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Reddit user /u/smartidiot9's Detransition Story

Transitioned: 15 -> Detransitioned: 19
female
hated breasts
regrets transitioning
influenced online
influenced by friends
body dysmorphia
puberty discomfort
started as non-binary
autistic
ocd
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The user's perspective is consistent with a desister or detransitioned female who is critical of gender ideology. The comments show:

  • Personal experience: They share first-person anecdotes about being a "tomboyish," autistic woman with sensory issues related to bras and body image.
  • Consistent ideology: Their arguments against transition and critique of transgender ideology are philosophically consistent across many months.
  • Emotional depth: The tone contains a mix of passion, anger, and personal reflection that is common in this community and difficult to fake convincingly.
  • Engagement: They offer empathetic, personal advice to others, which is not typical bot behavior.

The account presents as a genuine, very opinionated individual from the detrans community.

About me

I started feeling intense discomfort with my developing female body as a teenager, which I later understood was linked to my autism and sensory issues. Online communities convinced me this meant I was trans, and I identified as non-binary while seriously considering medical transition. Meeting other tomboyish women in university helped me realize I wasn't a rare species, just a different kind of woman. I now see my past dysphoria as a psychological symptom to manage, not an identity. I am a 21-year-old woman, comfortable in my own skin and relieved I never made permanent changes to my body.

My detransition story

My whole journey with gender has been a long process of figuring out who I am, and a lot of it involved untangling my own feelings from what society and the online world were telling me. I’m a woman, and I’m comfortable with that now, but I definitely took a detour to get here.

I’m autistic and I have OCD, and I think that played a huge part in my confusion. When I was a teenager, I had a lot of discomfort with my body, especially when I started developing breasts. I hated the feeling of bras; they were so uncomfortable and sensory hell for me. It wasn't really about wanting to be a boy, it was this intense, overwhelming feeling that these body parts were just wrong on me. I now see that a lot of that was connected to my autism and sensory issues, but at the time, the only explanation I found online was that I might be trans. I started to believe that my discomfort meant I was born in the wrong body.

For a while, I identified as non-binary. It felt like a safe middle ground because I didn't feel like a "typical" girl, but I also knew I wasn't a boy. I spent a lot of time in online communities where transitioning was presented as the only way to fix these feelings of not fitting in. I was influenced heavily by what I read and by friends who were also exploring their gender. I think there's a kind of social contagion aspect to it; when everyone around you is talking about being trans, it starts to feel like the answer for you, too. I felt isolated as a tomboy, and the idea of having a clear label and a community was really appealing.

I seriously considered medical transition. I thought about taking testosterone and even top surgery. I'm so relieved now that I never went through with it. Looking back, I see that the desire to remove a healthy part of my body because it causes discomfort is, in itself, a sign that something else is going on psychologically. We’ve normalized it so much that we forget how traumatic it is to fundamentally alter your body. Every cell in your body is programmed a certain way, and fighting against that is a huge deal.

What helped me most was time, growing up, and finding my people. When I got to university, I met other women who were like me—tomboyish, not super feminine, but completely secure in being women. I realized I wasn't a rare species; I was just a different kind of woman. I learned to separate the idea of being a woman from the stereotypes. I don't have to be hyper-feminine to be a woman. I can have short hair and like "boyish" hobbies and still be a woman. That feeling of dysphoria I had is now something I manage like I manage my other OCD thoughts; I acknowledge it's there, but I don't let it dictate my life.

I have a lot of thoughts on gender ideology now. I believe that for a very small number of people, being trans is a real thing, but I think it's incredibly rare. I think a lot of what we're seeing now is a trend, and we're just starting to see the first big wave of people detransitioning. I don't think the trans community handles detransitioners well because our existence creates doubt for them. I also strongly feel that the trans movement has ended up erasing women. We're now "cis women," and our spaces and definitions are being changed. Trans women are not the same as women born female; they have different experiences and needs, and I think it would be healthier for everyone if they had their own space instead of trying to fit into ours.

I don't regret exploring my gender because it led me to a place of understanding myself better. But I deeply regret how close I came to making permanent changes to my body that would have been a mistake for me. I benefited from pulling back and questioning everything. I'm now a 21-year-old woman who is comfortable being a tomboy. I'm proud of the person I've become.

Here is a timeline of my journey:

Age Event
14 Started experiencing significant discomfort with puberty and my developing body.
15-16 Spent a lot of time online, influenced by trans communities. Began identifying as non-binary.
17 Seriously considered taking testosterone and getting top surgery.
18 Started university. Met other tomboyish women and began to seriously question my need to transition.
19 Stopped identifying as non-binary. Realized my discomfort was linked to autism/OCD and sensory issues, not gender identity.
20-21 Fully accepted myself as a woman. Now living happily as a tomboy, managing occasional dysphoric thoughts as part of my OCD.

Top Comments by /u/smartidiot9:

19 comments • Posting since February 8, 2023
Reddit user smartidiot9 (desisted) comments on the erasure of detransitioners, arguing they are labeled as transphobic by progressives for speaking out, and compares the dynamic of biological men in women's spaces to a new form of male oppression.
111 pointsJun 25, 2023
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A fucking men sister. But if we say that we're being erased (to "progressives", none the less) WE'RE the problem. WE'RE transphobic.🤦‍♀️ Not to mention a lot of these people are biological men (i.e we're back to the classic men oppress women, just with extra steps).

