrified by such a thing, it’s wrong that we were ever prescribed such medications, especially since they’re not even approved by the FDA for this usage, they’re meant for kids that start puberty at like five. i’m not sure how long you’ve been off of them, but the first couple months or half year is truly the worst. regret, pain, and realization of how you now feel about these things is completely understandable. it’s hard to cope with the fact such a critical time in our lives was interfered with, but i promise you can bounce back. do not worry about what the news says, try not to read it, because trust me it is extremely frustrating to feel like a political pawn when something so traumatizing and terrible happened to you, but you have to make peace with it someday. it’s not your fault, you were a young teenager, you were never expected to fully understand how much they would affect you, and nobody should have expected that from you. i’m proud of where you’ve gotten, and i promise it only gets easier from here on
yes, i was on lupron and testosterone for 11 months starting from the month after i turned 14 to right as i was turning 15. my breasts definitely shrunk a lot (below an a cup) but generally returned slowly, although they never were that big to begin with. i’m now almost 16 and i got my period six and a half months after i started detransitioning. in my opinion blockers shouldn’t be used on minors (in gender transition cases.) another note, the endo that prescribed me lupron did a ‘puberty test’ (i believe it’s the tanner scale test?) except rather than just peeking at my clit development, she squeezed and poked my nipples and stared at my clit with nobody else in the room. this was meant to be preparation for puberty blockers but having read up on this procedure afterwards she definitely was going against the rules of it. on the bright side, i did make it out alive and i am doing generally okay now, at least much better than i was. i think that puberty blockers (or t, or a combination) caused me severe dissociation during the time i was taking them as i had very little coherent thought, i feel as if once i started them i just kind of checked out in terms of life. once i went off both my sense of self returned and i have a level head. :)
thank you for your response, i do wish to campaign against and take complaints out on the company that works to transition teens and kids, as they had repeatedly called my father and name called him abusive for not immediately being okay with hormone treatment. i find that despicable and there is no way in hell everything that they did was not malpractice. they made me believe it was a requirement that they touch my pubic hair and nipples, to test puberty stage. of course now i look at this and i’m horrified and in shock that i allowed any of this, but it’s still disgusting and wrong on their part. i believe there’s something truly sick in the agenda to medicalize children’s malleable identities. also, to comment on the whole “your kid will kill themself” thing, i definitely said that same thing to my parents at the time in an attention seeking way to get them to let me go on hormones, because for some reason i thought they would save my life and make me happy, i’m still not really sure what was going through my head at the time. point is, why would you let a CHILD who you believe is suicidal make such an irreversible decision? strange to me. whole thing feels like a fever dream.
on the note, i think that’s a wonderful idea. it’s much easier to express feelings through pencil than voice and leaves much less room for discourse. thank you for the suggestion
i seem to forget how much life i have yet to live, so thank you for that. i plan to attend my generals in the us and specialized degree in norway, but hey we’ll see what happens then. all we can do is wait and see where life takes us.
hey i was on at 13, although i stopped after a year, but i did voice training over the last year of detransitioning and it genuinely sounds the exact same as it did pre-t. i can’t go as high as i used to when singing and i can take a much deeper vocal registry if i wanted to, but my natural talking voice is very clearly female and probably wouldn’t even be considered deep at all for a girl. if you need help or anyone to talk to my instagram is @babyspidas. i can send voice clips and the instructions i got from my old vocal coach for voice lightening
side note, i know this is a really stressful thing to deal with. please don’t beat yourself up over it, the system around you failed you and you were a child. you can’t blame yourself for doing what you thought you needed at 13 years old.
i’m much younger than you, but i was on hormones for a year until i detransitioned at 15, i still have some masculine features but they really start going away after awhile. dating hasn’t been too much of a problem, most people will listen to you and understand what you went through. if somebody is put off by your experience, they’re not the right person. i promise it gets so much better, passing feels impossible at first but as time goes on your body will adjust, and you get back into the swing of living comfortably. i’m not sure if any of this was helpful, but i support you 100%.
so much misinformation everywhere, i think hrt can really affect someone’s mental health. my problem is that it always gets brushed aside as part of transition, and it’s never warned about beforehand. hrt put me into an on and off dissociative state for months. now going off, i’m also not sure depression is the right word for the emptiness i feel constantly. it’s overlooked how vital hormone levels are in the human body