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The user's comments display:
- Personal, nuanced experience with HRT, therapy, and body changes.
- Internal consistency in their views over time.
- Emotional complexity, including anger directed at outsiders co-opting the detrans narrative, which aligns with the expected passion of the community.
- Critical engagement with both pro-trans and anti-trans rhetoric, refusing to fit neatly into a prescribed ideological box.
This is a coherent voice of someone who is critically reflecting on their own detransition experience.
About me
I started taking estrogen in my early twenties, hoping it would fix my deep discomfort with being male. Instead, transitioning made my dysphoria far worse by making me obsess over my body in a new and painful way. I stopped after six months and have been working with a therapist to understand my anxiety and depression, which has been crucial. I've learned that medical transition isn't the only answer to dysphoria, and it wasn't the right path for me. I'm calmer now and accepting that my future with gender is something I'm still figuring out.
My detransition story
My journey with gender has been long and complicated. I was always a gender non-conforming person, even as a kid, and I started wondering if I was trans in my early twenties. I had depression long before it was ever diagnosed, and I think I’d had feelings of gender dysphoria for some time too.
I don't believe in the idea of a "male brain" or "female brain." For me, it was never about feeling like I was supposed to be a different gender. I just knew I was deeply uncomfortable. The message I kept hearing online was that the only way to alleviate dysphoria was to transition. That idea really influenced my decision to start, even though now I see it's more complicated than that.
I took estrogen for about six months. At first, I was hopeful it would be the solution. But instead of making things better, transitioning made my dysphoria worse. It made me hyper-focus on my body in a way I never had before. I started picking apart every little thing, finding new flaws to hate, and wanting changes that were just unrealistic. The pressure to "pass" as a woman made me obsess over my masculine features, which I hadn't even been that bothered by before.
I decided to stop hormones. Quitting cold turkey was okay; it made me feel pretty depressed for a few days, but that passed. My body has changed back somewhat, but not completely. My breasts shrunk a fair amount but are still slightly noticeable. I was really self-conscious about it, but I was surprised that a sexual partner didn't even notice until I told him.
I’ve been working with a therapist through all of this, and it’s been crucial. I’d strongly recommend a regular therapist, not just a gender therapist, because they can help you work through everything else that might be going on, like anxiety or other issues, without only focusing on gender. For me, it was important to explore all sides of myself.
Looking into theories about why people transition, like autogynephilia (AGP), felt ridiculous and didn't fit my experience at all. I'm bisexual, and my reasons weren't purely sexual. I also get really frustrated when people blame things like anime or video games for causing people to transition. That's just not based in reality and feels like people are using our struggles to push their own political agendas.
I don't regret exploring transition. It was a path I needed to try to understand myself better. But I've learned that having dysphoria doesn't mean you have to transition to be happy. For some people, it is absolutely the right choice and saves their lives. For me, the side effects and the mental toll of the process were worse than living with my original dysphoria. I'm calmer now that I've stopped. I don't know what my future with my gender looks like, and that's okay. It's a personal choice, and it's scary, but you don't have to figure it out alone.
Age | Event |
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Early 20s | Started questioning my gender and experiencing dysphoria. |
23 | Started taking estrogen (HRT). |
23 | Stopped HRT after 6 months due to increased dysphoria and anxiety. |
23 | Began the process of detransitioning and working with a therapist. |
Top Comments by /u/transitionalprogram:
If all you've been on is estrogen, it's safe to stop cold turkey if you want. I did and it didn't have any super adverse effects. It did make me pretty depressed for several days but that is temporary, so just be prepared to deal with that. T will start coming back pretty much immediately
I know it doesn't masculinize but trying to pass as a woman and see myself as a woman just highlighted all the masculine things about myself that I didn't think about before. I think in many ways too, if a guy has feminine qualities other people will highlight those and if a trans woman has masculine qualities other people will highlight those to the point where trans women are seen as more masculine than many men.
I already have a therapist so while that's good advice it doesn't do much for me at this point..
