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The user's narrative is highly specific, emotionally consistent, and deeply personal. They repeatedly reference their own detransition experience (e.g., top surgery at 15, the somatic feeling of loss, a shift in identity through therapy) in a way that is complex and nuanced. The passion and anger expressed are consistent with the genuine trauma of someone who feels they were harmed by medical transition. The account shows the hallmarks of a real person processing a difficult lived experience.
About me
I was born female and my discomfort started with puberty, leading me to have a double mastectomy at fifteen. For years after, I learned that my real issue wasn't my gender but deep trauma that made me reject my own body. Finding somatic therapy finally taught me how to feel safe and at home in my own skin. I now deeply regret my surgery and the permanent loss it caused, as I've learned to love the body I was given. I am finally comfortable in my own skin and have found my way home.
My detransition story
My journey with transition and detransition started when I was very young. I was born female and from a young age, I felt a deep discomfort with my body, especially when I started going through puberty. I hated developing breasts; they felt alien and wrong on me. At the time, the only framework I had for this feeling was body dysmorphia. I didn't have the language of being "trans" like kids do today.
When I was 15, I made the drastic decision to have a double mastectomy, what's now called "top surgery." I was incredibly young and I wasn't encouraged to explore why I felt this deep-seated hatred for my own body. There was no "affirming care" back then, but there also wasn't any real therapeutic intervention to help me understand the root of my feelings. I just went and had it done.
For a long time, I thought that changing my body was the solution. But even after the surgery, the underlying feelings of depression, anxiety, and not being at home in myself never went away. I was still me. I started to realize that my discomfort wasn't really about my gender. It was about something much deeper.
I began to understand that a lot of my issues stemmed from developmental trauma and what I now believe is intergenerational trauma. I think my rejection of my femininity and my female body was a trauma response passed down through my family. If women in your lineage have been devalued or experienced trauma, that self-hatred and rejection can get passed on. I was the one who had to finally face it.
The real turning point for me was getting into therapy. I tried a few types, but the one that truly changed everything was somatic experiencing therapy. This is a body-centered therapy, not just talk therapy that stays in your head. It helped me learn to feel safe in my own skin, to regulate my nervous system, and to actually connect with my body as my home. For the first time, I began to fall in love with myself and the body I was given.
It was during this therapy that I physically felt the loss of my breasts. I could feel the mass that was missing from my chest, and I understood that, despite my previous hatred for them, they were a part of me that provided a sense of protection for my heart. Their absence made my body feel less safe. It was a profound and painful realization.
I don't believe I was "born in the wrong body." I think that concept is a harmful metaphor that has been mistaken for literal truth. We are living in a state of confusion between symbol and reality. The beautiful idea of integrating both masculine and feminine energies within ourselves has been totally perverted. My journey was about rejecting and repressing an entire part of myself instead of becoming whole.
I deeply regret having top surgery at such a young age. I was a child who needed help and guidance, not surgery. I am now infertile and will never be able to breastfeed, which is a profound loss I feel every day. My perspective on having children has completely changed; I was antinatalist before therapy, but now I am hopeful about becoming a mother and I am so grateful I still have that ability, even if it will be different.
I don't regret my journey because it led me to where I am now, but I regret that the cultural conversation steered me toward physical alteration instead of psychological healing. I am angry that children today are being subjected to this on a massive scale. I believe it is a form of human experimentation and a stunning failure of society to protect its young from adult projections and unresolved trauma.
