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The user shares highly specific, personal, and emotionally charged details about their surgical experience, recovery, and psychological journey. The narrative is consistent, complex, and reflects the passionate and often angry perspective common among individuals who feel harmed by their transition. The language is natural and contains personal anecdotes and humor, which are difficult to fake convincingly.
About me
I started identifying as trans at 14 because I was deeply uncomfortable with my female body and going through puberty. I was influenced online and by friends, and I went on testosterone at 16 and had top surgery at 17, which was botched and left me disfigured. I eventually realized my real issues were internalized misogyny, trauma, and mental illness, not being born the wrong sex. I now believe that rejecting gender roles doesn't require changing your body, and I deeply regret my transition. I am now focused on healing and pursuing legal action against the clinic that performed my surgery.
My detransition story
My whole journey with transition and detransition started when I was a teenager. I was about 14 when I first started identifying as trans. I was really uncomfortable with my body, especially going through puberty. I hated developing breasts; it felt wrong and unfair. I now realize a huge part of that was internalized misogyny. I felt like being female was a curse, and I had a lot of unaddressed trauma and mental illness. I was also diagnosed with autism, and I struggled with depression, anxiety, and an eating disorder. Looking back, it’s so obvious that these issues were the real source of my suffering, but instead of getting help for them, I was pushed toward transition.
I was influenced a lot by what I saw online and by friends who were also exploring gender identity. I started by identifying as non-binary, but that quickly shifted to wanting to fully transition to male. I socially transitioned first, and then I started taking testosterone when I was 16. I got top surgery when I was 17, right at the beginning of the COVID quarantine. Ironic, I know.
The surgery itself was a disaster. My chest is comically butchered. My nipples are basically in my armpits; I like to joke that they're social distancing. The surgeon did a terrible job. It doesn't look like a male chest at all. After surgery, my brain adjusted to not having breasts pretty quickly, but my body just felt like my 12-year-old self, just a bit taller and fatter. It never felt right. It felt synthetic and ingenuine, like a Frankenstein version of what the gender doctors thought I should be. Instead of being able to tell myself I was just born with my insecurities, I now have to deal with the fact that I gave them to myself.
I started to realize transition wasn't for me when I began to really process why I hated being a woman. I had to confront all that internalized misogyny and trauma. I no longer believe gender is real. I respect trans people, but I don't follow the ideology. I think there is only male, female, and intersex. It's basic biology. The other genders are human concepts. We are animals, and our brains are just trying to process gender roles. It's okay to reject those roles without changing your body. The reason we have two sexes is for reproduction. That’s it.
I have serious regrets about transitioning. The top surgery left me with a body that feels violated. I have fatty lumps in the back of my armpits that I’m 99% sure were caused by binding during puberty. I’m now working with someone who does scar camouflage tattooing to try and fix the appearance. She’s helping me sue the clinic and the surgeon, and the gender clinic is going to pay for the corrective services. It’s something, but it won’t give me my unviolated body back.
It sucks that this treatment is pushed on autistic, PTSD-riddled, anorexic teen girls. It should have been obvious that my mental conditions were the problem. I wish I had gotten non-affirming therapy that addressed my real issues instead. I’m trying to heal now, and sharing my story is part of that. I think it’s therapeutic for a lot of us to talk about how we struggle as women in society. It helps shift the anger to a source, which for me, was misogyny. It helps power through the dysphoria that remains.
Age | Event |
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14 | Started identifying as trans, due to puberty discomfort, internalized misogyny, and unaddressed mental health issues (autism, depression, anxiety, eating disorder). |
16 | Started taking testosterone. |
17 | Underwent top surgery. The results were botched, with severe nipple misplacement. |
17-18 (Present) | Detransitioned. Realized my discomfort was rooted in trauma and internalized misogyny, not a true transgender identity. Began the process of pursuing legal action and scar camouflage/corrective surgery. |
Top Comments by /u/vibincatto:
Many female detransitioners will adopt radical and feminist ideology when detransitioning that helps shift their anger to a source, which a lot of the time will be 'men' or 'misogyny'. Thats why youll see that stuff a lot on here. Sexism is still very prevalant in our society, and it is a huge reason of why i transitioned. But yes, some of that feminist ideology is sensational and excessive.
Talking about how we struggle as women in our society usually helps us work through it. And power through dysphoria. Its theraputic.
Being a woman is inconvienent and frustrating sometimes and its okay for other women to share that on here. Nobody is forcing you to read it. I dont think it makes anything worse for anyone sharing it either.
