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The user's story is detailed, emotionally complex, and internally consistent over time. They express a range of genuine emotions (anger, regret, support for others) and describe specific personal experiences (eating disorder, trauma, social dynamics) that align with known detransitioner narratives. Their tone is passionate but nuanced, which is expected for this sensitive topic.
About me
I started transitioning at 15 as a girl who was struggling with trauma and an eating disorder, and I thought becoming a gay man would let me be my true self safely. I lived as a man for five years and was on testosterone for two, but I began to doubt if I could see myself as an old man and be a lifelong patient. I realized my transition was an escape from my trauma and the harassment I faced as a woman. I stopped hormones at 20 and have detransitioned back to living as a woman. I'm now learning to love myself as a bisexual woman and understand that my discomfort was never about being female, but about my pain and low self-esteem.
My detransition story
My whole journey with transition started when I was 15. I was a girl who was really struggling. I had a lot of trauma and a severe eating disorder, and my body disgusted me. I felt like I couldn't be my loud, obnoxious, funny self without facing harassment from men. I saw how gay boys could act and I wanted to be like that. I thought if I was a man, specifically a gay man, I could finally be myself and be safe.
I was also bisexual, but I think I had a lot of internalized homophobia. I didn't know how to be a lesbian or a bisexual woman. It felt easier, or more acceptable in a weird way, to be a gay man. I started my social transition at 15, living as a man. When I was 17, I was diagnosed with Gender Identity Disorder. I started testosterone when I turned 18.
For a while, I thought it was the answer. I worked really hard to be male. But after being on hormones for two years and living as a man for five, I started to have doubts. I began to ask myself really hard questions that I never considered before. Could I see myself as an elderly man? Was I okay with being a lifelong medical patient? What would happen if I detransitioned? Nobody talks about that possibility.
I realized that my transition was a form of escapism. I was trying to escape my body, my trauma, my eating disorder, and the harassment I faced as a woman. I also have autism, and I think that played a role in how I latched onto this identity so strongly. I became the "creepy overly gay autistic man" and I hated that persona. I didn't want the kind of attention I was getting from guys.
I stopped hormones a couple of months ago, when I was 20. I’m still figuring things out and I might be non-binary, but I’ve detransitioned back to living as a woman. It hurts to remember how hard I worked to be something I wasn't. I don't regret my journey because it led me to where I am now, and I was truly honest with myself at the time. But I do have some regrets about the physical changes and the time I lost.
I know now that my discomfort was never really about being a woman. It was about puberty, and low self-esteem, and trauma, and not knowing how to fit in as a bisexual person. Breasts don't make a woman, and being flat-chested doesn't make you less of one. I'm learning to see myself as a woman again, a bisexual woman, and to love myself from within.
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 15 | Started social transition to male. |
| 17 | Diagnosed with Gender Identity Disorder (GID). |
| 18 | Began taking testosterone. |
| 20 | Stopped testosterone and began detransitioning. |
Top Comments by /u/silverasylum20:
I know this is gotta be hard, i feel the same. Im bi and i became the creepy overly gay autistic man and i hate it (b/c i didnt want attention from guys and butches b/c sexual harrassment and then i did when it was too late and i still want attention from straight men and butch lesbians) If u need someone to vent to hmu
No sweetie don’t Think like that! Trans people imo do exist and there are success stories. Just bc this subreddit is for ppl who are not doesn’t mean we are the majority! Do what feels right for you. Im not saying experiment w hormones but if it feels right it does :) just dont up your dose
I am AFAB, transitioned into a man socially at 15, medically transitioned at 18 and now have detransitioned at age 20. I lived as a man and was reaching to physically be a man for 5 years. I was diagnosed with GID at 17. So yes, I was trans for 5 years. I didn’t pretend, because I was truly honest with myself
We detrans people welcome all opinions, however I as an individual care to refute. Yes, I do believe that manipulation is a key part of some people’s transition journey (however mine was wrong place wrong group wrong time). However, I do not believe as a whole, indoctrination by society to be LGB is happening or it is some large conspiracy. I just believe since society is more accepting of sexuality now, it is a bit easier to live as a lesbian/gay/bisexual. However, on the trans issue it is not society causing the indoctrination but the communities in which SOME (not all) trans people reside in. Transgender people, like other groups, tend to form echo chambers and young people listen. I think you come off quite aggressive and especially in your comments (especially with “removing your post” comment) so perhaps you could work on forming cohesive arguments.
Im sorry youre feeling so down about this, I know it can be difficult to cope with but breasts do not take away from you being a woman. Many women do not have breasts or much tissue anyway - breast cancer survivors, a lot of us detrans ppl, intersex ppl and of course some women are just flat chested!! You are gorgeous and it doesn’t matter what anyone thinks/finds attractive it comes from within 💕💕 love you queen
(On hormones for 2 yrs, out for 5, off hormones for a couple of months. Still non binary maybe) “Can you see yourself as an elderly man?” “Are you alright with being a lifelong medical patient?” “Are you willing to make the financial and social sacrifices to transition?” “How will being medically transitioned affect your relationships with future careers, schooling, etc?” “What will happen if you choose to detransition?” (I am not saying you will but it is a possibility many don’t consider) Overall, i am sure you know yourself better than anyone and those who love you will always support you 💜
I transitioned because I wanted to be like one of the gay boys. I could be loud and obnoxious and funny without facing harassment from men. I was also bisexual. I wanted a new body too, my body disgusted me and I had a severe eating disorder and trauma
I was dysphoric when around my “guy friends”, they would talk about girls in such a disgusting way. Also when I was around my fellow theatre kids bc they were all so talented but I didnt sing or dance like then and I felt like I couldnt be loud unless I was the token gay theatre boy (now im bi girl lol)! I used to cope with bad ways to be honest but I worked hard to be male even if now it hurts to remember that! But i coped in good ways by remembering I am more than my gender and surrounding myself with media and things that portrayed people like me in positive lights!