This story is from the comments by /u/thisonesathrowawway that are listed below, summarised with AI.
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The user's posts display a high degree of personal, consistent, and emotionally resonant detail about their six years on testosterone, double mastectomy, health complications, detransition, breast reconstruction, pregnancy, and long-term psychological journey. The narrative is complex, spans several years, and evolves naturally, which is difficult to fake convincingly. The language is passionate and often angry, which aligns with the genuine trauma and strong feelings many detransitioners express. The account shows no signs of automated posting or copied rhetoric.
About me
I started transitioning when I was 19, believing becoming a man was the answer to my deep unhappiness. I lived as male for six years and had my breasts removed, but the testosterone ruined my health and my mental state got worse. At 25, I realized I could never actually change my female body and I was tired of living a lie. I stopped hormones and now deeply regret the permanent damage, especially the loss of my natural breasts. I’ve found peace by accepting myself as a woman, and I’m now healing, married, and expecting my first child.
My detransition story
My whole journey started when I was very young, around 19 years old. I was deeply uncomfortable with myself and felt like I didn't fit in. I thought transitioning was the answer to all my problems. I started taking testosterone and lived as a man for six years. I had a double mastectomy to remove my breasts because I hated them and thought it would fix how I felt.
For a while, it seemed like it was working. I passed as male and was stealth, meaning most people in my life didn't know I was female. But underneath it all, I was never truly happy. My health started to fail me. The testosterone gave me high blood pressure, made me pre-diabetic, and caused my hair to fall out. I developed GI issues and an autoimmune disease. It also made my mental health worse, giving me terrible chemical anxiety.
When I was 25, my brain finished developing, and it was like a switch flipped. I realized I could never actually become a man. No matter how much I changed my appearance, I would always be female. I was tired of living a hollow, superficial life. I stopped taking testosterone and began the long process of detransitioning.
Coming off hormones was hard. My body had to recover, and I had to face the permanent changes I had made. I had significant pain from my mastectomy. I later got breast implants, but they are painful and limit my movement. I have silicone balls under my muscle, and it’s a constant reminder of what I lost. I can never get my real breasts back, and I grieve that I’ll never be able to breastfeed my children.
I now see that my dysphoria was rooted in a deep discomfort with being a woman in a patriarchal society and a hatred of the oppression that comes with it. I was influenced online and by peers who encouraged me. I was essentially brainwashed by a cult-like ideology that told me altering my body was the only way to be happy. I needed to heal the inside, not change the outside.
I found healing through radical acceptance—accepting that I am a female and that’s okay. It doesn’t limit who I can be. I found a great therapist who helped me deprogram from gender ideology. I developed a spiritual practice, started yoga, and focused on my physical health. I also found community with other women.
I do have serious regrets. I regret the permanent damage I did to my body. I regret the pain and health complications. I regret that I will never have the function of my natural breasts. But I don’t regret the person I’ve become through this journey. I’ve grown stronger, and I’m now rebuilding my life. I’m married, and I’m pregnant with my first child. My body has shown an incredible ability to heal, and for that, I am in awe.
My thoughts on gender are simple now: it’s all made up. There is no such thing as "cis" or "trans." I am a biological woman, an adult human female. That is a fact that no amount of hormones or surgery can change. True peace came from accepting that reality.
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 19 | Started taking testosterone. |
| 19 | Began living socially as a man. |
| 20 | Had a double mastectomy (top surgery). |
| 25 | Stopped testosterone after 6 years due to severe health complications and a realization that I would never be male. |
| 25 | Began the process of social and medical detransition. |
| 27 | Had breast implant surgery for reconstruction. |
| 28 | Pregnant with my first child. |
Top Reddit Comments by /u/thisonesathrowawway:
I mean… not really because they aren’t seen as women. Not truly. We pay lip service as a culture as some sort of maladaptive “ fight freeze or faun” reaction. But no. If anything when I was perceived to be a trans woman I had male privilage still … that was a weird beginning of detransition
It’s not your fault. I’m also bitter. The bitterness has grown into rage. I blamed myself for years. It kept me from holding the doctors accountable. We were let down by society that should be protecting children, women and mentally I’ll members of the community. Instead we were taken advantage of. It’s not your fault.
This is a barbaric surgery you’re complicit in dooming them to. I don’t know if you know this but it has something obscene like 80 percent failure rate and a success looks like being a medical patient forever with never ending complications. It is not a real science but the doctors won’t tell you that becuse they stand to lose so much money. Truthfully if I were a therapist right now I wouldn’t write these letters nor only from a moral stand but also because it is likely you will get sued in the future. These surgeries damage people so severely that a lot of us are currently pushing for longer statutes of limitations so we can hold those who maimed us accountable. That includes you.
I have ptsd from transitioning and being manipulated and lied to by doctors and activists and society. I’m working with my therapist on this currently as well as working to build resiliency against the symptoms that emerge when I’m triggered. And I feel the same about the trans flag.
Same. I had to leave school because I was getting too triggered by the teacher being a they then who loudly tried to convert the class to her ideology. She encouraged another student to seek top surgery. I had a legit panic attack in that class and had to leave it. Didn’t feel like I could tell anyone why either. Never confronted her. Wish I had now. But I couldn’t at the time.
No. I stopped because I had high blood pressure, was pre diabetic all my hair fell out ( not like male pattern baldness, like a body abusing steroids) and developed a gi issues as well as autoimmune disease. It also made my mental health worse and I developed chemical anxiety that literally is just from the t. So. No. Not safe even a little.
I was one hundred percent sure. Even when I lived as appearing to be the opposite sex for six years. Then I grew up my brain finished developing and I got tired of living a hollow superficial life. No matter how much surgery I had I would never be the opposite sex. I no longer believe there is such a thing as true trans or even trans at all. There are people who chose to alter their bodies to appear the opposite sex and that’s all
I was 100 percent sure I was. The drugs even made me feel better for a few years. Then reality came crashing down around me. I couldn’t move forward with my adulthood. I was stuck. Arrested development. I felt almost real but I wasn’t. I was never ever going to become a man or be “ not trans”. I was going to have to occupy this weird in between space forever and then my health started failing. I am disabled from this course of actions I took.
Seeing this shit pop up everywhere these days … knowing half the people participating in this fad culture are harming themselves ( and the fabric of our society and collective mental health) makes me bananas. Same with peoples sections to it always being fawning like the clout can rub off on them.
I’m serious, this is needed so badly. Kids to have a role model that is detrans. Think about how many of them are going to need to detransitikn and only have negative views on this subject. Give them the character to relate to. Sure TRAs will be mad but everything makes them mad