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About me
I started because I felt weak and inferior for being a small woman in a world that values men. I almost tried to become an androgynous boy online because I hated what society said a woman should be. I realized my feelings came from internalized misogyny and a deep confusion between who I am and who I'm attracted to. I'm now embracing being a bisexual woman and learning to love my tiny body exactly as it is. I am so glad I never medically transitioned.
My detransition story
My whole journey with gender started because I felt like I was less than for being a woman, especially a small, short one. I felt weak and inferior in a world that seemed to value men so much more. I saw the violence and oppression that women face, and it made me feel like being a woman was a death sentence. I hated that patriarchy wanted to turn me into a Stepford wife, a silent ornament. For a while, I genuinely believed I would be better off dead.
I started to think that maybe I was supposed to be a boy. I was never going to take testosterone because I didn't want to lose my hair or get back hair, but I definitely planned on other things to try and blend in with the emo boys I saw online. I was this close to trying to become one of them, posting top surgery scars and voice progression videos. I see now that my feelings came from a place of internalized misogyny and hating what society had told me it meant to be a woman.
A huge part of it was also that I’m attracted to androgynous guys and butch, gender nonconforming girls. I realized I was trying to become the very thing I was attracted to; I wanted to be a cute andro guy because that's what I found desirable. I hated myself for not being able to become that hot andro guy, and then for not being the hot andro butch girl. It was a mess of low self-esteem and confusion.
I started to see this pattern everywhere, especially in online ftm communities. There was so much hatred for being a woman, so much "not like the other girls" talk. It felt like a new wave of homophobia, pressuring gender nonconforming gay and bisexual kids, especially lesbians, to change themselves. It made me so sad to think of butch girls feeling like they needed to butcher themselves to look like men and grow beards. There's nothing wrong with being a butch girl or a fem guy. We are a beautiful, diverse rainbow.
I also started to see how this was affecting the lesbian community, with people changing the definition of what a lesbian is. It felt like the T was swallowing the LGB. I began to believe that separating sexual orientation (LGB) from gender identity (T) made more sense. I found a new sense of freedom in embracing being a happy bisexual woman.
Now, I’m working on loving my tiny, squirrely body. I’m coming to terms with being okay with being a mischievous imp, a woodland creature. I don't need to be fixed. We are all good enough exactly as we are. I have no regrets about not physically transitioning. I am so glad I didn't go through with any medical procedures. My only regret is that I ever felt that way to begin with, that society made me feel so broken for just being a gender nonconforming woman.
Age | Event |
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Throughout teens and early 20s | Felt intense discomfort with being a woman, driven by internalized misogyny and a sense of inferiority. |
Early 20s | Seriously considered social transition and identified as male online; planned medical steps but never took hormones or had surgery. |
23 | Began to critically examine these feelings, recognizing internalized homophobia and the pressure on GNC people. |
23 | Fully embraced detransition and began the process of learning to love my body and identity as a bisexual, GNC woman. |
Top Comments by /u/tinysoilworm:
I see more and more mtf's who do act like men sexually attacted to being a woman. It makes me think quite a few of them are autogynephilic. I used to dismiss it but... it feels like quite a few are buffalo bill especially the way they treat lesbians. Their language about being a woman makes me feel nauseous. And seeing ftm forums filled with hating being a woman, hating talking to women, lots of not like the other girls talk. I wish it was LGB again. The T is swallowing us. And I'm happy I'm finding newfound freedom in being a happy bi woman.
I still get those impulse feelings I should have been a boy from internalized misogyny. I was never going to go on T because I never wanted to lose my hair or get back hair (my family line bruh no thank you) but I definitely planned on other stuff to make a ludicrous attempt to blend in with the emo bois... and I'm so glad I didn't. I feel joy that I am not in the ftm forums posting top surgery scars and voice deepening progression because I was this close.
I am working on loving my tiny squirrely body. My feelings came from feeling inferior for being born a small woman. I have a strong sense of agency and hate being in a world where patriarchy wants to turn me into a stepford robot. I felt so weak but now I see being a woman is strong and beautiful. I cringe thinking about being a duuuuude ... those pooner memes are too real my god. Delulu.
I kinda feel scared because of how (often cis) transactivists and trenders have caused an uproar and the crazy ass trad religious fundamentalists have clashed. I keep seeing people blaming LGBs for the TQ as if we are a monolith. But lgbs have spoken up about things like changing what it means to be a lesbian, gay men feeling like grindr became a trans app, etc. It feels like homophobes are using detransers and gender questioners as fodder to turn people against the minority. I feel scared being bisexual. I feel scared for us gender nonconforming people. Please tell me this elevated homophobia/biphobia is gonna die down soon.
I personally think it should be LGB separate from T which is about gender not sexual orientation. I don't get the new flag. The political divide is so gross. I hate both sides. I am not a human shield for everyone else's political agendas! I love gnc women. I love butch women and femboys. The lgb alliance on youtube has a video where les and bi women talk about the shame and abuse they got growing up for being gnc or butch women and they said this is the new homophobia. Reinstate gender cages as the 1950s trad stepford wife fantasy asses would like by telling people if they dont fit in their body is wrong. Their mind is wrong right? Ugh... I feel defeated.
