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About me
I was a female tomboy who was pushed to transition by doctors who didn't understand me. I was on puberty blockers and then estrogen for a short time, which made my mental health and dysphoria much worse while I was dealing with trauma at home. I had a moment of clarity where I realized I could never actually be female and accepted I was meant to be male. Stopping everything was the best decision I ever made and my mental health improved dramatically. Now I am at peace being male and finally feel free.
My detransition story
My whole journey with transition and detransition was confusing and, looking back, I feel like I was pushed into it without really understanding what I was getting into. I was born female, and when I was younger, I was just a girl who was a bit of a tomboy. I was happy with that. But because I wasn't super feminine, some doctors got the idea that I must be transgender. I didn't really know what that meant, but I kind of just blindly followed what these authority figures were telling me.
My family was really excited about the idea of me transitioning and going on hormone blockers, which is called Lucrin or Lupron here. I started that when I was about 12 and was on it for four years. Even then, a part of me found the whole thing a bit weird, but I didn't stop. There was a lot of pressure, and I was also dealing with domestic violence at home, which made everything so much harder. My mental health was terrible. I was deeply depressed, never wanted to get out of bed, and started overeating a lot. We even had to flee our state because of the violence, and I almost lost my mother. It was a horrible time.
When I was 16, I started estrogen and was on it for about four months. But I never actually felt female, not at all. Instead, my gender dysphoria seemed to get worse. I would think about cutting off my genitalia every single day and was constantly fixating on this ideal female image in my head. It was an obsession. It wasn't until I was about three months into taking estrogen that I had a huge moment of clarity. I realised I could never actually be female, and I finally accepted that I was supposed to be male. That’s when I decided to stop everything and detransition.
Stopping all the treatments was the best decision I ever made. It was like a fog lifted from my brain. I finally felt free and my head cleared so much. My mental health improved by a landslide. I love being comfortable in my birth sex now. I feel ready to take on anything.
The process hasn't been completely without its issues. My sister was a little hostile about me detransitioning at first, but she came around and accepts that it's my choice. My endocrinologist said there's a possibility I might need testosterone treatment later to help my natural levels, but she's going to track my progress. I'm also planning to go back to in-person school soon.
I do have some worries. I'm concerned about the long-term effects of being on puberty blockers for so long, like my fertility and other anatomical issues. I also worry that people will think I only transitioned for attention or that my story isn't genuine.
When I look back, I see that my desire to transition wasn't really about being a woman. I think it was a form of escapism from my traumatic home life and my own mental health struggles. I was trying to become someone else to escape myself. I also recognise that my fixation on a female image might have been related to autogynephilia. Transitioning didn't solve my problems; it just added new ones.
I don't regret my journey because it led me to where I am now, but I definitely regret that I was ever put on that path without anyone really exploring the reasons behind my feelings, like the trauma and depression. I would tell anyone thinking about transitioning to do serious soul-searching first. Ask yourself: Will I be happier? Will my problems go away? Why do I want to be the opposite sex? I wouldn't recommend rushing into hormones. I’d suggest seeking a professional to find alternatives to transitioning.
Now, I'm just working on myself and my life. I'm finally at peace with being male.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
Age | Event |
---|---|
12 | Started Lupron (puberty blockers) |
16 | Started taking Estrogen |
16 | Stopped all treatment and began detransitioning (after 4 months on E) |
16 | Currently detransitioned for 7 months and feeling much better |
Top Comments by /u/skaarmixxxo:
Yes because me talking about my experience = my being a fake acc lol. English is my first language as I was born in Australia (like I said). I'm also 16 so my grammar isn't going to be Harvard science report level haha. It's all goods. You do have a point with my talking points being stereotypical though. I have seen multiple other stories like mine. I don't know, it could be a coincidence or we all bots atp. I hope you find peace wherever you're at!
I definitely will. My psychiatrist postponed my appt two weeks ago and I am waiting on a further date. He is backed up so I might have to wait some time but it will be worth it in the end. One of my biggest worries (other than puberty, fertility and anatomical issues) is people thinking that I only transitioned for attention and lies. As of now, I'm still going as a girl but over the next year I definitely will be detransitioning.
When I was younger, I was generally non-conforming and happy with my birth sex. But due to that, doctors thought I was transgender and I kind of blindly followed what they said. My family was so excited for me to go on Lucrin/Lupron and Estrogen, but I kind of found it weird. But I didn't stop mainly due to pressure and also due to DV. So, yes, I kind of feel like I was mindlessly transitioning.
Yes. I feel free, like my head has cleared a lot. I feel ready to do anything. I love being comfortable in my birth sex.
Very cheesy, ik.
But real talk, I haven't been any happier than when I detransitioned. During my transition, I never felt female, like, at all. So it's nice to realise why I've been feeling that way. I've always felt depressed during my transition. I never wanted to get out of bed and I was overeating a lot. I almost lost my mother due to DV and the perpetrator so my depression got worse. We also had to flee our state. Now, I just feel free.
I have been detranstioning for 7 months (being on lucrin/lupron for 4 years and estrogen for 4 months). Since reflecting on that period, hormone blockers and cross-sex hormones, while I was happy, didn't alleviate my gender dysphoria that much. I would think about cutting off my genitalia everyday and would constantly fixate on the female image. But it wasn't until i was 3 months on estrogen that I realised that I couldn't be a female and I accepted that I'm supposed to be male. After stopping all treatment, my mental health has since improved by a landslide.
But enough rambling. To answer you're questions, transitioning didn't alleviate my gender dysphoria and I am much, much comfortable with being my natal sex. I feel much better mentally and I am working on all areas of my life. While I do still have some issues going on with how I want to be, I feel much better.
Now, I would recommend you to do some soul-searching. Ask yourself, Will I be happier if I transition? Will my problems go away? Why do I want to be the opposite sex? Is it because of gender dysphoria? Is it autogynephilia? If I was you, I wouldn't go on HRT. I would go seek a help of a professional to find alternatives to transitioning
Just know that you are loved and I support any decision that you come too ^^
It has been smooth sailing actually. My sister however has been a little hostile towards the topic of me detransitioning in the beginning but now she doesn't care as it is my choice. Plans going forward? Well, my endo said there is a possibility I'll have to go on testosterone treatment but she'll track my progress. I'm planning on going back to in person school within the next term (we have school terms in Australia, like the UK). Really the only expectations is my t levels going up. I'm in the process of moving atm so it's kinda difficult for me but I'll manage. Detransition was the best choice for me and I couldn't have been happier.
Listen, just because you were born sick, doesn't mean you are less of a man! I was born with Invasive Pneumococcal Disease (IPD) and had to stay in the hospital for two weeks. I was born sick. Being a man is showing the world who you really are, not being afraid to be yourself, having motivation and being passionate about what you do, looking after your body and practicing good hygiene, staying humble, having compassion for people less fortunate than you and much more. I am happy to hear that you feel better detransitioning. I will forever support you know matter what. Sending light and love your way!