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The user's perspective is consistent, nuanced, and deeply personal, reflecting a long-term engagement with the complex emotions of detransition, gender nonconformity, and lesbian identity. The comments show personal investment, empathy for others, and a clear, evolving viewpoint over several years—all hallmarks of a genuine user. The passion and criticism expressed are well within the expected range for someone who feels harmed by their experiences.
About me
I'm a masculine lesbian who started transitioning because I felt deep discomfort with my body and the pressures of being a woman. I thought becoming a man was the only way to be myself, so I took testosterone for a while. I realized it was a form of escapism and stopped when I learned about the serious health risks. My real problem wasn't my female body, but my struggle to accept myself in a world with rigid stereotypes. I'm now happily detransitioned, focused on my health and being a proud, masculine woman with my girlfriend.
My detransition story
My journey with transition started from a place of deep discomfort. I never felt like I fit in with the expectations for a woman, and I hated my breasts. I saw them as these foreign things that didn't belong on my body. I was also a lesbian who was more masculine, a butch, and I felt a lot of pressure from both society and within the LGBT community itself. It seemed like the only way to be a masculine person who loved women was to become a man.
I started identifying as non-binary first, and then as a trans man. It felt like a logical next step. I was influenced a lot by what I saw online and by the narratives I heard from friends in the community. There was this overwhelming message that if you were uncomfortable with your body and gender roles, you were probably trans. I thought testosterone and top surgery were the answers that would finally make me feel complete and happy with myself.
I took testosterone for a while. The initial feeling was powerful; it felt like a high, like I was finally becoming who I was meant to be. But that feeling was temporary. The underlying issues—my low self-esteem, my anxiety, my discomfort with how society treats women—were all still there. I started to hear horror stories about the long-term health effects of testosterone, like how it can atrophy your reproductive system and cause serious, life-threatening infections. I read about Buck Angel's experience and it terrified me. I realized my body wasn't the enemy; the problem was my relationship with it and with a world that tells women they can't be masculine.
I began to understand that my desire to transition was a form of escapism. I was trying to escape the realities and pressures of being a woman, especially a masculine lesbian. I saw that a lot of other butch lesbians were getting swept up in this too, transitioning because they felt othered and then later realizing they had lost a part of themselves. I came to believe that what we really need is more gender nonconformity, not more transition. We need to show young women that it's okay to be a masculine woman, that "woman" and "lesbian" are not bad words.
I stopped testosterone. I consider myself detransitioned now. I have some regrets about taking hormones, but I don't regret realizing it was a mistake and stopping. The whole experience taught me that my problems were never in my body; they were in my mind and in society. I benefited from stepping away from affirming therapy and instead just working on accepting myself for who I am: a masculine woman who loves women.
My thoughts on gender now are that it's largely a set of social rules and stereotypes. Humans are sexually dimorphic; male and female bodies are different. But that doesn't mean we have to act a certain way based on those bodies. I think the focus should be on breaking down those stereotypes, not on changing our bodies to fit them. I'm now focused on building a happy, healthy life with my girlfriend. I lift weights, I take care of my body, and I try to be a role model for other young girls who might feel like I did, to show them that they can be strong, masculine women and still be proud of who they are.
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 19 | Started identifying as non-binary, influenced by online communities and friends. |
| 20 | Began identifying as a trans man and started testosterone. |
| 21 | Stopped testosterone after learning about serious long-term health risks and realizing it was a form of escapism. |
| 22 | Accepted myself as a detransitioned, masculine lesbian woman. |
Top Comments by /u/throwpatatasmyway:
That person is mentally sick and I looked it up, they apparently have mental issues and is aware that they lack empathy. They just happened to find a target.
That little troll is unimportant on the grander scale of things. You have so much more to live for and there is so much more out there. Don't let yourself trip over a worthless pebble. :)
The blame isn't on you. You were taken advantage of by greedy people who are profiting from people's traumas. Don't harm people and that includes you. The decision you say you made wasn't made independently. You had people egging you on, feeding you lies that this is what you needed. You asked medical professionals but they were more comfortable with lying and profiting instead of actually healing you.
I'm sorry and I hope you keep safe.
What we need is gender nonconformity. Not nonbinary. NB is still denying the reaity of our body (humans are dimorphic even if it's at low levels, clear differences are stil there in our bone structures). NB is the slippery slope that caused a lot of detrans to transition and it's sad. I agree with you though that things are way more backwards now than before.
You're not a freak. People are just very opinionated on this issue and to be fair it's not surprising since it's resulting in people like you being harmed.
I've seen a lot of detrans people living well and it's not too late for anyone, even if someone was on it for years. If I were you I'd take some time off soc media and just focus on myself first. TC and GL <3
It's a badge of honor. You realized that something is wrong and you decided to know what it was. If they banned you for waking up and for accepting and loving yourself then that just proves that it's something that they are not able to do.
Also I find it funny to find an ex 'terf' there. It's hilariously obvious that they're pretending to be what they say they are. If not, then that's just the usual and expected. Another trend hopper who thinks earning brownie points at the cost of having a conversation about this topic is more important.
Butch women are masculine LESBIAN women. A woman who loves another woman that likes a masculine style of clothing more and feels comfortable in being masculine. This alone does NOT mean they are trans. This is why a lot of butch lesbians have been confused and transitioned and why lots are detransitioning now.
You feel like you have a harder life as FTM because you're F. I've seen a lot of cases that are the opposite of yours where MTFs feel like being a woman is harder than being a man. There's something to be said here but I don't want to risk sounding rude since you already feel a certain way.
Imho. Western men thinks too much about their height. In my country short men with no money are able to date women taller than them. It's really just about how you approach a woman. If a woman or a man mocks another person because of their appearance that says more about them than the person they're mocking.
Do it so that you will have a longer life. I'm mistaken for a man most of the time but that doesn't make me think I'm trans because I understand that I don't need other people's opinion on my self. I am who I am. I don't know if this helps but I just want to share my experience on how I'm being perceived by others as a masculine lesbian.
Living a long and happy life with my gf is my primary goal now so I don't care much about others. Maybe focusing on other things can help you too.
Is it possible to engage with these hobbies in a healthy environment
It is possible. But you have to be careful because everyone has an eye out for an evil "terf". Saying you're a lesbian already automatically make you suspicious to them. Yuri, women made yuri is a good start for young lesbians looking into representation in art/comic but most of the women in yuri are feminine and makes butch lesbians feel like outsiders. I know a lot of lesbians who preferred yaoi more only because they looked like boyish girls and now those lesbians transitioned. They kept feeling othered to the point of transition. It's quite sad. I wish there are more butches in comics etc. I want young women to know that it's ok to be a masculine woman. And that woman/lesbian is not a bad word.
Someone has literally made multiple accounts just to bully me repeatedly, it's truly pathetic. So my account is just screwed now and I'm not being left alone.
Even for a redditor/4channer, that's beyond pathetic. I'm so sorry that you experienced such ugliness. I understand where you're coming from and I hope that you have a nice break from social media. Lock down/delete all that could be used to dox you because I don't trust the sanity of these people. As you said, one even made multiple accounts just to harass you. What a wretch.