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About me
I transitioned to male in my late teens because I struggled to accept being a lesbian and hated the stereotypes. I was on testosterone for a few years and liked the changes at first, but it caused me serious physical health issues and made me feel emotionally numb. I stopped taking it and began to detransition, and now I live comfortably as an androgynous woman. Meeting other regular gay women in real life helped me finally feel at home in my own body. I'm at peace with being female, though I still get frustrated with society's rigid expectations for women.
My detransition story
My whole journey with transition and detransition is complicated, and I'm still figuring a lot of it out. I think a big part of why I transitioned in the first place was because I had a hard time accepting being a lesbian. I didn't want to be seen as annoying or flamboyant, which is how I thought all lesbians were. I struggled to even use the word "lesbian" to describe myself, and that feeling carried over when I identified as a trans man. I just didn't want to be associated with that stereotype.
I started by transitioning socially and then eventually went on testosterone. I was on T for about two to three years, on and off. At first, I really enjoyed the changes. I loved my deeper, androgynous voice and the other masculine traits I developed. I saw my positive experiences with testosterone as a kind of body modification. I felt like I was becoming more myself.
But after about a year and a half on T, I started having physical problems. I experienced vaginal atrophy and cramping. I knew there were creams and treatments to manage it, but I realized that long-term, I might need surgical solutions, and I wasn't prepared for that. That was a major reason I started thinking about detransitioning. I also noticed that testosterone made me emotionally blunted, almost apathetic, which I didn't like.
Deciding to detransition was scary, but I started by just trying things out. I began presenting more femininely while still on T, going to places like concerts in feminine clothing to see how it felt. Eventually, I stopped testosterone completely. I was surprised that not much about me really changed internally—I still have a masculine personality and style—but everyone else's perception of me shifted. I just feel like an androgynous woman now.
I don't regret transitioning entirely. It helped me in some ways and I met a lot of people who genuinely benefited from it. My main issue is with people who see transition as a magic fix for all their problems instead of working on personal development. For me, it wasn't a cure-all.
My feelings about gender are still a bit mixed. Even though I identify as a woman now and have come to appreciate my feminine traits, I still experience some bottom dysphoria. Sometimes I still wish I could wake up as me, but with a penis. I'm comfortable being a woman, but I get frustrated with society's expectations of what a woman should look like and how we're pressured to conform to beauty standards. I feel like I live on the edge of the gender binary, and I'm most at home in queer spaces where I don't have to over-explain my gender or presentation.
Connecting with other lesbian and bisexual women in real life was a huge turning point for me. Meeting normal, down-to-earth gay women helped me feel better about liking women and about being female myself. It showed me that the stereotypes weren't real.
Here is a timeline of the main events:
My Age | Event |
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Around 19-20 | Started socially and physically transitioning, began taking testosterone. |
Around 21-22 | Started experiencing vaginal atrophy and cramping after about 1.5 years on T. This was a major reason I started considering detransition. |
Around 22 | Began detransitioning socially while still on T, experimenting with feminine presentation. |
Around 22-23 | Stopped testosterone completely. |
Present (Around 24) | Living as an androgynous woman. My body has re-feminized somewhat (my chest filled back in, my clit shrunk a bit), and I am comfortable with my identity, though I still have some dysphoria. |
Top Comments by /u/tribute2drugz:
My clit shrank after stopping T, but not completely to my pre-T size. However I don’t think a clitoroplasty is a great solution especially if you value what remains of your sensation.. losing all sensation there is a possibility and I don’t know if you want to do anymore gambling with your body.
I know it’s hard to live knowing you can’t go back to how it was before, but know it’s not the end for you or your future relationships at all. I’ve been with different partners of different genders and people have either never commented on it or they’ve complimented me on my size.
ive known several people with this exact kink, and expect for one person it was a form of humiliation. them getting their identity they had been so insistent on disregarded and being put into the stereotype of the “submissive woman” was sexy to them. If you go to any detransition kink blog it is usually hand in hand with some other humiliation or submission based kink like bimboification or cnc or something.
the only other person was someone who had told me they transitioned largely due to social roles and didn’t experience dysphoria. I think they only felt comfortable being a girl in an intimate setting? 🤷♀️ I imagine some people do use it as a way to allow themself to experience being a woman without committing to the baggage that comes with living as one.