I am now comfortable in my own skin. My body is my safe place, my protector, my everything. I found my way home.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 15 | Underwent double mastectomy ("top surgery") due to severe body discomfort and hatred of developing breasts. |
| Around 28 | Began my search for real answers, starting different types of therapy to address ongoing depression and anxiety. |
| 30 | Found somatic experiencing therapy. Began the process of learning to feel safe and "at home" in my body. |
| 33 | Understood the loss from my surgery somatically and began to process the regret. Fully accepted my female body and embraced the possibility of motherhood. |
Top Comments by /u/the_reaper_reaps:
it is frustrating, but its a bit of a cult now. apparently Dylan mulv. just posted about still being depressed despite all the physical change and I don't understand how the audience doesn't get it... youre depressed bc you need therapy! and if its presenting in discomfort in the body, then you need somatic therapy. Alan watts nailed it in 1965, 'we are living in a state of total confusion btw symbol and reality' ... its sad to me bc the whole idea of being both masculine and feminine (despite our physical biology) is such a beautiful concept for integrating wholeness, for becoming fully human, but its been totally perverted by a generation that's been subject to severe developmental trauma and/or intergenerational trauma and has now confused the symbol for reality (and completely rejected/repressed an entire living part of themselves)
everything changed for me after I got into therapy (specifically jungian and somatic experiencing).. unfortunately id already cut my tits off but nothing else.. 3 years into therapy and im thinking about starting a family (I was antinatalist as well)... I know for me, my relationship with my female body was a trauma response (difficult childhood).. I may not be able to breast feed but I am so proud and lucky to get to be able to be a mother.
first they're likely lying about "the studies" ... but you bring up an epic point.. what is the science of being born in the wrong body? how does this happen.. like the physics of it..? honestly, until someone can prove this (they cant) I will never believe the total self annihilation (and soft suicide) of 'being born in the wrong body.'
im a millennial and back then it was called body dysmorphia. I had my tits cut off at 15. im lucky no one tried to sterilize me or convince me that I was 'born in the wrong body' (but wait, seriously, how does that happen? whats the science behind being born in the wrong body? is it god who made the mistake? nature? like, I really wanna know how we all of sudden came to the idea that it is scientifically *possible* to be born into the *wrong* body??? fuuuuck the baby boomers fucked us upppppp).
were def going to have a generation or two of some really fucking angry children-now-adults who were oversexualized and abused/mutilated openly by society. not to mention the sterilization of women.
it took. me about 2 years of two diff types of therapy (one being a somatic/body centered therapy) before I became comfortable in my body, and beyond that began to fall in love with myself/my body... its interesting bc in the somatic therapy I can feel the loss of my breasts (I had them cut off at 15).. like there is mass missing from body and despite the fact that im still not sure how I would carry large breasts, my body feels less safe in a way (bc there is a piece missing). I wish that instead of 'affirming' we might offer those who feel discomfort in their own body, therapy. developmental and intergenerational trauma can result as a repression or rejection of self, but therapy really can help put the pieces back together and regulate the nervous system to a place where the body actually feels safe and the true home of being.
I don't care if people call me a name. that's the definition of emotional maturity (being an adult) - knowing the difference btw words and actions. if someone comes at me w a knife, ill defend myself. but honestly, I do not care what people 'think' of me... or the 'words' they use. this culture of fear is honestly becoming pathetic to me. seriously, come at me bro! ill think and say whatever I want.
did you ever think youre being lied to? that there is an unimaginable financial push to get as many people as possible on life long meds to make an exceptional amount of money by medical corps? I don't know what happened in the early aughts to confuse so many people... but trusting external authority about personal self expression was not something I as a millennial was raised with. being forced into college only to graduate in 2008 was something we unfortunately 'trusted' ... after the last three years im more convinced than ever, do not trust external authority. they fckn crazy
if you can get into therapy?? I was able to overcome my self loathing, and my long standing discomfort in my body. also there are some great resources today that are not so binary (were complex creatures!) like https://genspect.org or even this jungian life podcast (their detransition episode was very moving).
that's exactly what is happening with the kids.. imagine living in a family lineage where women were not respected or held in any regard.. imagine that happening for generations, with no family member willing to look at it (like, in therapy).. and then boom we pop out into the future and all of sudden lil Jenny hates her female body, hates the idea of womanhood, doesn't feel comfortable as she is in reality.... I WONDER WHY.. the concept of subconscious projection (and intergenerational trauma) is sooo imp to this debate.
the best therapy I got to feel safe and at 'home' in my body is called somatic experiencing. its body centered therapy (not mind/ego) and once you feel the capacity of a regulated nervous system, a lot of these ego issues (should I tell her or not) simply go away.. there's so much damn wisdom in our bodies, in my experience way more than whats in our head. its amazing not to have to be in so much control/hypervigilance anymore.. and its really fucking special to be able to know and rely on *my* body as my safe place, my protector, my everything.