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The user's posts show a consistent, nuanced, and emotionally conflicted internal dialogue about their own gender identity, which is typical of someone genuinely questioning or desisting. The language is personal, contains self-doubt, and reflects a plausible, evolving perspective over time.
About me
My journey started with a deep desire to transition from male to female, imagining a life where everyone saw me as a girl. After starting hormones, I was hit with serious doubts, questioning if I was really a trans woman, non-binary, or just a man after all. The thought of detransitioning, especially the return of testosterone, filled me with a lot of anxiety. I'm trying to accept that if this path is wrong, I can close this chapter and move on. Right now, I'm stuck in the middle of all these thoughts, not really knowing where I belong.
My detransition story
My whole journey with gender has been confusing, and I’m still trying to figure it all out. It started with me really wanting to transition from male to female. I remember being on a family trip, sitting there in "boy mode" because I wasn't out to anyone, and just wishing desperately that they could see me as a girl. I imagined myself looking glamorous in a tank top and makeup, and everyone just accepting that as normal. But that wasn't my reality, and it was really hard.
I went on hormones, but then I started having serious doubts. I began to question everything. Was I really a binary trans woman? Was I non-binary? Or was I just cisgender after all? The biggest fear for me, if I decided to detransition, was the thought of testosterone coming back into my system. The idea of that gave me a lot of anxiety. I knew that physically, detransitioning would mean getting my breasts removed and getting a haircut, but the hormonal part scared me.
I don't know if I'm making the right decision. I keep hoping that I am, but there's always this voice in the back of my head wondering if this is a horrible mistake. I try to comfort myself with the thought that if it is wrong, I can just close this chapter, rectify the mistakes, and move on with my life. I see being transgender as real and valid, but I also see detransition as real and valid. The stories of detransitioners are eye-opening to me. I think anyone who hates on either group is just insecure about their own experiences.
I’ve also thought a lot about the bigger picture of gender. Part of me expects the whole non-binary trend to eventually die out like other subcultures have, where people just move on. But another part of me hopes for a future where acceptance is so high that gender norms don't matter anymore, and people can just live authentically without pressure. I'm stuck in the middle of all these thoughts, not really knowing where I belong.
Age | Event |
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(Age not specified) | Started questioning my gender identity and desired to transition from male to female. |
(Age not specified) | Began taking hormones as part of my medical transition. |
(Age not specified) | Started experiencing severe doubt about my transition, questioning if I was binary MTF, non-binary, or cis. |
(Age not specified) | Considered the possibility of detransitioning, but felt anxiety about the return of natural testosterone. |
Top Comments by /u/soupa-hot-fire:
I personally don’t hate on detrans people, I find the stories of detransitioners eye opening and inspiring. Being transgender is real and being detrans is also real. There are people who transition and become happy and there are those who realize it’s not for them. That doesn’t make either person or their experiences invalid, all opinions and all experiences help all kinds of people. Anyone hating a trans person or hating a detrans person is obviously not confident enough in their own experience that they need to deny others experiences. That is not right.
i agree, i am expecting the whole non binary 100 gender thing to die out, kinda like how goth and emo trends have died out. Many people will move on and close that chapter of their life and be done with it....... OR
Acceptance rises, gender norms are thrown out the window, people can live an authentic lifestyle without societal pressures and less people are depressed and everyone can find their place in society, and express themselves how they please and feel valid no matter how taboo of a lifestyle they live.
I still dont see the reason you stopped, could you elaborate a bit more? Were your changes causing you to be uncomfortable? Was it because you didn't like the attraction to guys that you were developing? i got that you were on, hormones, and then you wanted to be off, hormones, but you never really explained what changed between you wanting to transition and wanting to stop transition. Like what was happening that made you decide that this was the wrong course for you?
Wow im the opposite now, Like the other day i was in boy mode (still in closet) and the entire family went on a day trip into the countryside and i was sitting there just wishing everyone would see me as a girl and be cool with it, Like me just sitting there looking glam in a tank top and makeup and people just treated me as they would normally...... Sadly thats not the case.
Well i know if i decide to detransition, its basically remove breasts and get a haircut and wait for my natural testosterone levels to return... But the thought of having good old testosterone pumping through my veins gives me anxiety.
All i wish i knew is am i making the right decision, or is this a horrible mistake that i am making. Do i want to be a female? Am i really a binary trans mtf? or am i non-binary? Or am i just Cis?
I honestly dont know. but i hope i am making the right decision, and if it is wrong well then i will be able to close this chapter of my life and just rectify the mistakes and move on with my life.