I think you’re probably aware of the issue, being that you generalize all lesbians (or gay people in general?) as annoying and flamboyant and don’t want to associate with that. I didn’t want to either, and struggled with referring to myself as a lesbian and even as a trans man during my transition.
But after spending some time in real life lesbian spaces (I was very lucky to live in a state with three still standing lesbian bars!) and meeting gay and bisexual women organically, I found they are much more normal and down to earth than the women you can find on dating apps. Bonding with them had made me feel a lot better both about liking women and being a female myself.
I recommend seeing if there’s anything like that in your area. I found a lot of women I didn’t even know were gay at work just by bonding with them, if you’re still in school just focus on building yourself and your friendships, love will come at the right time
I think this is caused when people started high doses of T and maintain feminine speaking patterns while their vocal folds thicken? Or so I’ve heard
I honestly think the pitch of your voice is feminine and the only thing I feel off about your voice is how “creaky” it is.. I’m not really good with explaining this stuff and don’t know the ins and outs, but this video (it is a MTF voice lesson,) is kind of what I’m talking about when I’m saying that.
Even if you decide not to train your voice it’s definitely not alien and your not the only person who has a similar voice. Keep ur head up 💞
I was on T for 2-3 years on and off and socially and physically transitioned about a year or two ago
It might’ve not been the right choice for me but I’ve met all kinds of people across the gender spectrum who benefited from it greatly. I think my only qualms with some people who transition are those who use it as a replacement for personal development of sorts.. those who think it somehow makes up the entirety of who they are or those who have very real problems outside of their dysphoria and hold onto transitioning as a magic fix for their life.
Anyone who is in a secure place both in their life and within themselves should be able to do whatever they want with their body 🤷 I personally love the voice I developed on T, like some other people said I view my positive experiences with it as a body mod of some sort
I’ve found short dressed with shirred waists and sleeves are what work best for me, I’m the same height and I drown in all other dresses + the shirred waist and the way the dress kind of poofs out makes my shoulders and hips look more proportional
That’s the best I’ve found so far, kind of wish I could wear body con dresses too but they look sooooo odd on me 😬
I imagine socially will be harder because of the masculinizing affects of T.. no matter anyone’s opinion on it, societally gender has traits associated with it and depending on the traits you have that’s what people will perceive you.
That being said it’s possible. I’m not on T anymore but was for quite a while and started detransitioning while still on T. There’s ways to mitigate some of the effects of T like finasteride, laser, voice training, whatever. Whether you find that worth the effort is up to you. I personally live with my voice and shaving once in a while as an androgynous woman and feel happy and confident. Just keep in mind the effects are unavoidable, even on low doses it’ll happen eventually. Including some of the nasty effects like atrophy, so make sure you have a plan to navigate that.
I had been off for two years at least, but my last few shots were inconsistent so I can’t give you an exact timeline.. I did notice my clit appeared smaller around the same time my chest filled in again, probably a little under a year in.
I didn’t notice a decrease in sensation myself, just a difference in my orgasm intensity that reverted after being off T for a while. And it’s not too personal to me, I agree, people don’t talk often about some of the effects of T and I’m happy to share my experience.. T can have a lot of weird quirky effects on everyone
I’m sorry, it should’ve been more obvious to me this was a vent post but was confused because of you asking for answers. I agree the doctors should’ve kept your expectations realistic and I’m sorry you were misled. Everyone is telling you about voice training in an attempt to give you hope, not to discount what work you have done. Sorry.
I guess so. Even now identifying as a woman I still experience bottom dysphoria. I have come to enjoy my more feminine appearance and appreciate traits of my body I hadn’t before, but I still wish sometimes I’d wake up as me, just with a penis.
I relate to you enjoying a deep voice, holding a masculine role in the relationship, etc too. I don’t fixate on passing either but tend to pass anyways until I speak. Then it gets confusing