My silver lining is that my transition experience has proved to be that I will stop at no ends to feel better and to get the help that I need. I want to translate that into voice training and eventually presenting as a woman in the workplace despite the backlash I may receive for being unspokenly transgender for so long.

It's taught me that I try my best when it really matters to me, and see it through until all other options are exhausted. It's taught me to cope with change, things not being exactly the way you want them to be, and to let go of what you cannot control. It's also taught me to trust my gut better, LOL. Was it an overall positive experience? Absolutely not. But I've come out on the other side doing much better than I ever was coming in. Hoping you can find the positives as well, OP. I think everything can teach us a lesson about ourselves.

They don't support it because they want kids to go through surgery they'll regret, they just support people being themselves, especially if it's non-conformist. Checks out IMO. One comedian said he doesn't like kids transitioning, just kids, and now his careers' tanked. When your income depends on the people, you don't go off the charts with getting too opinionated. But I think it's reasonable to say that adults can make their own choices with their body and life.

Yeah, my first therapist said "your tics seem to be more caused by anxiety" and we left it at that. She challenged my dysphoria in subtle ways, but I was stubborn. It's okay to be angry. It is hard to feel you opened your soul only to not be truly seen.

This is how I was in the heat of things. All you can do is be there for them until they figure things out. 🫂 You can gently suggest it, say how you felt, but you also have to know you can't do anything that will make anyone act a certain way. Their brain is probably automatically rejecting any opposition as "transphobia" as mine used to. It must be hard to witness and I am sorry to hear about this.

Right!! At the time I had all the classic signs, I was suicidal due to GD and at the end of my rope, OFC you're going to take HRT if your distress over your assigned sex is so bad. Some try to paint us out as a group that didn't put any thought into our actions, or we just got a haircut for 2 months so our transition wasn't "real" to them. I was very doubtful in the beginning but was told by friends and professionals alike that my question of such a persistent issue was internalized transphobia. No issue now !! I love my life !

Near everything is reversible with enough time and I could not be more grateful. Feelings can change with time, I don't see why it's even an argument at all to tell people who legitimately transitioned that they were "never trans". Many of us lived as transgender people, publically, privately, stealth, for years.

It's so dismissive and obvious it's triggering some wound when all ppl talk abt is their personal experience w/ transition/detransition and then people get up in arms.

Going on a rant here but it's hard for me to talk abt some complex feelings w the stigmatization of detransition irl w/o feeling like i'm giving off "transphobic dogwhistles" or "vibes" even tho i'm not transphobic at all and DGAF abt what adults do.

I think I am too, tbh. I've heard that if you're overthinking it or insecure than it can just affect your senses overall so I think it's just something to work on in therapy. Thank you so much for taking the time to respond, it means more than you know, lol.

In my honest opinion, so long as you genuinely just see it as an outlet for fun and expression & not your "deepest self" (you've already expressed you feel solidified in being male & want to continue being so), you'll be fine. There's absolutely no problem with dressing up for fun in my opinion. I only think it becomes harmful if you feel ashamed for being a man doing this, it could possibly lead to you feeling like you must be a woman in order to enjoy women's things. But I'm a woman so I don't exactly know what a males perspective on this would be. Have fun! And if it makes you uncomfortable, you can always stop. It's just clothes! I wouldn't worry too much about it

Thank you so much for your response. I just feel like people don't talk about this as much as more obvious things like your voice or hair but I feel it all impacts you just as much.

I don't believe in unnecessary surgery, so I'm going to wait a couple years and see what happens with more estrogen and stability. Can I ask how long you've been off? Has your sensitivity changed with time, or did you never have such a drastic decrease?

I think it is just difficult with comparison in the mind, either to the past or to others. Both aren't healthy responses to detransition, lol. I am sure there is a learning curve as hormones are adjusting, thank you for the perspective. With time I will grow more comfortable and confident. Thank you!!

This is my situation right now! My voice has softened but still seems male. I have lots of faith that through voice training you can reach a female standard of speaking, even if it is not like your original baseline :) Hope is not lost until we are dead ! I understand it can be distressing to be read as male even as you try to be as feminine as possible, but retraining the voice takes lots of trial and error & time and effort. There are lots of tutorials online !