Reddit user smartidiot9 (desisted) comments that detransition statistics are underreported due to academic bias, estimating the rate is 10-20% and predicting a wave of detransitioners from recent trends.
48 pointsMar 15, 2023
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There will never be an accurate statistic for the number of people who detransition as long as academia continues to be woke leftists. It's probably closer to 10-20% from what I've seen. Not to mention, the trans trend started within the last 5 years (and it sure as hell is real), so imo we're just starting to see the first wave of detransitions.

Reddit user smartidiot9 (desisted) explains how the focus on hyper-femininity in the trans community reinforces damaging stereotypes and leads to the erasure of women through language like "cis women."
45 pointsJun 26, 2023
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A lot of trans womanness is focused on being a stereotypical woman (hyper feminine), reinforcing damaging stereotypes against women. Women are most certainly being erased by the trans community. There's evidence of this in your own post-- we're not "women" anymore. We're "cis women". The erasing of women doesn't have to happen in order for trans people to be treated properly. However, you do need to find your own space instead of changing ours, and we should help with that.

Reddit user smartidiot9 (desisted) explains the harms of trans women's societal dominance, arguing for separate spaces to protect both bio women and trans individuals from the pressure of stereotypes.
30 pointsJun 26, 2023
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trans women dominating women's sports, trans women claiming to have and trying to relate to bio women's periods, telling bio women how to refer to and behave with trans women, changing the labeling of the female identity, taking media platforms and awards away from women (ex: woman of the year), trying to emulate/spreading female stereotypes, trans women being the most vocal in female spaces, trans women shaping the idea of a "woman". It is because of the trans movement that no one can even define what a woman is anymore without a list of caveats or over generalizations. and I think all of this hurts trans women and the trans community. Yall deserve and desperately need your own space in society. That's how you get away from having to present as hyper feminine in order to pass or to avoid being mistreated. Trans women equal women, but they aren't the same, their needs aren't the same, and we need to stop treating them as such. You shouldn't be mistreated for failing to emulate a woman, you should be allowed to be trans and look trans. I also want to iterate that none of this is the trans communities fault, yall are just trying to survive (which unfortunately means you have to look like a stereotypical woman).

Reddit user smartidiot9 (desisted) explains that as a 21-year-old tomboy born in 2002, she never had a desire to be a man and found her people in university despite not fitting in with traditional gender crowds.
25 pointsSep 26, 2023
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I was born in 2002 and grew up right before all of this. I was allowed to be as tom boy as I wanted and I sure as hell was. Just turned 21 and I haven't changed much but I have absolutely not desire to be a dude. I do feel that because I'm nothing like the sorority girls and not a guy, I don't fit in to any crowd. But that it okay, I found my people in uni.

Reddit user smartidiot9 (desisted) comments on the potential of psychedelics to treat mental illness, citing lab studies on 'mini brains' that suggest they could reduce brain activity linked to addiction and depression.
22 pointsJun 16, 2023
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psychedelics could be potentially powerful in treating mental illness, for example mini brains (brain cells grown in labs) have been treated with psychedelics and responded in ways that could suggest they reduce the brain activity that leads to addiction, depression, etc (which might be why some people quit addictions after a shroom trip). The issue is these mini brains are not enough to know the full effects without human testing (which we can't do). There is way more to psychedelics than we know.

Reddit user smartidiot9 (desisted) explains why they believe being trans is biologically rare and predicts a cascade of detransitions.
20 pointsMay 11, 2023
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Im not going to lie to you, being trans is really rare from a biological standpoint (believe it or not-- a condition that makes you want to change a fundamental part of your body and brain at very high risk to self is rare). Its my personal opinion that only around ~5% of trans people are truly meant to be trans. This is also supported by the fact that being trans openly only began to become feasible 4/5 years ago. I believe we're seeing a cascade of detransitions because its been enough time for people to realize. I'm also willing to bet the trans subreddit overestimates the number of trans people there because family/friends also join (not sure if you have to prove you're trans to join).

Reddit user smartidiot9 (desisted) explains why comparing organ growth in labs to gender-affirming surgeries is inaccurate, highlighting the extreme difficulty and invasiveness of surgical procedures on adult humans.
18 pointsFeb 28, 2023
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Your comparison between the ability of medicine to grow hearts and replicate body parts on rats vs its ability to have safe trans surgery isn't accurate. It is much more difficult to change large body parts through surgery on an adult human than it is to use DNA to grow organs (which is much easier because DNA has the instructions for us, we just add the ingredients it needs). Rats, on the other hand, we can do a lot with because there are no consequences to messing up (and messing with their genome to create mutations like that is relatively easy compared to surgery). I feel like we've downplayed how invasive trans surgery is. Imagine if you had a food transplanted from your own skin and an arm removal. Heart transplants are still risky and often deadly procedures that take dozens of hours, the same is true of every transplant/removal surgery like this.

Reddit user smartidiot9 (desisted) explains why a person who transitioned at 14 may not be trans, advising them to avoid the sunk cost fallacy and re-evaluate their decision.
16 pointsFeb 28, 2023
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You were 14 when you transitioned. You probably aren't trans. Children aren't capable of making accurate, long term decisions like this. I'm sorry. Please don't be a victim of the sunk cost fallacy. Do some research into your options and think carefully about why you transitioned in the first place. It's okay to change your mind about things, especially as you grow during your teenage years.

Reddit user smartidiot9 (desisted) comments about finding happiness as a tomboyish woman after realizing she is not a rare species and meeting similar women in university.
16 pointsMay 20, 2023
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I kinda sound like you, but I live happily as a tomboyish woman. I used to think I was a rare species, but then I went to uni and surrounded myself with a lot of women like me. I don't really think of myself as a woman all the time, but I know I am one and I just don't really have a conscious thought of that somehow dictating how I behave. Sorry if this isn't very clear, just trying to help!