I agree 100%. I felt like an inferior for being a woman and I am using resources to feel empowered as a woman, especially as a tiny squirrely woman 🥰🐿. I felt like I would be better off dead because women suffer so much oppression through violence being one of the main causes of death in pregnant women, the assault, rape, general violence, abuse, etc. I am not wrong for being a woman, society is wrong to have abused and destroyed us for centuries. I see a lot of internalized misogyny and even homophobia in ftm communities too (also mtf). Yesterday I read through a forum of men defending the idea of it being okay to rape women and I literally lost my appetite had a big plate of food (i ate it today instead). I have been cocooning myself in my garden pretending to be one of those woodland creatures from South Park lol. If I can't beat em, I'll hide in the flower bushes!
Yes!!! Oh my god this has to be more common. This has to be 90% of the ftmfeminitity sub. I wanted to be a cute andro guy which is what I'm attracted to as well.. I like andro guys and gnc girls, never liked hypermasculine dudes. I felt like I was trying to become what I was attracted to. Wanting to be the object of my desire. I started hating myself for not being able to become a hot andro guy to ... not being the hot andro butch girl. I swear I am a woodland creature in a disney film... I am coming to terms with being okay with being a tiny mischievous imp 😈🦇. We don't need to be fixed. We are good enough the way we are.
The LGBalliance lesbian leaders are saying this is the new homophobia. They used to try and fail to brainwash us to be straight and gender conforming. Trying to turn butch les and bi women into men. Turn twinks into women. Even drag which was the haven of many effeminate gay men is turning into more and more transwomen who are also drag queens? And sometimes use their transwoman name as a drag name... RuPaul got blasted years ago for wanting drag race to be a place for gay guys and now had to bend the knee to trans activists.
I want the return of tomboys and andro girls. These girls can be exactly as they are! Andro tomboys of all sexual shades! Str8, gay, bi, ace, whatever! You don't have to take T or masquerade as a man to do this. I want us to take our power back.
I agree. They don't want to be a man because they don't want to embrace any of that stuff. I think they're the ones that tend to stop taking T if they started because they realized that they didn't want to be hairy and balding and have android fat stores. A lot of tomboys and femboys are trying to turn themselves into the opposite sex I believe as an attempt to fit in because they've been told that there's something wrong with being gender nonconforming and reinforcing these gender roles. This is the new attempt at assimilating gender outcasts. Girls who think a straight guy cant love them but maybe a gay guy can? Girls who want to be a yaoi fantasy?
I'm starting to believe that there is a new wave of homophobia happening in this country that is affecting gender nonconforming homosexual and bisexual youth, especially lesbians. It is okay to be a butch girl or a fem twink guy. In fact, as a bisexual (les leaning) woman, I have a relationship preference for the rugged, rough tumbling butch girls and I don't want any of them to feel like they need to butcher themselves to look like men and grow beards.
I am also a little gender nonconforming and used to feel some shame about it at times (going back and forth between loving and doubting). If you are a gnc girl, you are beautiful exactly as you are. We are a rainbow, a beautiful rainbow. We are all our own unique shade in that rainbow. You are not a broken or discount version of a guy. You are not less than a man. This society wants women to feel less than if we aren't oraments and baby incubators for men and society. Women are amazing and diverse. We don't need to become men. Because these traits we have do NOT belong to men. Women are community holders, leaders, fighters, lovers, beauty, brains, strength, etc. And you can be both fem and masc and anything else!
I also want to say I think straight women are often affected for being gnc in a "masc" way. Because there is lots of love and appreciation among women-loving women for gnc girls. But I think there is a lot of pressure for straight women who are butch because there are a lot of men (not all!) who want a woman to be really feminine and I think that can be isolating for those girls because they get a lot of pressure from society to perform like Miss America.
There is nothing wrong with your height. Even if you were born a male, you could have been short too. There is nothing wrong with being short. I started to feel shame for that too because a lot of people treat you like a child when you are short especially if you have a baby face. But then I realized that the problem of my height doesn't exist, it's other people's problem. My height is fine.
Even though men are stronger than women, we are insanely strong in our own right but we get over shadowed by other people putting men on a pedestal. So if you want to be stronger, you should start getting into weight lifting, calisthenics, sport, etc. and making sure to adjust your diet so that you are getting the calories, protein, carbs and nutrients that you need. I would recommend being surrounded by other strong women so that you can see just how amazing they are. You could get into a sport like jujitsu and learn how to fight bigger people. And honestly, if you've ever considered doing roller derby or joining a woman's team that could help you learn to appreciate yourself as a smaller amazing masc lesbian. I am sorry this was long, I just had a lot to say.
I think the problem is because we have so many expectations in our society about our physical appearance women may not want boobs but feel like we need them to express feminitity. Because I know a lot of women with flat chests or a mastecromy feel like that but you don't have to. Many people like having it look like that. I bet it looks beautiful. None of us have to look feminine in our bodies to others to express and dress that way. There is a youtuber who has a flat chest and dresses so cute. Her name is Clara Dao. She makes videos on tips for flat chest fashion.
I personally think fitted tops look cute cause it shows off the cute flat chest. Also ruffles on the bust area or fun designs if you want to deemphasize your chest getting attention.
I don't know exactly what's going on. It seems like this person is having a fight with some aggressive terfs or just people who aren't fond of them being trans and I was trying to follow it but I really don't know what's going on. This just really stood out to me and grossed me out how they were talking about these womens bodies.