I'm actually genuinely afraid of detrans becoming its own sort of transgender identity and being co-opted as a concept that will be completely irrelevant to what it actually is.
Same, one of my fears about this is that the lgbt community will add a "D" to the acronym to make it look like detransitioning was supposed to happen to save their reputation. Like its all part of the "gender journey" that every tween is apparently supposed to have now 🙄
You are the same age i was when i transitioned. If i were in your shoes, i would wait. Just being uncomfortable with being viewed as a woman isnt enough to transition to male, and always be happy with it. It seems like your motives are very social-centered if i read your post right
In my opinion, your original body will be easier to accept in this situation. I feel like my body isnt mine, but more like a frankenstein of what the gender doctors thought i should be. I dont feel natural. Everything feels very synthetic and ingenuine. And instead of being able to tell myself i was just born with my insecurities, i have to deal with the fact i gave them to myself.
I realized transition wasnt for me when i started really processing why i hated being a woman.
I no longer believe gender is real. I respect trans people, but i do not follow the ideology. I know its probably been hammered into your head that this is TERF logic, but there is only male, female, and intersex. Its literal basic biology, and people just overthink it. The other genders are human concepts. You dont see any trans and nonbinary cats or dogs. We are animals too, our brains are just trying to process gender roles and its okay to reject those roles. The reason we are separated into 2 sexes, is for reproduction. Thats it. And this is my personal way of viewing life, but humans are here to reproduce and evolve. Obviously its very okay to be childfree and not leave a legacy etc etc!! But thats what our bodies are evolved to be able to do. You and a whole lot of other trans people will see that if you just look a little closer instead of saying thats terfy to believe 🤷♀️
Before i transitioned, i felt like being female was a curse. It felt so unfair my body was the way it was. I had a shit ton of internalized misogyny and trauma and unaddressed mental illness. I have another post on my profile you can read for more of my views on this stuff
Its ok. Sucks that this the treatment route they push autistic, ptsd riddled, anorexic teen girls down. It should have been obvious that my mental conditions were making me suffer so much. The person that it doing the scar camo stuff for me wants to help me sue, so maybe ill get some compensation. That still wont give me my unviolated body back tho
People need to know how awful this type of treatment can be for young people. There are thousands of women in the same place as i am but we are censored for 'transphobia'.
And yeah i think the tattooing will help. Its scar camoflauge which is just going to match my scars with the color of the rest of my skin to make them less noticible.
I was in such denial about how much they did me wrong for a long time too. I didnt realize i didnt deserve that until the person thats gonna do my scar camo and stuff said she wants to help me sue the clinic/surgeon. She already reported the surgeon who did my top surgery and she is going to have the gender clinic pay for the services im getting from her
Why do top surgeons have such a hard time with proper placement of the nipple grafts and nipples in general? Its like they have never looked at a human chest before. I know there are surgical limitations, but this isnt a hard concept to understand.
I was going to do revisions with my top surgeon but then i connected the pieces together about why i transitioned in the first place and ran far away from that surgeon and clinic. They know ive detransitioned, and why i seeked their treatment in thr first place. Hopefully they take notes from my experience and start treating the young females coming into their clinic with more caution.
I also have those fatty lumps but they are in the back of my armpits and i am 99 percent sure it was caused by binding while going through puberty.
And i am getting more content with my chest after reconstruction. I still look ick in my opinion because my nipples are still misplaced so they are now pointing out the sides of my boobs. From the front it looks like i have no nips. But im getting it fixed the best i can in the next surgery and my scars and extra tissue will be cleaned up too. Im so glad im not alone in this and thanks for the love and support 💗
Thats a great essay. Its ridiculous that the trans community ignores people who were completely mistreated, detrans or not. Im grateful i have the resources to be able to restore and heal my body as best i can but i know a lot are less fortunate. Some top surgeons are so sloppy with their care, mine was for sure
-It kinda seems like some surgeons nowadays are doing top surgeries with the goal of it looking like a top surgery instead of a male chest, if that makes sense. Mine is comically butchered. My nipples are basically in my armpits, i like to joke that theyre social distancing (i was ironically allowed to get my surgery at the beginning of covid quarantine lmao)
Oh jeez. My body adjusted to not having boobs anymore pretty quickly, like looking at my chest for the first time made my brain just snap to the new positioning thankfully. But i just feel like i have the physique of my 12 year old self honestly lmao. Just a tad taller and fatter. God i hope i can recover from this, and i wish the same for you 🫂