I don't agree with these predictions. People have been predicting that the proverbial floodgates would open up for some time now and I don't see an indication that it's going to happen. I think unfortunately some people are just hoping for it as a form of revenge.
I think the people who think biological sex is a social construct are goofy but also few and far between. More common are the people who don't deny that biological sex is a thing, but want to acknowledge that it's more than just a binary and that there are more factors that make up biological sex like hormones and epigenetics and such, which I think is true. It's important to acknowledge because there in fact intersex people out there and they're subjected to "corrective" medical practices in childhood and infancy and I would hope anyone on a detrans sub in particular would be against that.
Thanks for the response! I'm not opposed to transition and I think that it is the right path for many people, just possibly not for me. I'm kind of seeing it like a medicine now, it may be a godsend to the people who need it but it's not without side effects and it may not make sense for someone who's symptoms are more mild. Hearing that dysphoria could only be alleviated by transitioning did affect my decision to begin transitioning which kinda sucks but also seems to be a result of trans people needing to constantly defend their (our?) existence so I'm not overly bitter about it. As far as the source, I don't know exactly what it is. I've ruled out some things and I see a therapist who is helping me through all of this so that's nice. In your view, does dysphoria always have a cause or do you think people can be genetically disposed to it? Not sure if it really matters for me but I'm curious due to what you said about being aware of the origins.
What I wish I knew is that having gender dysphoria doesn't mean you have to transition or else you can never be happy. Many people transition and find happiness that way and I don't see a point in actively denying their experience.
But transitioning comes with a lot of baggage and difficulties. For me, transitioning made my dysphoria worse because it led to me hyperanalyzing my body and desiring unrealistic things from it. I started constantly finding new things about my body to hate, including things I never had I have felt more calm since taking a break from hormones. I don't know exactly what I'll do going forward but that's where I'm at right now.
Ultimately it's a choice you have to make for yourself, which is scary, but you don't have to make it alone. I STRONGLY recommend talking to a therapist on a regular basis. Since you're considering a lot of perspectives around transitioning (which is healthy and good) I would recommend talking to a regular therapist rather than a gender therapist because they will be able to help you better with all sides of the issue including trauma/anxiety/etc, although if you're interested in seeing a gender therapist additionally, go for it. Find places and people that you can experiment with your gender and try things out with. It's okay and probably preferable to dip your toes into things.
I see you make essentially the same post here a lot and I wonder if you have any sources for the claims. I think we need to scientific and critical in our understanding of detransitioning, and making unsubstantiated claims doesn't do anything to help anyone. I have never watched anime, played video games, read YA novels or been into cosplay, fan fiction, fan art or any of the other and yet I'm sure you wouldn't be like oh yeah you're all clear go ahead and transition. Seems like this is all personal anecdotes from you (at best) and I don't see how wild guess work helps detransitioners.
If you think anime changes peoples sexuality or gender identity you're a fucking nutcase. And it's never actual detransitioners arguing this, it's always "allies" coming in here to take advantage of the light moderation in this sub to use our struggle as a soapbox for your wacky infowars level conspiracies. On a post from a person asking for help with serious childhood trauma for fucks sake!! How are you this lacking in self-awareness?
I was on estrogen for 6 months and they did shrink a fair amount. They haven't gone away completely and they may never. They're slightly noticeable if I wear a normal t shirt but not terrible, and it wouldn't stop anyone from thinking I was cis. I think I probably worry about them more than I need to, because I had sex with a partner last night who I hadn't seen since before I started HRT and he didn't even know I had been on HRT until I told him.
I don't think there's consensus on why people have gender dysphoria, but yeah Blanchard's view is that people transition for one of two entirely sexual reasons.
I looked up Rod Fleming and his stuff seems pretty ridiculous to be honest. I honestly have a hard time telling if he would consider me AGP or HSTS seeing as I had feminine traits from a young age that I was forced to repress, but on the other hand I'm bi, not at all conservative and began transitioning with no illusions in ever passing. I'm also attracted to men, but rarely super masculine men, and my attraction to men is not centered around bottoming.